This is solely a flashback chapter and it contains a mature "scene," which has forever changed my friendship with my roommate.
Spoiler alert for the ending of Wurthering Heights.
Also, I was going to post yesterday but, well, here's a piece of advice: Making a freebie five list with may seem like a great idea at the time, but that can go downhill real fast.
"She married the wrong guy and dies you jerk" JJ playfully scolded as she pushed her way into Emily's apartment and hit the other woman across the shoulder.
"Fuck" Emily groaned, throughly surprised by the random outburst and by the fact that JJ was in her apartment. "What was that for? Wait, what are you even doing here? How did you find out where I live?"
"I'm a stalker with a technical analyst friend so this is basically destiny" JJ laughed as she followed Emily to the kitchen where the brunette poured her a glass of wine, motioning for JJ to follow her to the sofa. Emily had been trying to decompress after a case in Houston where she was paired with a less than pleased Reid…okay it was more than less than pleased, he was being a total dick to her. And, or course, everyone ignored it because he was Reid and no one ever called out Reid for anything, not for acting unprofessional or for having an obvious drug addiction. It wasn't that Emily resented the man by any means, it was just that she knew that ignoring problems didn't make them go away. Oh the great irony that is life.
"Okay and the abuse?"
"Abuse" JJ scoffed at the term as she and Emily both turned their bodies to face each other on the sofa. "Well, you know what that was for" the blonde remarked with a pointed look as Emily raised an eyebrow, hinting for the woman to elaborate. "You said that I reminded you of Catherine Earnshaw in Wurthering Heights and I just finished the book to find out that wasn't much of a compliment after all because she was a grade-A moron."
Emily moved her hand to cover her mouth as she tried to stifle a laugh, raising her hands in surrender when she saw the media liaison glare at her. "To be fair, she made a mistake."
"Uh huh, a mistake? Her entire life was a mistake, that failure. And, well, I'm insulted. I would have totally married Heathcliff."
Emily took a deep breath, laughing when she exhaled. "I'm sorry Jayje. But come on, I already have Reid hating me, so you can't be mad at me too."
"He doesn't hate you…"
"He's frustrated with me" Emily interjected as JJ couldn't help but slightly nod in agreement. "He's frustrated because won't overlook whats going on with him."
"And what is that supposed to mean?" JJ asked a little too defensively.
Emily scanned the rigid body language of the other woman as she leaned back against the sofa, "It means that I think we all, and I mean all" she firmly said as she gave the other woman a stern look before continuing on, "know what is going on. Come on JJ we're a team of profilers and you've known him for years, we are all very aware of how he's…coping."
"It's not his fault" JJ argued in a soft voice.
"I'm not saying it isn't understandable, but I don't think choosing to overlook his problem is doing anyone any good, especially not Reid. And as for it not being his fault, Jayje, it's not yours either" Emily added in a tender tone as JJ studied her friend's soft expression. "What Reid went through was traumatic, but it wasn't your fault, and how he deals with it, or doesn't deal with it, doesn't fall on your shoulders."
JJ nodded before rolling her eyes at the kind words, "Profilers."
"Pssh" Emily waved her off with an eye roll of her own. "I don't need to be a profiler to know these things. Forget Garcia, I am the all-knowing" she joked as JJ cracked a smile. "You're not responsible for everyone..."
"Neither are you" JJ cut Emily off as she leaned closer to the other woman. She didn't know what she was doing, but it was like her body was magnetized to Emily's, needing to get closer. "I almost shot you and you didn't even care."
"Well you didn't shoot me. If you had I would have been so pissed" The raven haired profiler grinned as she pinned a loose strand of hair behind JJ's ear. "Especially because I hate bagpipes."
"Yeah" JJ nodded meekly. "That's why I came."
"To shoot me or to play the bagpipes?" Emily laughed as JJ shot her a dirty look.
"No you jerk, to see if you were okay."
"You could have called."
JJ nodded as she leaned even closer to the other woman, "I didn't want to. I needed to see for myself."
"Okay" Emily replied as she too moved a little closer, the two women's faces nearly touching.
JJ nervously took a deep breath as her eyes locked with Emily's, "Okay?"
"Yeah."
"Yeah" JJ agreed as she felt her heart pounding in her chest. What was she doing? Why did it feel so right? "I don't know what I'm doing."
"I know" Emily acknowledged as she closed in on the gap between them, waiting to allow the blonde to make the first move, which she did.
Taking control of the situation, JJ moved forward and pressed her lips against Emily's. What started off as a soft exploratory kiss quickly became more intense with Emily sweeping her tongue against JJ's lips, the other woman gladly parting her lips as Emily's tongue ran over the roof of the blonde's mouth while JJ's hands went into Emily's dark hair, intensifying the already passionate kiss. JJ moaned into Emily's mouth as she felt the other woman's fingers lightly graze up her sides over her sweater. When a need for air became an issue, JJ and Emily finally pulled apart, JJ bringing her fingers to lightly brush against her swollen lower lip. She had never been kissed quite like that before, which was both exhilarating and terrifying. But she did know one thing, she wanted more. Instinctively, JJ brought her left hand to cup Emily's cheek, pulling her into another kiss as she lay down against the sofa.
"JJ" Emily breathlessly began as her body hovered over her the other woman's. "Are, are you sure?"
"Yes" the blonde firmly said as Emily merely nodded before she moved to kiss JJ's neck, prompting JJ to moan when Emily sucked on her pulse point. "Oh God…" she drifted off, shivering as Emily slipped one of her hands under her shirt, teasingly moving it up her body. "Em, please" she almost begged as Emily laughed against her neck. "You're a real jerk" JJ complained as Emily moved off her.
"Yep" Emily remarked with a cocky grin as she stripped JJ's shirt off of her as the blonde brought her hands around the small of Emily's back and pulled her into another kiss, Emily massaging her breasts over her bra. "Damn it" The brunette complained as she slipped her hand under JJ's back, distracted by the blonde's light biting of her collar-bone and having a difficult time unclasping the offending clothing item. "What do you want JJ?" Emily asked over a pant, worried that they were going too fast.
"You know what I want."
"I want you to say it."
"I want whatever you can give."
Emily nodded at the request as she slipped a knee between JJ's legs, eliciting a gasp as she pressed it against the other woman's core while she lightly nipped and licked the top of JJ's breasts. "You're so perfect" she muttered before flicking her tongue over a hardened nipple.
Meanwhile, JJ wasn't completely sure of what to do, mindlessly raking her fingernails against Emily's lower back under her shirt. Part of it was that she was completely memorized by Emily's movements, it was almost as if the other woman knew her body better than she knew did, but another part of it was just inexperience. Her breath hitched as Emily's hand drifted down from her left breast, moving lower, moaning as she felt the other's woman's fingers brush against her through her panties. "Emily…"
Taking the hint Emily moved back to strip JJ of the final piece of clothing while JJ tore off Emily's shirt. JJ loudly gasped when she felt one of Emily's fingers tease her core as the raven haired woman began to circle her fingers around JJ's clit, continuing to kiss and suck on the other woman's neck, softly biting down on JJ's pulse point, not caring if she left a mark. But considering JJ's rapid breathing and moaning it was highly unlikely that she cared either.
"Oh…God…right there" JJ ordered in a broken sentence as she felt an orgasm building, clutching the sofa cushion as she nibbled on Emily's earlobe while the other woman's fingers found the perfect spot inside her. "Emily…"
"Just relax" Emily instructed as JJ nodded and began meeting each one of Emily's movements, while Emily continued to simultaneously stroke JJ's core whilst lavishing her chest and neck with kisses and small bites.
"I'm so…"
"What? Are you okay?" Emily asked as she sucked the skin behind the blonde ear's, her hot breath dancing against JJ's wet skin.
"Yeah" JJ choked out over a pant, unable to concentrate on anything other than feeling Emily inside her, the other woman's tongue circling over one of her nipples. "I'm going to…" JJ drifted off as Emily quickened her movements, curling her fingers deep inside the blonde as her thumb continued to stroke the blonde's clit.
"Emily..." JJ moaned, gasping for air as her body tightened over Emily's fingers, the brunette continuing her movements to draw out the other woman's orgasm as she lightly pulled on JJ's lower lip with her teeth, her tongue exploring the other's woman's mouth, pulling her into a final passionate kiss.
"Oh god Emily" JJ remarked with a content sigh, panting as she tried to catch her breath, her flushed naked body covered in a layer of sweat. However, the sense of complete relaxation and contentment quickly faded after she realized what she had just done.
All JJ wanted was to touch Emily, to continue to explore each other's bodies throughout the night. But she couldn't do that, and she couldn't believe what she had just allowed herself to do. Did she have no impulse control whatsoever? She had just had sex with a co-worker, her female co-worker, who was also her best friend.
"JJ, are you okay?" Emily asked as she noticed JJ's formerly relaxed body tense up underneath her. "JJ?"
"I-I, oh fuck, we, I shouldn't, we can't ever do this again" She awkwardly stated in a panicked voice as she pushed Emily off her and jumped off the sofa in search of her clothes. "We work together."
"Really? Is that where I know you from? Because I forgot" Emily stated in a bitter sarcastic tone with an eye roll.
JJ glared at her friend as she pulled on her underwear and clasped her bra, "I'm sorry I just, we cannot do this. We can't do this Emily."
"It's okay."
"It's not okay" JJ groaned as she ran her hands through her sticky, mused hair. "I should have never come here."
"No, maybe you shouldn't have" Emily said in a professional tone as she shook her head in disbelief.
JJ studied the other woman, noting the vacant expression on her face. "I'm sorry. It was, you were really good. You were amazing and I don't think I've ever...and all I want is to be here with you and, shit, I don't know what's going on with me, but we can't do this Emily. We can't get involved like this. It's not right…"
"Not right?" Emily asked incredulously with a scoff. "You seriously have some identity issues."
"What is that supposed to mean?" The media liaison asked with a scowl, resting her hands on her hips as she temporarily stopped buttoning her pants.
"It means that I think you're having a difficult time accepting that you're not the straight shooter you thought you were, or want to think you are."
"Oh is that what you think Agent Prentiss? You think just because you're a profiler you know everything about me now."
Emily laughed condescendingly at the other woman, "Yeah you're right. You certainly fucked like a completely straight girl."
JJ was about to retort back something bitter but bit her tongue instead. She loved Emily, as a friend, and she didn't want to lose her. This was one mistake. They could get over one mistake. They could, and would, get past this. And one day it would be like this never happened. Maybe they'd even laugh about it. Okay, that probably wouldn't happen, but they could still move on from it.
"I'm sorry but this is just so confusing and we could lose out jobs. Fuck Em, you know that I care about you but we cannot do this. We just cant. Can we please just go back to being friends? Please Emily…" JJ pleaded as Emily took a deep breath and nodded.
"We can try I guess" the brunette agreed in an unenthusiastic voice.
"We can" JJ agreed as she slipped on her shoes. "You mean so much to me and I don't want to lose you and this, whatever this is, we both know it'll never work anyway so why ruin everything with sex?"
Emily couldn't disagree with that logic. FBI fraternization was strictly prohibited and JJ was in deep denial about her feelings so no, any resemblance of a relationship between them would never work. Not to mention that Emily had grown accustomed to having JJ as a friend and she didn't want to jeopardize that. The fact of the matter was that a relationship between them was probably never in the cards, but that didn't mean that JJ's reaction didn't hurt. "You're not going to lose me."
"Really?"
"I'll always be here for you. I might just need some time to process this…I feel like the only appropriate adjective for this would be a clusterfuck."
JJ smiled at the simple statement as she grabbed her purse and car keys, "And I'll be here for you too. Friends?"
"Friends" Emily reluctantly agreed as she followed JJ to her front door. She had a bad feeling this was going to get messy, and Emily Prentiss didn't do 'messy.' But much like her blonde counterpart, this new friendship was making her do a lot of things she would have ordinarily just walked away from.
JJ gulped before opening the door, her eyes betraying how terrified she truly was, "Emily, did I screw everything up?"
"No" Emily warmly said with a smile. "We're going to be okay."
"Promise?"
"Promise."
"Yeah?"
Emily chuckled at the other woman's insecurity as JJ stepped into the hallway. "Yeah" Emily merely replied as she closed the door behind JJ and groaned. "That was seriously not how I was expecting the night to go" Emily grumbled, glaring at the sofa, still more than a little turned on. "Fucking JJ" she complained as she walked up the stairs to her bedroom.
Who will be the first member of the team to find out about Emily and JJ's sexual disaster? Predictions?
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