A/N: Rating bumped up to M for this chapter! But you guys can skip the lemon part indicated by the *.

How long has it been?

How many years has it been?

One?

Two?

Three years?

It's been three years, huh?

Will he still be here?

Will he still be waiting here?

Kanda wandered around the familiar streets of his old home. It was still the same as always, quite and cold.

He'd finally admitted to himself that he was worthy of carrying down his family name after all that intense training back in Japan in the past years. Reaching twenty-one years old, a full fledge adult, he was finally free to roam on his own. And his top priority, at the moment, was to find that one person he'd left behind.

"I'm sorry, I have to leave."

That was all he'd said to the other.

No explanations, no nothing.

Just a simple goodbye.

Kanda's resolve was already made up. He had to go to Japan, he absolutely had to. Anymore exchange of words between the two would have made Kanda's resolve falter, and he couldn't have that happening, no matter what.

Which will you choose? Your family or someone whom you're not even sure who exactly he is to you?

Beep, beep.

Cellphone?

Kanda picked up the small gadget, scowling at the display name on the caller ID. "What do you want?"

"Woah, what's with the cold shoulder, Yuu-chan? After all those years of ignoring my calls!"

"Get to the point, baka usagi."

"Well, I heard from your father-"

"He is not my father."

"Ok, ok. Sorry. I mean Tiedoll."

"Yeah? What about that fool?"

A sound came from the other end, sounding awfully similar to a sigh. "I heard from him that you came back to London right?"

"And?"

"Well, I thought I'd let you know that Allen have had a rough time in this past three years so approach with caution if you ever find him alright?"

"What do you mean 'rough time' and 'if I ever find him'?" Kanda demanded. What did the Moyashi go through all this time?

"You know how after you left… Mana passed away a few months later."

Oh no. What have he done?

It wasn't long before Kanda arrived at Allen's doorstep. It wasn't that difficult. All he had to do was just to rely on his instincts and his body's memory to get there. However, he was unsure of how to face the younger boy. He didn't know that so many unfortunate things would slowly tumble down upon him in such a short time, especially when somehow, he was almost the one who started the snowball rolling down a snowy hill, letting it accumulate into pretty much a snow boulder of troubles.

Taking a deep breath, Kanda knocked on the door a few times. Earning no response, he continued pounding on the door, wondering if the younger boy was at home or not. Even though Kanda had somewhat remembered Allen's schedule down to pat, three years is a long time.

But his suspicions were confirmed when he hear familiar shuffling coming from inside, indicating that someone was in the house. And that someone was named Allen Walker.

So why was he being completely ignored?

Irritated, Kanda hit the door harder, having half the mind to smash the door, cut it down, or unhinge it from the wall.

So when those same shuffling steps got closer to the door, Kanda mentally heaved a sigh of relief. Having to stand out here in the harsh cold wasn't something extremely pleasant for Kanda and he'd just about to reach his limit already.

The lock clicked, showing that it was being unlocked, and then a silver eye peeped through the small opening made by the door.

Several emotions could be seen flashing through that silver orb in a split second.

Surprise.

Shocked.

Hurt.

Betrayal.

Anger.

Immediately, the door slammed shut in his face before Kanda had a chance to say anything.

"What the fuck, Moyashi?"

"What the fuck, Moyashi?"

Allen slammed the door in his face the moment he saw who his visitor was.

'No. No no no no no! He can't come back now! Especially not since after I've gotten over him. It took me so long to do that! He can't just come back into my life and ruin everything again! NO!'

He leaned against the door and slid down to the floor, burying his head between his hands and resting them on his knees, desperately trying to block out the incessant pounding of the door which subsequently gave him a headache.

'Go away.'

'Go away!'

"GO AWAY!"

"No! So open the door now Moyashi!" Kanda's voice was muffled through the door, but Allen could almost hear him loud and clear.

"Don't call me that! And I won't open it!"

"Open it now! We need to talk!"

"Since when do you want to talk about things?"

"Since now!"

"About what?"

"What?"

"We have nothing to talk about anymore. So what is that you want to talk about?"

"Stop asking stupid questions and just open the damn fucking door!"

"NO!"

"Damn you! Open it now or else!"

"Or else what?"

"Or else I'll cut down this door!"

Contemplating if Kanda was really serious about it, Allen realized that this was Kanda and he was fully capable of doing so. So he'd keep the chain on the door and open it until barely enough for them to come face to face.

"There. I opened the door. So what?"

"I meant open the door and let me in, dammit."

"No."

"Don't make me repeat myself, Moyashi."

"… Fine."

Closing the door so he could unlock the chain, Allen opened the door once again, albeit reluctantly. Before he could open the door fully, however, Kanda just conveniently pushed open the door and headed inside.

Complete silence.

Both males just sat across each other on the old sofa in the living room, unspeaking. Sure, Kanda was the one who wanted to talk, but the moment he was in the house, he honestly didn't know how or where he was supposed to start.

Apologise first?

No freaking way.

Kanda Yuu don't do apologies.

"I-If you have nothing to say, the-"

And the next thing Allen knew, he was pinned down on the couch with Kanda on top of him, kissing him furiously. He desperately tried to push out the invading tongue but to no avail. Allen was weak to Kanda's touch and especially when the two of them had almost three years of pent up feelings locked within each of them.

Allen had almost succumbed into the kiss before he suddenly came to his senses. Desperately trying to get the older male off him, Allen just kept pushing at his shoulder, arms, chest, anything, so long as would just get the hell off.

Realising that Allen didn't have mutual feelings at that point in time, Kanda broke the kiss, letting them both catch their breaths. Face flushed, Kanda couldn't tell if it was because of the kiss or the younger male was truly furious.

"Tch. What's wrong?" Kanda asked, purely on instinct, but then realized it was the worst mistake ever.

"What's wrong? WHAT'S WRONG? YOU'RE WHAT'S WRONG!" Allen raised his voice.

Yep. Definitely furious.

Not giving Kanda a chance to say anything else, Allen exploded. "YOU JUST SAY YOU'RE LEAVING AND JUST PACK UP AND GO WITHOUT ANY EXPLANATIONS, DISAPPEAR FOR THREE YEARS WITH NO CONTACT WHAT-SO-EVER WITH ANYBODY AND YOU'RE ASKING ME WHAT'S WRONG? ARE YOU SERIOUSLY KIDDING ME?

"YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I'VE FELT THIS PAST THREE YEARS! YOU DON'T! You don't…" Clenching his fists and biting back the tears that were threatening to fall; Allen turned away and desperately tried to wipe away those escaped ones. "You h-have no i-idea..."

Too caught up in all his emotions, Allen continued sobbing. 'Why did he have to come back now?'

In the midst of it all, he felt warm hands encircling his waist and something resting atop his head.

"Wha-?"

"I left without saying much because I didn't want to make myself have a change of heart at the last minute. I didn't contact you all this time because I needed to concentrate and the sooner I'm done the sooner I could come back."

"What? What did you have to do that it was this important for you to leave without saying anything?"

"My family."

"Huh?"

"I made a promise to my family, the day our house burned down; that I had to carry the family's pride and honour. Our ancestors had gone through so much for us to attain such a position and it was all of our duty to uphold it."

"You mean your family's 'samurai pride' or something along those lines?"

"Yeah. That. I was too caught up in that that I forgot to see the bigger picture."

"…"

"I'm sorry for leaving, moyashi."

"…"

"I know you've gone through a lot. I don't really expect you to forgive me now or ever, actually. I'm sorry for breaking our promise."

"I had Tim…"

"What?"

"I had Tim so I wasn't really alone…"

"But-"

"The first time we met, was because of Tim. So he's kind of linked to you in a way so I guess you never broke your promise…?"

Allen caved. He knew. He knew he couldn't keep the navy-haired male behind him away from him at all. In that short span of time, they've already been way too attached and the separation had only served to strengthen their longing for each other even more.

To feel each other's warmth again.

To feel each other's embrace again.

To feel each others' touch again.

In a blink of an eye, Allen immediately found himself pinned back onto the sofa, with Kanda straddling him, capturing him in yet another passionate kiss. All the feelings of longing for the other's touch and presence were now being poured into each other. Kanda could almost feel like he was sharing the pain Allen had to endure the past three years and Allen, on the other hand, could feel the regret and painstaking work Kanda had put in just so he could come back and keep his promise.

Kanda's right hand slid under the younger male's shirt, finding its way to a pert nipple. This motion made the latter gasp and tried to break away from the kiss.

"What are you doing?"

"What does it look like I'm doing?"

"Stop whining and just shut up."

"I'm not- mmfphh"

After effectively shutting up the beansprout, Kanda continued his ministrations, deftly unbuttoning all the buttons on Allen's dress shirt to expose that milky chest before switching to another erect bud and played with it. He then broke the kiss, leaving a disheveled and flushed male underneath him and moved on to leaving wet messy trails down his chest. Using his teeth, Kanda unzipped Allen's fly, exposing the younger's leaking manhood, albeit still restrained by his boxers.

Kanda let his other free hand roam downwards, pushing the offending article of clothing down to release Allen's manhood, stroking it painfully slowly to tease the younger male and then rubbing his thumb across the slit of the other's hard on.

"Hahhh… Kanda!"

"You like it, Moyashi?"

"N-Noh… Beanspruah… AH! Stop… It!"

At this, Kanda increased in tempo and began stroking the silver-eyed male faster and more thoroughly teasing him a few times in the process. It was a success as the Japanese helped brought Allen to climax, releasing all his seeds onto Kanda's awaiting hands.

Groaning in embarrassment, Allen tried to hide his face, but was pulled into yet another kiss by the demanding older male.

Sitting up and leaning against the armrest, Kanda pulled the younger male onto him in such a way that their positions were reversed. The older male's arms were wrapped around Allen's waist while the other had his arms on Kanda's shoulder. They continued kissing passionately and Kanda's hand slid down Allen's pants and grabbed his butt cheek causing Allen to moan into the kiss. Breaking it once again, Kanda propped Allen a little higher so that it was more comfortable and began teasing the already abused nipples one again, biting and licking them in alternating turns.

Rubbing his hand against Allen's shaft and tip, eliciting more precum in the process, Kanda proceeded to use it to coat around his fingers before inserting it into the younger's virgin hole, lubing it up. Gasping at the sudden intrusion, Allen squirmed a little before relaxing when Kanda urged him to. Circling and pushing his finger in and out a few times, Kanda inserted another, repeating the same actions but with a scissoring action. After Allen had gotten used to it, Kanda pushed in three fingers, trying to prepare him further.

Curling his fingers, Kanda sought out that one place inside of Allen that'll make him scr-

"AHHHHHHHH!"

Kanda smirked.

Found it.

Brushing at that bundle of nerves several times, Kanda could feel Allen's cock springing back to life once again. He made a move to take off his shirt and also to release that growing erection of his, Kanda took some more of Allen's precum and smeared them on his own manhood.

"A-are we going to d-do it?" blushing a bright crimson at Kanda's action, Allen looked away, attempting to avoid eye contact. It was his first time after all, and he pretty much knew nil about anything related to these kinds of situations.

"You don't want to?"

"No… I just-"

"Then stop talking. You're ruining the mood." Kanda demanded, effectively shutting up Allen with his mouth, again.

Deeming Allen well prepared, Kanda pushed him down onto the couch, straddling the younger boy once again.

"It'll hurt at first, but just bear with it OK?" Kanda murmured into Allen's ear and kissed his forehead.

A little afraid at how the scene was unfolding to notice how out of character Kanda was, Allen braced himself as he saw Kanda pushing himself into Allen.

Squeezing his eyes shut at the growing pain due to how slowly Kanda was moving, some tears escaped his eyes as he brought his arms up and wrapped them around Kanda's neck, holding onto him as if he was holding onto dear life.

After edging himself in, Kanda panted, "Tell me. When to. Move."

Allen's tightness was already bringing the older male over the edge, but he had to be gentle. He told himself that. Allen was like a porcelain doll, small and fragile. One wrong move could shatter his entire being.

"Mo-move!"

All too willing to comply, Kanda pulled out completely before slamming back inside. It took a few tries before he was able to find Allen's prostate to make him feel the pleasure all over again. Angling himself such that he will hit the same spot, Kanda grabbed Allen's neglected cock and began stroking it in time with his trusts, occasionally rubbing his thumb over his slit, teasing him.

"F-faster, K-Kanda!"

As he felt Allen getting closer to climaxing, he could feel himself already reaching his limit. Gritting his teeth, Kanda increased his speed of his thrusts and stroking.

"Cum with me."

"Ahhh!"

"Allen!"

"Yuu!"

They both released their seeds at the same time, the older filling Allen up while the latter's splattered his over both their stomachs. Kanda collapsed, pulling Allen into a tight hug while both of them were lying on their sides before pulling out of the brown-haired male. Both still panting from the aftermath of sex, Allen whispered, "I love you, Yuu. Don't leave me again. No more second chances."

"Tch. You can count on it, baka Moyashi."

I love you too.

They craved each other's touches for so long.

Now, as they held each other in their arms,

They felt as if nothing could ever tear them apart again.

A/N: OMG YOU GUISE. I'M SORRY THIS CAME OUT LATE! I wanted to get it out earlier, honestly! But then on New Year's Eve I was out the entire day for a small fanclub meeting and then the countdown. So I couldn't really finish it in time to post it up. Then after that I suddenly had another idea for this (and hence the random smut scene. OH! And it's my first try too! Be nice!) so it took a little planning and re-writing to get it up. AND THEN my internet connection is being a total bitch and it took some time getting over that so I could properly update this.

SO! I'M SO SORRY! m(_ _)m

But I hope you guys enjoyed it! First attempt at smut. I hope it didn't fail too badly. But thanks for supporting the story all the way since the start. Happy New Year guys! Hopefully 2012 will be a better year! (But for me, I really doubt it)