Summary: This is just something I want to write. This is mainly for you romantic types who love it when stories are realistic. RikuSora and others.
Sora: the easily embarrassed emo who is completely random and optimistic. Riku: the smart, good-looking "normal" guy who is always calm and collected. Opposites right? Yupo. Can this relationship last? Maybe for a month everyone says…
"Talking"
'Thinking'
Emphasize
Songs
Sora's Inner
Place: Time
(Note)
801: We would like to present all of you this special chapter. We weren't really gonna count this but hey, I got a review.
TEWG: STARTED 03-19-08 14:03 (2:03 PM) AND WE REEDITED THIS ON 06-14-08 05:32 (5:32 AM)
Disclaimer: We do NOT own Kingdom Hearts or any of the songs that are mentioned or Disney.
WARNING: THERE WILL BE CUSSING, PEDOPHILIA, AND ABUSE.
A Block Away From "Home": 9:34 AM
I shook my head nervously. Walking home alone can do that to you. I just came from delivering a piece of cake to some people I don't even know. It was a Saturday.
Kickin' it out!
Your dream vacation is my hostage refuge
A work in progress you bleed
Just like you puke while running a mile
I beg to differ, make me an offer
Walks on the rain you bleed
Just like you puke while running a mile
Hey, are you okay? (Okay)
You look pretty low
Very handsome awkward
Do you feel okay? (Okay)
You look pretty low
Very handsome awkward
Hey, are you okay? (Okay)
You look pretty low
Pretty low, pretty low
Pretty handsome awkward!
Do you feel okay?
You look pretty low
Pretty low, pretty low
(Handsome awkward)
Pretty handsome awkward!
(Pretty handsome awkward)
Kickin' it out!
Kickin' it out!
Kickin' it out!
Pretty low!"
I can't believe I'm really all that nervous. Nervously I clicked the back button on my iPod and the song "Pretty Handsome Awkward" by The Used came up again. It was a very short yet catchy song. It was a minute and thirty-nine second song.
I had a habit of clicking my most top rated songs when I'm nervous. Why am I so nervous? Well because I'm scared shitless. Weird isn't it? When I'm at "home" I can say bad words but when I'm somewhere else I can't. Maybe it helps and comforts me? Who knows?
About four minutes later I was walking up my porch to my Hell.
"Home": 2:37 PM
The whole fucking world was out to fucking get me, I swear. My "parents" had yelled at me when I got home and my mom smacked me. Just because I was one fucking minute late. Assholes. Then my step-sister (she's ten) made up some shit lie about me going into her room and stealing her stupid Barbie head. Even though I didn't, I still teased her that I did. I liked getting her mad cause her face gets all red and, my favorite part, she yells out "Pa-pa!" It really is funny. Sometimes when I want to try to make myself feel a little better when she says that I open my mouth and mouth it when she says it. But then her dad, my step-dad, comes and yells at me.
But enough of that. After they yelled at me they ordered me to clean the whole goddamn house front and back to repent. I have nothing to repent for. Those of you who agree with me raise your hand!
You're talking to yourself again.
I gulped. Not this game again…!
'Umm… Hi Me…'
Why do you keep talking to yourself?
'I… don't know…'
Why do I even talk to you?
'I guess, cause I'm lonely…'
Since when did I ever care for you?
'…'
That's right. I've never liked you. You stupid dumbass. You can never do anything right. Just go and die in a ditch somewhere, you bitch.
I whimpered a bit. My lip was quivering and I felt my eyes water a bit but I continued cleaning the damn floor with the mop.
Now you're gonna fucking cry? Man you're such a pansy. You're a fucking disgrace. Really no one likes you go and die. Even… Riku doesn't like you…
'That's not true!' I wanted nothing more than to prove myself wrong. Riku did like me why else would he have gotten with me?
Riku only got with you out of pure pity. I mean have you seen yourself? You may think you sometimes are cute in the mirror but you're seeing what you want to see. You're actually very ugly and putrid looking. Instead of "cute, adorable, beautiful eyes", as you like to say, they're disgusting to look at. You also-
'Stop! … Just… please stop…' I could feel my tears. They were freakin' streaming down my face. I was hurting myself mentally and I couldn't stop. My self-esteem levels were already very low. I shut my eyes and cried silently. I couldn't hear myself anymore and I am grateful for that.
After a few minutes I straightened up and started moving the mop. If I wanted to get some sleep I'd better start cleaning now or I'd never get any.
Sora's Room: 6:09 PM
I yawned. I was in my room about to collap- oh wait never mind. I fell on my bed and sighed. I turned to stare at my clock. It was on top of my decent sized TV. It read 6:09. What do I usually do on Saturdays? Oh right, clean. Well some sleep wouldn't hurt now would it? I sighed and closed my eyes.
I raised my head when I couldn't feel Shadow. But then again it could be that uncomfortable lump on my stomach. I yanked whatever the hell it was and it was Shadow. I sighed in relief and cuddled with him. Yes I am cuddler.
Sora's Room: 10:41 PM
My eyes watered as I opened them. Yawning, I brought closer Shadow to my face. I love having him near me. I usually brought him to school whenever I thought was necessary. My counselor thinks I keep him with me to signify something very important from my past. Nah. I'm just lonely. Even with a boyfriend.
Wait, why the hell am I thinking about Riku? I don't even like him. I only like him as a friend. Nothing more. I'm just letting him stay with me until he gets bored. I just want to feel wanted.
"Sora! Breakfast!" My mom knocked on my door and I heard her leave. My mom had let herself go. She weighed about 180 pounds I think. But then again she had four kids so I guess it'd be normal. Also "Breakfast"? It wasn't time for that right? But oh well I'm starving and I love my mom's cooking! I'm not letting this pass up.
I rolled over and put Shadow on my head. He wobbled a bit but stayed. I'm really good at balance. I turned my head back and saw it was 10:41 PM, I opened the door and I automatically smelled eggs. Yum. Even though my mom can be a total… achem… she can be nice and actually act like a good mom once in a while.
I smiled at her and she smiled back. She pinched my nose and I swatted her hand away and sat down. I liked this side of mom. "Here ya go my Keyblade Master," My mom said and put the eggs in front of me.
She liked calling me "Keyblade Master" because she once had a dream about me having a huge key as a weapon and I had to battle many Shadow's and other creatures, rescue my friends, and battle the Darkness and some other stuff like that. Sure when I was small I used to grab her keys and hit ants and bat away mosquitoes and bees away. But really? Me battle stuff for real? I'd die if one Shadow tried to attack me.
I heard her leave and I grabbed a piece of bread. I didn't really like bacon and we never had any Pig Links so I usually ate two or three eggs (sunny-side up) with two or three breads. Not toasted, plain. I hated eating eggs without bread.
Sora's Room: 11:15 PM
I yawned and fell on my bed. I'm used to falling on my springy bed. I turned my head and found it was 11:15. Yes! I'll get some good night sleep!
Good night!
Sora's Room: 5:45 AM
I groaned when I heard something that was quickly bringing me out of my dreams. What the hell is that?
Scared and lonely
You won't be scared, you won't be
You won't be scared and lonely
You won't be scared you won't be lonely
Wait that's… Three Days Grace's "Scared" My eyes snapped open and my arm quickly went to my iPod.
Scared and lonely
You won't be scared, you won't be
You won't be scared and lone-
I pressed the play/pause button until the screen went black and turned off. My earphones were pretty loud. You could hear it two rooms away if everything was silent and it was on high. I turned my head to the door. I just sat there sleepily and alert at the same time. After a while I sighed. Good no one heard.
I sighed and grabbed the silver remote from underneath my pillow. I didn't have cable like my parents or my step-sister which sucked cause I could hear the little fat ass walk to the living room and turn on the TV. I could hear, what was that show called, "The Suite Life of Zack and Cody"? I sighed and turned on the TV.
After some minutes I turned it off and laid back and thought. A Sunday morning with no cable can be very boring. But then again if I'm a "good boy" I could sleep for the whole day. Yay for sleep!
Sora's Room: 7:47 AM
My eyes snapped open and I awoke when I heard my door being pounded on. I gulped and jumped out of bed, running to the door. I opened and saw my step-dad staring at me, which looked more like disgust. "Come to my room." And he left just like that. I just kept staring at where he was just at. I'm in trouble.
Hallway: 8:01 PM
I held back my tears as I walked back to my room. The bastard hit me! He… he touched me.
When I got to the Room of Hell, I opened it and he started brining up all of my negative qualities. But what surprised me was that he actually hugged me. It was weird and I felt disgusted just by being near him. Then the bastard reached down and grabbed my ass. I gasped and I tensed. I tried to pull back but he was fucking strong. He kept me in place and I felt something poke my stomach. I already knew what that bulge was. I shut my eyes and whimpered. I didn't mean for it to come out but he let me go after that. At least I know now that he wouldn't go too far as to rape me, but still it was scary. Then the ass put his hand on my thigh and rubbed it up and down. I tried to ignore it but I lost control and slapped his hand away and yelled,
"What the fuck is your problem?!"
He didn't like that.
My step-dad raised his hand and slapped the left side of my face. He then kicked my stomach and he left the room with me gasping for air.
I angrily slammed my door and fell on my bed. I sniffed and brought Shadow and Riku near me. They were all I had here. Finally my sobs came out and my body shook. I hate my life but I hate Riku more... I hate him for making me feel weird things.
801: Poor, poor Sora.
TEWG: FINISHED 03-20-08 21:31 (9:31 PM) AND FINISHED EDITING 06-14-08 05:57 (5:57 AM)
801: Please review!