He wanted to see if I was up for a visit to the soul society, I yawned and stood up and walked away, I went through him into the soul society and met his mother in prison, Kaz had never seen her ever sense he was born, he cried when he saw her and she looked at him then me asking "You haven't controlled your inner self have you?" I shook my head as the answer then said "No matter how hard I try I cant stop myself from getting angry just the sight of the one person I hate and I go on a rampage Yu have to help me" she sighed and smiled putting her hands on my head and Kaz's head saying nothing.
The look in her eyes told us that she was going to be fine soon, but Kaz wanted her to get out of this prison and I did as well, she said to both of us "You have the will and stregth to control your inner selves you just don't want to... Kaz I loved your father more then anything, he was my treasure and so were you I worked hard to protect the both of you, shiro your past is what drives your anger and hatred you must control those feelings" I nodded and looked at Kaz who had cried mad at his father for leaving it was like his father had abandoned them and he couldn't help them, but some soul reapers spotted us and screamed "FREEZE!" We stood there talking to his mother anyway not noticing them, the captains were back looking at me as I jerked my head up and covered my head with my hood on my jacket and felt much better giggling, Kaz's mother knew what that meant and she grabbed my hand, I instantly stopped and looked at her saying "I did it again" I placed one hand on my face to cover my emotions as she stroked my hand, I fell to my knees and sat there with my head down, about ten years ago or something like that I was happy with being with my family and well it's was just so awesome until I lost them in a fire while I was at a school for visords and I was taking in by Kaz father who taught me how to control my inter self, and he was like a father to me, but a strict one I always got hit on my head for going wild trying to kill everyone in the house including Kaz, I couldn't understand what the hell was wrong with me when I was younger, but Kaz was like a little brother to me and I was sent away to protect him, the prison was like I always remembered it to be, now that I was here again to see his mother, she hummed stroking my hand still as I calmed down.
My body was like dead weight as I sat there with my head down thinking about how much they helped me in the past, but something told me someone was lying to me, but I felt like shit so I didn't care at that moment and things started to change when Kaz father appeared in front of me with his arms crossed and a disappointed look on his face, I had my head down in apology for losing control of my inner self once again as he asked me "Have I taught you nothing Shiro? Why can't you control your inner deadly self?" The answer was not coming out, but an apology whine did as he asked "Why are you so fixated on killing those who murdered your family?" My anger grew when he said something about my parents and I launched myself at him an pinned him growling "They didn't even do anything wrong they killed my parents and my younger brother no body understands my pain but they can talk about their pain in front of me I watched them as they killed my younger brother in my arms HE WAS JUST A BABY!" He finally understood why I held a grudge against Aizen an I cried on his chest with my hands clenched into fists burrying my face deep into his chest.