Love and Friendship is too Complicated for Koenma

Disclaimer: I do not own YYH or any of its characters being that they all belong to Yoshihiro Togashi. The only thing I do own in this drabble series is my OC Jasmine.

Chapter 3: Isolation (Sensui/Itsuki)

March 3rd, 1984

16 year old Shinobu Sensui nervously walked to Koenma's office. He felt like he was in deep trouble. The previous day, Koenma had caught Sensui and his demon partner and friend sharing a sweet kiss after their current spirit detective mission.

Sensui did not expect the prince to show up in the Human World but, he did to check on both the young men. It was a very tough mission they went on and Koenma wanted to make sure that they were both okay. Even though Koenma and Itsuki didn't see eye to eye with each other, he still cared about Sensui.

Since Kuroko and Genkai, Shinobu Sensui was the first human to ever become his friend. Unlike Kuroko and Genkai, Koenma didn't form any other feeling beyond that but, if Shinobu was a female instead of a male, he probably would have.

Since Kuroko Sanada, King Yama wanted Koenma to only hire male spirit detectives instead of female being that the old tyrant didn't want his son to fall for another human female. Now standing outside his boss's office door, Sensui took a deep breath, bracing himself to be yelled at.

Not like he hadn't faced that before. It had only been about a month since his parents kicked him out of their home after they found about his secret relationship with Itsuki. Sensui didn't want people to know of his attraction to men and he didn't want Koenma to find out either.

But sadly, the prince now knows and Sensui feared that he would be fired for it. Sensui is very much in the closet and he didn't want to admit to it to himself but, deep down he knew. He only saw women as friends or sisters, nothing in a romantic sense. Sensui felt like that part of him was broken and despite Itsuki's efforts to help him feel like it was okay, no matter how screwed up their relationship was, poor Shinobu still felt it was wrong.

Sensui sighed staring at the large pink and yellow double doors. He then brought up his hand and softly tapped the wood in a knock. Koenma's voice could be heard inside, "Come in, the door is open."

Sensui pushed open the door and stepped inside the office. He then approached Koenma's desk and politely bowed, "You wanted to see me Koenma?"

Koenma set his wooden stamping tool down on his desk, "Yes Shinobu, I did."

Sensui stared at the floor for just a minute. He looked back up at Koenma and broke the silence between them, "About the other day..."

"Oh yes, that."

Sensui prepared himself to be yelled at and possibly fired but, then he was surprised with what his boss said next, "You know Shinobu, when I walked in on you and Itsuki, I just couldn't help but think of how lucky you are."

Sensui stared at him with a blank expression and blinked his blue eyes, "What do you mean? So you're not mad at me?"

Koenma snapped out of his thoughts and answered truthfully, "No, why would I be? Just because some human jerks cannot accept a romance between two men or two women, it doesn't mean it's like that here in Spirit World. In fact, it's highly encouraged here."

The young spirit detective raised an eyebrow, "Really?"

"Yes. If someone is bisexual or pansexual, it's encouraged for them to "play the field" to see what they like best. Homosexuality is not a sin here."

"Koenma, are you...?"

Koenma shook his head, "No, I'm just only interested in women romantically. My ogre servant Jorge is bisexual and I never had a problem with his boyfriends so why would I have a problem with Itsuki? Come on Shinobu, I always saw the way he looked at you and seeing the tension between you guys, I felt like you two should be together. Even though I'm not a love god, I can see that you guys liked each other."

Sensui looked down at his feet; he didn't know what to say. What Koenma said left him speechless. His tanned cheeks began to blush red. Seeing that Koenma then began to apologize, "Shinobu, I didn't mean to embarrass you."

Then something dawned on him, feeling some concern for his spirit detective, Koenma really wanted to help him so he asked, "Shinobu, is it alright if I ask you something and you promise not to get offended?"

Still blushing and looking at his feet, Shinobu nodded. Koenma cleared his throat and asked him, "Are you "in the closet"? You know you don't have to be..."

Sensui looked up and interrupted him, "That's none of your business Koenma! Just because, it's accepted here, it's not so much in the Human World, especially Japan. You know my parents just found out about me and Itsuki and they kicked me out of their house. You have no idea what it's like to be disowned by your own family for something that you're not able to control or fix. I would much rather be like you. You have it so easy being straight! Don't you dare try to..."

"Shinobu, I'm just only trying to help. I may be your boss but, I am also your friend! I had no idea your parents treated you like that. That is just wrong. They should love and support you. You think I have it easy?!"

The currently toddler looking prince stood on his chair and slammed his small hands onto his desk, "I got news for you. Most girls that I have either dated or had crushes on never gave me the time of day or used me for my statues and power or they tried to force themselves on me when they found out about my virginity! None of them with only a couple of exceptions gave a crap about my feelings or about what I wanted! No, they were just out for themselves and just saw me as a hot piece of ass that was just another conquest for them. They only backed off whenever I reverted back into this degrading body, then they just didn't want anything to do with me anymore!"

After listening to what Koenma said, Sensui began to feel bad about yelling at him. He didn't know of the kinds of things the prince went through in his personal life. After working for him and being friends with him for a year, it dawned on Shinobu that he really didn't know too much about Koenma or about that part of his life anyway.

Koenma slumped back down on his chair. He shut his large brown eyes and put his hand on his forehead. He sighed breathing deeply. Sensui approached his desk and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry I yelled at you. It's just been hard for the last month for me."

Koenma took in another deep breath, "It's alright Shinobu." He then put his hand down and stared at the unprocessed stacks of paperwork on his desk. A tear slid down his chubby cheek.

Seeing that, Sensui then asked, "Are you alright?"

The small prince shrugged his shoulders, "Not really. I hate being reminded that I have no one. Like I said before, Shinobu you're so lucky. You and Itsuki have something special. What do I have? Just being a victim of sexual assault and being rejected continuously. Perhaps, I'm just meant to be alone."

Sensui walked around the desk and knelt down. For the first time since he was hired, Shinobu gave Koenma a hug. Without saying another word, Koenma returned the embrace and began to cry into his spirit detective's shoulder.

Sensui didn't know what to say or do. He never had seen Koenma like this before. The only thing he could do was just let him cry it out for a few minutes. Five minutes later, Koenma stopped crying and broke his and Shinobu's embrace. He took his handkerchief out of his pocket and dabbed the corners of his eyes with it.

Sensui just stared at him for a moment and asked with genuine sincerity, "Are you alright?"

Koenma just silently nodded. They were in an awkward silence again. Sensui decided to break that after figuring out what to say, "Koenma, you'll find someone. Sure, it may seem like you never will but, there is someone out there for you. Don't let what happened to you in the past dictate your future. I promise things will get better."

Koenma lowered his handkerchief and smiled behind his blue pacifier, "Thank you Shinobu."

"No problem."

Deciding to change the subject from the currently depressing one, Koenma shifted his attention to the processed and unprocessed documents sitting on his desk. Looking at the file on top, he suddenly remembered the other purpose of why he called Sensui into his office.

He picked up the file and shifted his attention back to his spirit detective, "Oh, I almost forgot, Shinobu this is the new case I need you and Itsuki to investigate."

He handed Sensui the document and the young man opened it up and read the contents inside. Koenma then continued, "Spirit World Intelligence has gotten word of a demon transaction going on with the seedy human Black Market. In that file, it says of the location of where it's taken place. I need you and Itsuki to go in and raid that group."

Finally finished with reading the file, Sensui put it down and asked, "What is the name of this group, if you don't mind me asking?"

"They are called the Black Black Club. They're made up of a group of human millionaires and billionaires that had made their fortunes on the underground demon trade. It's just horrible what they have done to them. Also, they have opened up a small tunnel to the Demon World. It's only ten meters wide and there isn't a threat of expansion. I need you and Itsuki to go as soon as possible and seal that tunnel."

Taking note, Sensui nodded, "Itsuki and I will be right on it sir. You can count on us."

He then stood up and placed the file back on Koenma's desk. Sensui then left the office minutes later thinking, "Man, if he knew of some of the stuff Itsuki and I do, he would die from a heart attack. It's just a good thing he just saw us kissing. For someone who's over 700 years old, he really doesn't have much of a clue about relationships. I just hope whichever girl he ends up with brings him down to reality."

Despite Koenma's warnings about this particular case, poor Sensui's fate was sealed. He wound up witnessing the Feast of Human Vices and it drove him to the point of insanity being that his black and white thinking couldn't see the grey areas of that case's subject matter.

Not long after, he and Itsuki broke into the Spirit World Records Department and stole the Chapter Black Tape. The two then disappeared. Since then, Koenma felt immeasurable guilt about what happened to what he considered, was one of the best spirit detectives he had. Just like when Kuroko left, King Yama punished Koenma this time over what happened with Sensui.

The prince felt he deserved his punishment. As a result, he didn't hire another spirit detective for ten years. While working on his stacks upon stacks of paperwork, Koenma then thought to himself feeling completely guilty, "I'm so sorry Shinobu. I'm so sorry. Wherever you and Itsuki are, I hope you're okay."

~To Be Continued