Hey guys, sorry about the wait, back to school and back to life. Hope this chapter makes up for it. Once again please review, feel free to private message and if I have made any mistakes, let me know :D. Also, I want to know about what you guys think of the pacing, good bad? Anything you majorly see happen? R&R.
Chapter 5:
I sat on the bed for hours. Thoughts jammed in my head, tears falling down my face. After a while I heard him enter. I didn't need to turn my head, I could tell by the little hairs on the back of my neck and the heat spread through my body as I felt his eyes on the back of my head.
"Are you okay?" he asked hesitantly. I sighed, still not willing to face him. My eyes were most likely large red balloons. I wiped them one more time, making sure they were dry before slowly nodding. I wish Ash had never found us. I wish Will had never saved me, more than that, I wished I had just died from the wounds that should've killed me. I heard him walk over, his shoes tapping quietly against the wooden floors. When he reached me, I felt him put his hand on my back; a fire ignited sending tingles throughout my body. I almost shuddered but stopped myself.
"You have to leave," I said, remembering what he said earlier about leaving.
"We do have to leave," He said, agreeing with me. I gently shook my head, looking up at his face through my hair. He gazed down at me, a confused expression played over his face.
"No, you have to leave. It is too dangerous." I said, hiding behind the wall of my black hair.
"What do you mean, it is too dangerous?" he asked, trying to get me to look at him. When I refused, he grabbed my chin and pulled it towards him but I kept my eyes from meeting his.
"If they find us, they will kill me and you and I..." I trailed off, I had said too much. I wanted to hit myself. He looked down at me seriously and I finally looked up at his eyes, red crossing my face within seconds.
"They won't kill you because I won't let them find you. I promise." He said, looking me straight in the eye, his hand still holding my face.
"It doesn't matter," I said, shaking my head and loosening his grip. He dropped his hand and I dropped my gaze. "I still can't come with you."
"You're not going to die Blake, I won't let you,"
"It's not that." I answered back, getting flustered. I wanted him to leave. Why wouldn't he just leave?
"Then what?" he asked, reaching for my face again. I slapped his hand away, looking up at him. My temper was getting the better of me again.
"Why won't you just leave?" I half shouted. I tried to calm myself down more. Emotions flew around inside me, angry, fear and one I couldn't name. His eyes widened in shock, he quickly recovered, opening his mouth.
"Why are you angry?" He asked.
"I'm not." I said, hearing the anger in my tone. I really had to control these outbursts. I didn't know what had come over me. I went to turn away from him but he grabbed my arm, pulling me back towards him.
"Blake, tell me the real reason why you want me gone and I'll leave." He said, sadness covered his tone and eyes. I felt bad at once, lowering my gaze to the floor.
"For some reason, I don't want you dead." I mumbled, so low I could barely hear myself.
"Pardon?" he said, I knew he had heard me. I saw the smirk on his face as I looked up, my temper flared again as I stared straight into his eyes.
"For some reason I don't want you dead." I screamed, before spinning on my heel and storming off. He caught me quickly; grabbing my arm and pulling me harshly back around. We collided, my body hitting his hard. His lips pressed down my mine and I froze. He started kissing me as I stood there, unsure of what to do. He kissed me gently, his hand coming up to cup my face. I went up on my toes, stretching to put my arms around his neck as he leant down more. I deepened the kiss, opening my mouth. I gasped for air; I had never kissed anyone before. I felt the tingles turn into sparks of electricity, it was like lightning bolts. He broke the kiss off, looking at me, grin plastered on his face. I couldn't help but smile back; a huge blush covered my face as I stared into his green eyes. It was then that I head someone clear their throat, leaping backwards out of his grip I turned to see Ash standing in the doorway, a look of loss on his face.
"Hey Ash," I said awkwardly, giving him a small smile. He ignored me, glaring at Will. Will was too busy looking at me and Ash's attention soon followed. I looked between the two of them, not knowing what to do. "I have to go," I said, before running pass Ash out of the room. I wandered around the house, eventually finding the living room. When I entered, Syd was sitting on the couch. I walked over, sitting down next to her. She looked up, beaming at me as I smiled.
"Blake!" she said, her childish voice ringing through the room. She jumped into my lap, hugging me around the waist.
"Hey Syd," I said, hugging her back.
"Blake," she started innocently, "Ash says you are a perfect, is it true?" she asked, and I froze, staring out the window. Nodding slowly, I looked down towards her innocent face; she seemed to be in deep thought.
"Aren't you scared?" I asked her, scared for her reaction.
"No," she shook her head, beaming at me once again. "I trust you Blakey, you wouldn't hurt me." I smiled at her
"Always remember that." I said, before picking her up. "Why don't we play outside?" I asked, walking towards the door. Syd was tiny for an eight year old. She had long brown curls and dark blue eyes. Her large front teeth gave her a slight lisp when she spoke. She nodded wildly, jumping down from my grip, running towards the door. Once we were outside, she started running around the small grass clearing.
"You're it," she called before running off. I rolled my eyes and started jogging after her slowly. We played for almost an hour before it started getting dark. We walked back inside to see Ash and Will waiting for us. They didn't look angry, but I was still worried.
"Are you hungry Syd?" I asked and she nodded. "Why don't you go get some cookies from the kitchen wand watch TV?" I said, as she ran off, screaming for cookies. I hoped we had cookies; I hadn't really taken note of what was in the cupboard. Once she had left the room, I turned back towards Ash and Will who were still staring at me intently.
"So?" I said, making my way towards a door. I didn't know what was behind it, but I hoped it was somewhere private. I opened the door and had luck once again; the room was small, drapes hung down over the large windows. A large wooden desk sat at the end of the room, with two seats in front of it. Was it an office? I walked over, sitting on the large desk and looking at Will and Ash intently. They walked over, sitting down on the chairs in front of the desk, looking up at me once again. They seemed to be waiting for me to talk,
"What? You guys were the ones staring at me?" I said, not wanting to look at Will. I kept my gaze behind them, knowing that if I looked at him I would blush again. I heard someone sigh,
"We have to leave," Ash said, trying to get me to look at him. I didn't meet his eyes, we? The echoed through my head, I wasn't going anywhere with Ash, was I?
"I am going with Ash?" I looked at Will, asking him. Ash seemed to get irked by this because he begun glaring at Will again. This pissed me off, why couldn't he try to be nice to Will, he had saved my life and helped me, healed my wounds. I then remembered the kiss from earlier, I hadn't really thought about it or what it meant. I hadn't even realised I had been glaring at Ash until he said,
"What?" I eyed him,
"Can you try to be pleasant?" I said, anger riding on my tone. His eyes widened in shock.
"I am?" He said, looking me in the eye.
"No you're not," I said through my teeth, "you have spent your whole time glaring at Will, I don't care what you're feelings are, I don't care if you love me, I don't love you, get in in your head. He saved my life and you are meant to be my friend so stop acting like a total dick head." I couldn't stop my words once I had started, I felt horrible yet my face stayed steady and my glare stayed strong. Everything I said was right, he should be nicer to Will, he had saved my life and I would owe him forever. That is why I want to leave me, so that he doesn't get killed, so he could go back and live the life he left behind. He probably had a girl waiting for him, his family missing him.
Ash seemed to be in shock, he sat there for a moment collecting his thoughts before getting up briskly and almost running out of the room. I lowered my gaze again, almost ashamed. I could still feel the fire in my chest but it was subsiding.
"I am a monster," I mumbled to myself.
"No you're not," Will answered me,
"I wasn't talking to you," I said,
"I know." He answered. I sighed, looking up at his eyes. They were beautiful dark green, eyes that you could gaze into forever. "You're emotions are just running on high because the erm... Monster has emerged for the first time. It will get better," he said soothingly. I couldn't help but feel more relaxed, I heard him walk over towards me. I felt him sit down next to me, his hand resting on my back. The tingles started again and I shuddered. He looked at me questionably but I just shook my head and smiled.
"Are you going to be leaving with Ash?" he asked a hint of sadness in his tone.
"I don't think he'd want me to after that," I answered, still ashamed of what I had done. All the emotions had died down and I now saw how badly I had reacted.
"He understands," Will said sighing.
"Maybe, but I am so horrible," I said, not meeting his gaze. I felt his fingers grab my chin, he gently guided it up to I was looking straight at his face. A large blush came over my cheeks and I swore I saw him smirk.
"You are not a monster, Blake." He stated, as if it was a fact. I was a monster, I had killed my parents, abused my best friend all because of the monster inside me. I let it control me, that made it my fault, made me the monster.
"You're wrong." I said, sighing and averting my gaze away from his face. This proved difficult being as he was still holding my chin in place. I felt him jerk my chin a bit, bringing my gaze back to him. I saw something flash across before his face leaned down towards mine. His lips brushed mine gently at first, almost hesitant. My body reacted in a way neither he, nor I was expecting. A large sigh escaped my lips and my arms moved to entwine around his neck. My lips locked to his, beginning a deeper kiss. I moved off the table and around in front of him, standing on the tips of my toes to keep contact with his mouth. Our lips worked in synchronization, as if they were meant to be together, as if we were meant to be together. Eventually he pulled back when I gasped for air, breaking out of my grip easily. My face was warm and I was breathing deeply. I looked up at his face and he was smiling again. I couldn't help but smile back, his face was so hypnotic. His smile made me feel warm and happy, it was beautiful. I reached up, pecking him once again before turning and running out of the room. I didn't know what any of this meant or why it was happening but I had to figure it out. Figure out why he kept kissing me and why I kept kissing him back. My head swirled with thoughts I couldn't comprehend, all but one. I didn't want him dead. I didn't want Will dead, which is why he had to leave me, but I didn't want to with Ash either. I walked outside the house, Ash was sitting in the middle of the field, and his hands cupped his cheeks as he stared out into the forest.
"Hey," I said quietly, sitting down next to him. He grunted a little, but looked over towards me, waiting for me to say something more. "I'm sorry for yelling." I said it wasn't much of an apology but I still didn't feel the guilt I should have.
"What do you see on him?" Ash sighed, his eyes trailing over my face.
"What do you mean?" I asked, confused.
"Will, what do you see in him that you don't see in me?"
"Nothing," I replied, not knowing whether it was true or not. Will was beyond beautiful; he had also saved my life. I didn't want to tell Ash about the tingles, I didn't know how he would react.
"Then let me kiss you," he said, looking staring into my eyes.
"What?" I said, shocked, my mouth hung open. I saw his head come towards mine, our mouths collided. The kiss was rough, nothing like Will; his lips weren't soft or delicate. I tried pushing him back with my arms but he was stronger than. I could feel anger rising inside me, I tried to control the monster, feeling it get angrier the more I pushed it back.
"Stop," I gasped, my hands shoving at his chest again but he didn't seem to hear me. His eyes were shut as he tried deepening the kiss. That was it, the monster broke through and I lost control, being dragged into the back of my mind, as if looking through a hole. I no longer had control of my body and I tried to break free. A snarl ripped through the forest and it took me a moment to see it was me, I felt my arms punch at Ash's face; on contact he went flying back. I pushed at the walls of my internal cell but the monster pushed me back further.
"I said stop," It snarled, my voice's normal bell like tone had turned dry and husky. Ash's eyes widened and I could see my reflection in his, my hair had a new glow to it, my skin glowing. My usually green eyes were onyx black, wide and full of rage. The monster had locked itself on its prey and it wasn't going to stop, lunging at Ash, my fist made contact with Ash again, he screamed out in pain. I screeched in my head, fighting harder to become myself again, the monster only fought back harder. I gained control of my head for a second,
"WILL," I screamed before the monster took control, a piercing snarl escaping my lips again. I saw Will come sprinting out of the house, his eyes wide, looking between me and Ash. As I looked down, Ash was knocked out cold and my body fell to the ground. My hands flew to my head as I fought the monster head. I felt Will's hand on my shoulder, I didn't know how long I had been on the ground or what he was doing, but I felt myself gain a little more control.
"Calm down Blake, give in and calm down, then it will." He said, trying to soothe me.
"Listen to him," the monster said, its husky voice nothing like my own,
"No!" I screeched, the bell like ring was back.
"Stupid girl," the monster snarled once more, attacking me once again.
"Blake, if you can hear me, calm down and give it what it wants and it will go away. Trust me Blake, it is weak, you are trained. Let it win and you will." I heard him, and I backed off, letting the monster snarl some more. I don't know how long I sat in my own mind, waiting for the monster to retreat. I wasn't aware of anything outside the blackness of my mind. When I finally came to, I was lying in the bed and Will was sitting on the end of it, watching me intently.
"I seem to end up unconscious in beds a lot lately," I said jokingly, a smile playing on my lips. He smiled at me, his eyes bright.
"And I seem to be carrying an unconscious damsel in distress to a bed a lot lately." I laughed out loud, actually laughed. I hadn't done that in a long time however it quickly passed.
"Is Ash okay?" I asked and Will's eyes darkened. He only nodded and I sighed, I felt awful, I had attacked him, it had attacked him.
"Was it good?" Will suddenly asked,
"What?" I asked confused. I seemed to be confused a lot lately and it was frustrating me. Normally I was strong and independent. I never took no for an answer, I was smart, a smart fighter and smart about keeping myself alive. Lately I felt like none of those things, I felt weak and dependant, a burden.
"He kissed you, did you... like it?" Will choked out. My eyes widened before I shook my head,
"If I had liked it, I don't think the monster would have taken control." I said before turning my head to look out the window. I didn't want to talk about this with Will.
"Do you like kissing me?" Will asked, a huge blush spread over my features and I nodded my head. The nod was small; almost not a nod but he saw it. Smiling he moved up next to me, his hand moving the hair away from my face. He leaned in, lips connecting with mine. For the third time today he kissed me. My body took over once again, lips parting letting a huge sigh escape. Our lips moved in harmony. I felt the electricity rise up between us again as I moved to sit on his lap, legs around his waist. I didn't know what I was doing, I had never kissed a boy before this morning and other than Ash no other boy had ever been interested in me. I didn't believe in love, not really. My parents never set a good example; I was from a broken home. Though, where I came from, a sound family didn't exist, where I came from, you and only you had your back. I felt Will guide me backwards so I was against the pillows; he hovered above me, a smile plastered on his face. He locked our lips together once more and this time the electricity became lightening, I could feel something change in the air, almost smell it. I felt like I wasn't me anymore, realising I wasn't. The monster had taken control but this time was different, it didn't shove me back into my mind, locking me there. I was in as much control of my body as it was. I looked up at Will, his green eyes were black and I realised he wasn't himself anymore either. I head something at the door, a knock? I could be sure. My body deepened the kiss, hands coming up to entwine in his hair. A loud gasp brought me back, Wills eyes turned green again and he looked almost shocked. I sat up straight to see Ash standing in the doorway.
I shook my head, trying to clear the thoughts away, why did he keep walking in on us? I growled to myself but was instantly taken back. Being with Will had made me change from the person I really was and if I was going to save his life, I had to stop being his Blake and start being the cocky, determined one I was before.