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Oh we don't know the roads that we're heading down

We don't know if we're lost, that we'll find a way

We don't know if we leave, will we make it home

We don't know, there's hope, then we'll be okay

- We Don't Know, The Strumbellas

May 4, 1990

Emily knocks on the front door.

Sandy answers, visibly pregnant. "Hello Emily!" She stands on tiptoes to kiss Emily's cheek.

"Hello Sandy," Emily smiles, "How are you feeling? Jennifer said you'd been a bit peaky."

Sandy pats her protruding stomach affectionately. "I'm glad to be done with morning sickness. Come on in! JJ is upstairs."

Emily blinks in surprise at the name change, but doesn't otherwise react.

"JJ!" She calls up the stairs, "Emily is here!"

Loud stomping can be heard from upstairs. Jennifer appears at the top of the stairs and happily shouts. "Emily!" She runs down the stairs.

Emily catches her. "Hi Jenny!" She whispers.

"Come on!" Jennifer takes Emily's hand. "There's something I want to show you." She pulls Emily out the door.

"Bye Sandy!" Emily waves.

She laughs. "Bye girls!"

Once they're out of sight of the house Jennifer releases Emily's hand and bites her lip. "It's a bit far."

Emily shrugs, "That's okay we can talk on the way. How's soccer going?"

"Great!" Jennifer exclaims. "We've won all of our games so far! Can you stay? We have another game tomorrow."

Emily nods. "I think so, but we'll have to ask your parents first."

"Yay!" Jennifer spins around.

Emily laughs.

Jennifer grabs Emily's hand again. "How were your exams? Did you pass everything?"

"With flying colours!" Emily grins.

Jennifer laughs. "I should have known."

"Where to?" Emily asks pointing first at the forest and then the fields.

"We need to go through the woods," Jennifer nervously looks up at Emily.

"What it is?" Emily asks in concern.

"Nothing!" Jennifer's answer is too quick.

Emily sighs. "I'm moving out of the dorms and into an apartment. So I need to give you my new phone number. Same rules apply: You call whenever you need to talk, but I might not be home or I might only be able to talk for a short while. Okay Jenny?"

"Yes, Emmy." She nods. "Will you have a better roommate?"

Emily snorts. "Yes, Margaret is significantly tidier than Kelly was."

Jennifer brushes her loose hair out of her eyes. "Do you know her already?"

"Yes, I do." Emily offers her a hair tie. "We went to boarding school together for a year in London. We weren't good friends but we were friendly."

Jennifer smiles in thanks and ties back her hair. "Oh. Well at least it's someone you know."

Emily nods and squeezes the small hand clasped in her own. "I heard your mom call you JJ."

Jennifer flinches. "Daddy's been doing it too," she whispers.

Emily frowns. "Have you asked them to stop?"

Jennifer nods.

"Look at me Jennifer." Emily sighs and stops walking.

She looks up.

"Do you want me to ask them to stop?" Emily raises an eyebrow.

"You'll make them angry!" Jennifer pales and her eyes widen.

Emily kneels down in the dirt. "Jennifer. Do you want to be called JJ?"

She shakes her head. "I don't want to be the oldest."

Emily frowns. "Is that a no?"
Jennifer scuffs her shoe in the dirt. "Mama is having a baby girl."

Emily nods.

"Mama and Daddy have been calling me JJ since they found out." She looks up, pain visible in her blue eyes.

Emily winces.

"It hurts Emily," she whispers. "Every time they call me by her name, it feels like they're replacing me."

"Oh Jennifer," Emily murmurs, her heart breaking for the younger girl. She wraps her arms around Jennifer.

She sniffs. "Will you be my sister too, Emily? I don't want to replace Jessie with you, but I don't want to be the oldest. I don't know how to be the oldest."

"I'd be honoured." Emily kisses the blond head resting on her shoulder. "I've never had a little sister before."

Jennifer leans back and smiles. "Just promise me one thing," she whispers.

"What is it?" Emily asks.

Solemn blue eyes meet calm brown. "Don't ever call me JJ."

"I promise," Emily whispers.

Jennifer smiles happily. "Now as your first big sisterly duty, you have to give me a piggyback ride to the ravine! My legs are so tired from soccer practise!"

Emily bursts out laughing.

They walk through the forest for another twenty minutes before coming to a break in the trees.

"We're here," Jennifer says and slides down, off Emily's back. "Let's find somewhere to sit." She takes Emily's hand in hers and tugs her towards a patch of wildflowers.

"It's beautiful here Jenny," Emily sits down and smiles. "Thank you for showing it to me."

Jennifer sits down next to Emily but she doesn't look at her. She shivers and points to a boulder sticking out over the edge of the ravine. "That's where Jessie was pushed in. I checked to make sure she was breathing and then I ran home for help." She turns haunted blue eyes on Emily. "She was covered in bruises and her clothes were ripped. Last year you said I was too young. Am I old enough now, Emily?"

"Yes." Emily shudders and holds her new little sister close.

AN2: Thank you for reading, please review if you have something to say.

I have 5 scenes planned out for this story, but if you would like to see something in particular, please let me know.