a/n: i have had 3 hours of sleep in the past three days...apparently that makes my muse happy...anyways, i hope this isn't a bunch of jargon!!

CHAPTER 19

Cragen smiled as he sat at his desk; from the moment he saw Olivia he knew that she was pregnant. He had always had a knack for things like that. Not to mention that Olivia was wearing a baggy sweater, in all his years that he had known her, he had never, ever seen her wear something that didn't hug every curve of her body. He looked out his door and saw Dean enter the squad room. He smiled and quickly called him into his office.

Don chatted to the younger man about this and that, trying to get some details on what was up with him and Olivia. Clearly he had knocked her up; he was absolutely positive that Liv was pregnant.

"So, um…Olivia looks good. She seems to be…glowing," He said hoping Dean would take the bait.

Dean couldn't help but smile, "Yeah, she's great."

Don looked intently at the man wondering if he should press him. He had too, he had to know, it was killing him. He decided to just bite the bullet, "Look, Dean…I uh…she's pregnant isn't she?"

Dean's eyes grew wide and he practically choked on his own salvia, "Uh…um…did she tell you?"

Cragen laughed, "No, but it is written all over her face." Dean smiled, and Cragen continued, "I'm so happy for her, so happy for you," he corrected, "I mean you did it! You got her back! Why aren't you guys gloating all around town about it? You don't have to keep it a secret, it's not like you guys are partners or anything."

Dean's chest hit the floor. Holy fuck, Cragen thought that he had knocked up Olivia. He didn't know what to say. He wanted to correct him, but he couldn't do that to Olivia. He would be putting her and Elliot's job in jeopardy. Ok, well if it was just Elliot's job in jeopardy he would consider it, but he definitely couldn't do that to Olivia. A hundred and two thoughts ran through his mind. While he was thinking of how to correct this situation, Cragen thought that his silence was confirming it.

"Look, if you guys aren't ready to tell people, I understand that…I guess. But I just wanted to say congratulations."

Dean opened his mouth to speak, to say something, what? Well, he wasn't sure, but he knew he had to say something; however, Don's phone rang and it seemed to be about something pretty serious. Dean smiled at Don, and let himself out of the office. He had to get in touch with Olivia, and fast.

EOEOEOEOEO

"Oh my God, Elliot. This is beautiful! I can't believe you did all this work. It's just gorgeous!" Olivia beamed as Elliot gave her the tour of the house.

Elliot smiled and grabbed her hand leading her down the hallway to the room next to theirs. The door was closed and Elliot hoped that Olivia would love what he did with it, "And this next room…well let's just say I wasn't sure if I should do it or not, but-" He said with a small smile, "Well, let's just say my guy instinct was correct." And with that he opened up the door.

Olivia gasped, and she drew her hands up to her mouth. She had no words, but a lot of tears. She grabbed Elliot's hands and pulled him into her, "It's beautiful, Elliot! Just how I would have imagined it."

The walls were painted in a soft yellow, which matched the little duck border that ran around the room. There was a beautiful white oak crib and matching changing table. The nursery was the most wonderful gift she had ever seen in her entire life. She thought about it for a minute, and then she got it. It wasn't for their baby, Elliot didn't even know about it. This was Eli's room. She felt a twinge pull at her heart, but she recovered quickly. Her nerves began to make her stomach ache, and she loosened her grip on Elliot. He probably thought she was a nut case, crying over a room for a baby that wasn't even hers.

"Eli's going to love it," she managed to choke out.

Elliot quickly pulled away from her so he could look deep into her eyes, "Well he did help me pick out the colors, but Liv, this isn't Eli's room. His is down the hall," he looked deeply into her eyes, "This is for our baby." And he slowly and nervously placed his hand onto Olivia's growing belly, "For this baby," he whispered, and felt his eyes get teary.

Olivia gasped again, "You know?"

Elliot laughed, "If there is one thing I know, Olivia, its pregnant ladies."

Olivia smiled, "When did you find out?"

Elliot kissed her hands and placed his hands back on her belly, "Well, when I first saw you, I didn't know right away. I just kept thinking about how fucking gorgeous you looked. I knew there was something different though, you had this…glow. This, I'm going to be a mommy glow, and I just knew…and Liv, I just…God, I couldn't be happier."

Olivia kissed him softly on the lips, "When did you decide to make a nursery?"

Elliot smiled and looked up at the ceiling, as he put into words how he just knew, "A month after I got home I had this dream that you were pregnant, and we were so happy together, and everything was just perfect…of course I woke up from it, and realized it was all a dream, and that you still weren't home. But, I don't know, Liv…it's like I knew it was a dream, but it just felt so real, you know? I don't know, I can't really describe it I guess."

He wiped the tears that were falling from her eyes, and kissed her deeply on the mouth, "I'm so glad you're home, Olivia. God, I just missed you so much."

"I missed you so much to."

EOEOEOEOEOEOEOEO

"I love how that the only furniture in this house is the bed. Which, wonderful choice by the way." Olivia said as she patted the pillow top mattress. It was the largest bed she had ever seen, could easily sleep eight people, she thought. She then smiled at the number. 8, exactly the number of people in their family.

"Hey, I ordered everything together, don't ask me why the bed was the first thing to arrive, however I'm not going to argue." He said as he put the new sheets on the bed. "They told me the stuff wasn't going to come until tomorrow, however the bed arrived two days ago. It's almost as if they were trying to me something. Actually, the baby furniture was the first to arrive. Came three days ago."

"I can't believe you did all this," she said as she helped him make up the bed.

"I'll do anything for you, Liv."

"And I for you." She said with a smile, "We're going to have a lot of things to figure out though, El. I mean, Cragen is…shit, he's going to kill us."

Elliot laughed, "Yeah probably. That was always the one thing I didn't know how to get around. I don't want to lose you as my partner, Liv."

"Me either." She said as they finally finished making the bed, and they both fell onto the bed.

He rolled over to her, so that he could softly kiss her lips, "We'll figure something out. We always do."

Olivia smiled, "Yeah, we do, don't we?"

The laid on their sides and stared into each other's eyes, "I've missed you so much," he whispered.

"I thought about you everyday, all day." She confessed. She placed her lips onto his and swiped her tongue over his lip, "I missed the way you smell, the way you taste," she said placing small kisses on his lips, and down his neck.

Elliot groaned, already feeling his member beginning to harden, "I'm so in love with you, Olivia, I just…fixing up this house was the only thing to help me through not being with you. I just knew that if I got this house, that you would come back and make it a home. It feels like home already, doesn't it?"

"Yes," she whispered as she ran her hand along his shoulder blade and down his back. Her body quickly responded to the way they were touching, and she didn't realize how bad she had needed him…like needed, needed him, "Make love to me, Elliot," she said softly.

He cupped her jaw and pulled his lips to hers, "Forever and always."

Her pregnancy hormones were out of control, she quickly found herself tearing off his clothes, and practically jumping on him. He too, worked just as quickly, although a little bit more careful with her, not wanting to harm the baby in anyway. When he had her shirt off, he almost cried at the site of her swelling belly. He had never seen anything more beautiful in his life. And that was the plain truth; he had never felt this way when Kathy was pregnant. Not that he didn't think her pregnant body was beautiful, because he did…it was just that with Olivia, his love for her was pure, true, and that had made all the difference.

EOEOEOEO

"What are you doing, Mom?" Maureen asked as she walked into the Eli's room.

Kathy had a bunch of suitcases out and was placing Eli's clothes in them.

Kathy looked over at Maur and smiled, "Just getting some things ready for you father's house."

"Wow Mom, you're really handling this well."

Kathy sighed, "I'm sure going to miss this little guy, not seeing him everyday just might kill me…but it's for the best. Little man needs his Daddy, too. Besides it's not like he's going far, just a quick walk, isn't that right?" She said as she picked up Eli and placed a kiss on his head.

"You know that Olivia is back, don't you?"

Kathy smiled, "Yes, Maur. You know, it's not like your father and I don't talk. We have actually become friends. Kind of weird isn't it?"

Maureen just smiled, "A little. So you're really okay with Daddy living with Liv?"

Kathy took a deep breath, "He's happy, you know. I love your father very much, but it's not like it used to be, and to be honest I don't know if it was ever like the way your father loves her. I want to hate her Mo, I do…but I just can't. She's really good for him."

Maureen walked closer to her mother and gave her a hug, "I think you're the strongest person I have ever met."

Kathy smiled, "Thanks, sweetie. I guess all those therapy sessions are really paying off, huh?"

Maureen laughed, "Yeah, I guess you could say you're getting your money's worth." She kissed Eli on the head, "So, how is this going to work? I mean Daddy has crazy hours, it's not like Eli goes to a 24 hour daycare center, is he going to change his schedule or something?"

"Not exactly. Your father is going to get him Thursday to Sunday, that way he can spend all day with him on the weekends. Cragen told him that he will have regular 9-5 hours on Thursday and Fridays, and I changed my schedule so that I have off on Mondays and Tuesdays, so I can spend the whole day with him too," she smiled thinking about how civil she and Elliot had been while figuring out the custody of Eli, "Besides, it's not like he doesn't have four older siblings to help out if we get into a jam."

EOEOEOEOEOEO

Olivia moaned as she felt Elliot move inside of her. It was amazing how her body responded to him. It was as if she was built strictly for him, and perhaps maybe she was.

"I love you so much," Elliot gasped as he felt her body around him. Being inside of her was absolutely amazing; he never wanted to come out. Their bodies were connected just as much as their souls were. The bond that they shared was priceless, and they both knew how lucky they were to have each other.

Both their bodies were covered in sweat, and being that it had been so long since the last time, they didn't have time for foreplay. They headed straight to the main course, and never looked back. He thrust his hips into her and she held onto him for dear life. She wiggled her hips and began to pant his name. Her body was so close and they had just started. But none of that mattered, because once they were done, they could do it again, and again, and again. The thought of making love to him everyday almost made her come immediately, but Elliot had pulled out, causing her to cry out.

"Please, El…what are you doing?" She begged.

"I just wanted to look at you, for a minute," He said as he glanced over her naked body, "I'm so happy, Olivia. You make me so happy, and if it's okay, one day I'm going to make you my wife."

Olivia couldn't help the tears that slipped through her eyes, "There's no one else's I'd rather be," she said placing kisses on his lips, and trying to get him to lower himself back into her, "I never thought I could love someone as much as I love you."

He pushed himself back into her completely filling her. She tilted her hips up and her orgasm fired through her, causing his body to do the same.

EOEOEOEO

"Elliot?" Olivia cooed as she ran her hand along his chest and he along her belly.

"Yeah?"

"I think Cragen knows I'm pregnant."

Elliot shot up, "What? How?"

"Well, because at my welcome back party he offered me a coffee, and whispered in my ear, 'don't worry it's decafe' I mean don't you think that is kind of strange? When have I ever drunk decaf?"

Elliot shook his head, "Never," he whispered. He paused and thought about it some more, "Yeah, he knows."