Chapter 2

I should have not agreed on singing that mash-up with the God Squad, we should have stuck with a different song. I should have not sang the lead to that song, just like how I did with Stereo Hearts, when Finn requested it for Rachel on Wednesday.

*FLASHBACK*

I was actually surprised when Finn came into the Celibacy Club meeting, he looked like a lost puppy no matter how many times he had been there when we dated last year, but I couldn't really expect him to remember, he was never the attentive boyfriend anyway. So yeah, I was surprise he came in there and asked us to sing for Rachel, he said it will serve as an advance serenade for Valentines.

I accidentally told Rachel about this when I came late for our practice on a duet assignment Mr. Schu gave us for Glee.

"He did what?" she squeak rather unpleasantly, not exactly what you'd expect from the crushing-the-quarterback girl, I was expecting her to squeal in joy, but then again she had been giving away subtle moves indicating that her sexuality is fluid, so yeah…there's that.

"Who's going to sing lead?" she looked at me so earnestly. I was a little taken aback, she knows I never liked having the spotlight on me when singing, especially not when she once told me I can do more with practice.

"Joe will. He's really great, think I'll invite him to join Glee, you know?" she nodded her head but kept it low, and she stared at her lap when I heard her mumble something incoherent.

"What was that?" I asked, peering through her trying to catch her eye. "uhm, I said, I thought it'll be nice to hear your alto sing a beautiful rendition of that song…" she mumbled softly.

I chuckled at that, and I saw her head snap "is there something funny from what I just said?" I shook my head no and said "that was fairly long, from the small mumble I heard you said first."

She shook her head a little and said, "Thought you didn't hear me?" "I didn't" I answered back. "Well, I actually asked, will you sing it?" and there were those earnest looking eyes. I can easily drown in them if I didn't really just see her as a friend.

"It's a boy's song Rach! I think having an alto sing that is reaching" she rather smiled at the endearment of calling her with a nickname rather than Berry.

"Well, I love your voice, and I think you can do it justice if not sing it even better, just saying.." she confessed.

*End of flashback*

I should have thought about that well, and took that lead instead. I could handle love-struck Berry rather than how my heart breaks now with what happened with Santana. I feel even worse because I had practically sung to her a ballad.

We agreed to sing leads each time someone requests from us, and Joe and I were the ones left since Cedes and Sam took the first two and sang duets with each other on their turns.

Joe was the obvious choice for Finn to sing to Rachel, he must sense that me singing to Rachel is going to be weird and I didn't know Santana was going to request a song for Brittany just to piss Joe off about his faith and her requesting a song for a girl will throw him off.

"Was that song for me, Q?" she tried again.

I stared back at her through our reflections from the mirror pleading her silently not to ask me what I knew she'd ask.

"No, don't be silly" I scoffed, trying to be nonchalant about the whole thing. She wasn't buying it, I can see it in her eyes, but she nodded anyway and smiled at me.

"You sounded great, maybe next time we can work on a duet in Glee?" she beamed and I smiled back at her nodding softly.

She took my hand and dragged me out to go back to our friends "come on, they are waiting for us."