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Summary: I want to talk to you about something that's bothering me. We've been together for a long time now and I watched us go from nothing to something but it seems we forgot how to love each other and I don't want to throw this thing away… this thing called us…
Note: sorry for the extremely long wait, I had completed this chapter a couple of weeks before hand, but after my reviewing, I was slightly put off by the crappy-ness of it (yes I am a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to stories), so I've decided to re-write it all over.
Good news! I've completed the last chapter of this story and am in the process of fixing it around and what not. Just to let everyone know this is the second last chapter of this story! therefore the ending will be the next one!!
Thing Called Us
Did you know that without you…
I fall apart…?
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Present Time; 17:00 8th January 2007
Mamoru's POV
I woke up today thinking of you again… another night had passed and I'm surprised that I've made it through… I'm not sure how long I'd be able to keep this going though… because I miss you so much… do you know I'd sit there thinking about how I'm going to live my life without you around and how am I going to get by each day without you…? Do you know that I no longer have days, just lonely nights…?
And yet I can't come up with an answer that doesn't require you in my life…
Do you know that without you here… it's like every day I die…? I wish I was dreaming… that when I open my eyes we'd be back to that house that we called a home… where the walls were falling apart… with our broken bedside table… and our cluttered kitchen… but it'll never happen… because you're gone… and I'm lonely once again…
How do you expect for me to live a world all alone with just me…? When my world revolves around you… and only you… my heat won't move, without you it's in complete… is there another way to make you understand…? You know that it's hard for me to understand… understand the pain, the tears and the heartache that you've been through, but I'm going to try to be an understanding man… I promise if you gave me another chance, this time I'd be the best man you could ever ask for… because without you… without you I fall apart…
What if I said that if I were to ever die before I woke, it's because you took my breath away… with your beauty, your love… and your dedication… and if I lost all that, if I lost you… it would be like living in a world with no air… living in a world with nothing… its funny because even though you took my breath away when I first saw you… I was still alive inside…
Do you still think of me…? Because I think of you all the time… do you still dream of me at night…? Because I dream about you all the time… I miss your face… I miss your touch… I miss you standing by my side… I even miss our arguments… please come back to me…
Because if I don't have you… I don't have anything at all…
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Past Time; 01:00 25th December 2006
She was sitting by the window again, watching the days go by. She hadn't moved for days, nor had she eaten. The rumble in her stomach had disappeared long ago, and the hollowness of her cheek bones have began to show more prominent upon her virgin skin. Tears have fallen endlessly down her face, yet she had no energy to wipe them away. There was no point in living when her heart was so broken…
Her friends had been calling nonstop worried about her well being, they knew she was hurt beyond repair yet they still tried to help heal the pain she was going through. They kept telling her that only time will dry her tears… but they had no idea that true love burns for thousands of years… and nothing they said could ever heal her broken soul. She was nothing but an empty shell… and she knew, it was only time, before the pain would stop from hurting. She had given her whole to him, yet he would never know. For he was never home.
Even the gods above seem to be feeling her pain; for it hadn't stopped raining for months… it seemed that even the gods were crying for her, crying for one of their angels who had broken wings… as well as her heart. If only she could give up her tomorrows just for one yesterday… when everything was perfect. Maybe then, the pain wouldn't hurt so much, and she'd be able to walk away… and because that could never happen, the pain will never stop…
She was alone in the world, and it hurt to know that he didn't even notice…
She came home that night, after much persistence from her friends; they were worried about her, extremely worried about her, and although she was grateful for him, she didn't see the point of living a life alone… and because they saw this, they, in the end, convinced her into going out and just enjoy life once again, like she had done so not so long before.
And yet, even if the night was meant to mean new beginnings, she was confronted with the end. They would never understand just how much that night broke her, broke her already broken soul. He was there that night, at the restaurant, yet he wasn't with her, she was not by his side, no, he was with another, and Usagi couldn't help but feel a tinge of envy, she was pretty, the girl he was with, she spoke with a high intelligence it seemed, and by the way he couldn't keep his eyes off her… it was evident that he had found another…
Even the gasps that escaped her friends mouths didn't seem to break his gaze from that woman's face… nor did the tears that begun to stream endlessly down Usagi's face tore his eyes away, and it was then that she finally accepted the fact that he was no longer hers… and tonight was evidence of that. She no longer had his heart, she no longer held his soul… she no longer was his, endlessly, eternally… forever and always…
The love the two once shared was no more… and although she had braced herself for this for awhile now, she would never be able to stop the hurt that ran through her body… like a shock of electricity… nothing could brace her for something that hurt beyond repair…
That night she felt the last pieces of her soul crumble inside her, that night she felt the air cutting out of her lungs… that night she cried until her heart bleed with tears… that night she was no more…
It was that night that Usagi was admitted into hospital…
And it was only then, that night had he finally realised the pain he caused her…
Why was she admitted to hospital? The doctors said it was caused by poor health, Usagi wasn't eating well, and therefore had caused her body to go through a tremendous amount of stress… yet everyone knew that wasn't the reason. No, everyone knew the real reason why Usagi Tsukino was put under intensive care…
She was suffering from a broken heart… that only one man could fix… yet it was too late now…
Because you can't fix something that's already broken…
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Fin.
Yes, yes I know it's been awhile since I've updated… I'M SORRY!! Don't hurt me please, I've just been extremely busy, and ugh! Saving for a new car, exams and assignments have caused me to become nothing but a walking mush of brain goo…
If no one reads my little note above the story, just letting you all know that this is the second last chapter of the story! Yes I know, extremely short, but I fear that if I keep the chapters going, it'll defeat the purpose of this story xD
Good news is that I've finished the last chapter, and it will be up once I check it over, I'm a little crazy when it comes to writing something that I know people will read, so bear with me.
I'll be trying to finish and update my story ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, because that's due for an update… so… why not go read my other stories! xDD, because it'll make the wait just that much shorter! Hehe…
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