Hello everyone! Here's Chapter 14! Hope you enjoy! :)
Bbrae-4ever fanfics: Still, I hope you're doing okay and continue to do okay! And same; I definitely wanted to show Raven helping him out and being very caring towards him, and I'm glad that that is coming across well! :)
RPGPersona: Beast Boy is definitely in a difficult and painful situation, and one that leads to a lot of extra pain. And Raven isn't sure how to continue with the situation; it can be hard for people to know what to do in a situation like this, especially when they're not completely sure what's wrong, and I wanted to portray that :)
Blurble: I'm glad you enjoyed Childlike and now Regress! And sorry about the irregular updates; this past week of school has been hectic because fall break starts tomorrow, so teachers are having tests and projects due. I promise to continue to update as regularly as I can though :)
Please keep reading and reviewing! I really appreciate it!
The five teens were sitting on the couch in the Main Ops room watching the television as the rain poured outside. On the large screen before them was a news cast. The news casters, one of which was an overly perky blonde woman and the other a pun-filled bald man, were discussing the latest news stories of Jump City. At the moment, they were talking about the traffic jams and construction in the area and how that was slowing commuting times.
The teens were barely listening to it though; it acted more so as a background noise. Starfire was caring for her Silkie and snuggling the mutant larvae. Cyborg was explaining his ideas about new Titan vehicles and upgrades to Robin, who seemed intrigued about the idea of new Titan transportation. Raven and Beast Boy, sitting furthest away from the other Titans, were cuddled up with one another as they watched the rain and listen to the thunder of the storm outside. Raven found focusing on the storm was somewhat meditative for her, whereas Beast Boy found it to be a calming distraction.
She really enjoyed Beast Boy's presence next to her. The intimacy was still new to her, but she found that she quite liked it. She remembered when she and Beast Boy had first discovered that they liked each other, and she reminisced in the memory.
Raven had been sitting in the kitchen drinking an herbal tea. She had had a difficult time sleeping, and decided to just get up earlier than normal. She usually had a sunrise to watch as she sipped on her daily morning tea, but today, she was accompanied by the stars. It was peaceful, to an extent, but also quite lonely.
The doors to the Main Ops room swooshed open and Beast Boy walked in, a wide-mouthed yawn escaping his throat. He walked towards the kitchen, rubbing his tired eyes, and jumping slightly when he found himself in front of Raven.
"Oh, hey Rae. It's a bit early. What are you doing up?" he asked her.
"I could ask you the same thing," she said to him, taking another sip of her tea. "I couldn't sleep, so I decided to just go ahead and start my day."
"I couldn't sleep either. Seemed pointless to stay in bed for a few more hours when I'm wide awake," he laughed as he walked over to the fridge and pulled out some left over tofu waffles. He began to eat them cold, not even bothering to heat them up or set them on a plate.
He walked over and took a seat across from the empath. As he took the last few bites of his cold waffles, he found himself staring at Raven. He studied her features, admiring them for all of her beauty. Raven, of course, noticed his gawking and called him out on it.
"Are you done staring yet?" she asked, shocking him out of his trance. He felt a blush creep up on his cheeks, and soon his face was visibly red, even in the dark.
"Oh, uh, sorry about that Rae," he laughed. She noticed how his eyes squinted as he laughed, and how he put his hand behind his neck and rubbed it nervously. She thought it was a cute habit. "I was just looking. You know, you're really beautiful."
Now, it was Raven's turn to blush boldly. It was rare that she was complemented on her appearance, much less from the mouth of the changeling.
"I – what?" she stuttered, her shock evident.
"I think you're really beautiful, Rae," he said again, a shy smile appearing on his face.
"Oh, well, thank you," she said, "you're quite handsome yourself."
"It's the ears, isn't it?" Beast Boy laughed as he wiggled his ears back and forth. This caused Raven to laugh, something that sounded like pure and absolute music to Beast Boy's ears. "Ha! I finally got you to laugh!"
Raven smiled, although she tried desperately to hide it. She pushed a strand of hair behind her ear, her cheeks still a light, rosy pink. Beast Boy fiddled with his thumbs and continued to study her features.
"Raven," he asked, drawing her attention back to him, "would you be open to going to the movies with me? Or somewhere? You can decide where, if ya want."
"Uhm...sure. I would like...that would be…nice. I would enjoy that," she responded, her rosy blush intensifying again.
"Great! So it's a date?" Beast Boy asked, his face beaming with happiness. Raven simply nodded, a smile forming on her face as well. They spent the rest of the morning talking and sharing stories with one another, watching the stars fade into the sunrise.
Raven blushed happily at the memory and leaned her body in closer to him. Beast Boy's arm was resting over Raven shoulders, and Raven's hand rested on Beast Boy's thigh. Soon, she removed her hand as a whole, and instead took a single finger and started to lightly trace patterns on his leg. He immediately perked up at this, and she leaned over and kissed him lightly on the cheek. They locked eyes.
"Would you like to come to my room?" Raven said softly into Beast Boy's ear.
A small smile graced his face as a response. Raven then stood up and grabbed his hand, pulling him up with her. They left the room quickly, and without notice from the other teens in the room.
They walked through the halls, faster than normal, soon coming to Raven's door. They quickly slid in, making sure the door was closed and locked behind them. Raven pressed Beast Boy up against the now closed door, her hands resting firmly on his chest. They kissed passionately, their lips gracing each other's lips and necks. Raven bit Beast Boy's ear, knowing that he liked that a lot. Beast Boy's breath hitched in his throat, confirming his enjoyment.
Smiling, his fang pointing out seductively, Beast Boy wrapped his hands and arms around Raven's waist, pulling her body closer to his. She moaned softly. He removed his gloves, throwing them to the ground. The temperature in the room felt like it was rising and rising, and soon it was fiery. Raven wrapped her arms around Beast Boy's neck and pulled him towards the bed, soon collapsing onto the dark mattress.
Beast Boy was on top first, naturally thrusting towards the demoness, causing more moans to escape her throat. They continued to adorn each other's bodies with kisses and bites, their hearts racing. Beast Boy unclasped Raven's cloak and removed it, leaving her only in her skin-tight leotard. Soon, positions changed and Raven was on top. She ran her hand underneath Beast Boy's shirt, her fingertips tickling his chest and her nails gripping at his skin.
Her smile widened seductively, as if she was going in for a kill. She grabbed both of his arms at the biceps and pinned them down. She slowly and forcefully moved her hands down his arms and to his wrists, holding them down. Instead of an expected moan coming from him, a light whimper came. He tried to hide it, but Raven had already taken notice.
She unpinned his arms and sat down on his lap, staring at the changeling with concern in her eyes. He felt fear, although he tried to hide it. He knew she noticed his whimper; there was no denying it.
"What was that?" she asked, her voice stern.
"I, uh, I don't know what you're talking about," Beast Boy lied, an absurd smile covering his face.
"Yes, you do. You were fine and then I put pressure on your wrists. And I know I didn't put a lot of pressure on them," she said, her serious glare ripping through him. His smile faded.
In an attempt to counter her, he opened his mouth, soon discovering that he could find no words.
Raven, still sitting on his lap and effectively holding him down, picked up both of his wrists and brought them closer to her. Soon, Beast Boy found words.
"Rae, please, no," he said quietly, his eyes pleading.
Raven slowly slid both of his sleeves down, exposing his wrists. She looked up at him, but his head was turned to the side, watching the rainstorm outside. She looked back down. His wrists, that she knew would be covered in scars, were covered in fresh cuts. Some, obviously a few days old, were scabbing over. Others, obviously more recent, were red and puffy. Some had opened up slightly during their rough housing, causing blood to trickle out in small beads along the lines. There were at least 20 or 30 cuts in total on his wrists. None of them were seriously deep, which was somewhat of a relief.
She let out a deep exhale, covering his wrists back up with his sleeves and setting them down on the bed.
"Beast Boy," she said, her voice concerned. When he did not respond, she repeated herself. "Beast Boy, look at me."
He slowly met her gaze, anxiety and embarrassment evident in his eyes.
"Why did you do this to yourself?" she questioned.
"Are you mad?" he asked, his voice quiet like a child's.
"Mad? Of course I'm not mad!" she said, her eyes wide at the question as she leaned down closer to him, "I'm just concerned. Why did you do it?"
He just stared at her silently for a few moments, trying to gather his words.
"I needed to. I'm fine, I promise," he responded.
"People who are fine don't do this to themselves," she counteracted.
"Please don't tell the others," Beast Boy pleaded with her.
Raven let out another heavy breath.
"I won't tell the others, on account of one thing," Raven said, "You better not do this again. If I find any more on you, I'm telling, okay?"
Beast Boy gulped.
"They need to know, Gar," she said, using his real name, "Please don't do this again."
Beast Boy slowly nodded, taking in what she had to say.
"Do you want me to heal these?" she asked him, hoping he'd allow it.
Beast Boy shook his head no. To that, Raven got off from on top of him and laid down next to him. She snuggled up against him, wrapping her arms around him in an awkward hug. Beast Boy turned inward towards her as well, embracing her as well.
They sat silently in each other's embrace for some time, feeling the rise and fall of each other's chests to the sound of the diminishing thunderstorm outside. Finally, Raven spoke up again.
"Do you want to talk about it?" she asked, referring both to the self-harm and the mission. Beast Boy simply shook his head again, not trusting his voice. Raven wrapped around him tighter in the embrace, hoping to comfort her obviously pained boyfriend. Eventually, they fell asleep, the sounds of the rain pattering against the window pushing them into their individual unconsciousness'.