A/N: Halfway through! PLZ ENJOY ;3

Okay, now what do I do?

With my car parked somewhere I don't remember, I stood in front of Ayumi and Mochida's mansion. All of the lights were off and I could hear crickets in the distance. It was dead quiet. Perfect. I remember that their bedroom is on the 2nd floor. There's huge window in their room. I should be able too see them through there. How the hell am I supposed to get up there, though? I looked around the area, trying to find something that could help me climb up. The walls are made of wood and there are small spaces between the planks, but there's no way that I could climb all the way up there without falling at least 30 times. Shit. What the hell am I going to do …

Just when I'd lost all hope, I found a ladder laying on the ground in their backyard.

"Thank you, Jesus …" I whispered and sighed in relief. I mean, what are the odds? I took a tight hold of the ladder and lifted it over my head. Careful not to make any sound, I placed it right by where I saw the window. The window lead to a small balcony, so I'll climb up to the balcony and knock on her window from there. "Phew … Here goes," I whispered and slowly started to climb up. Because of my angst, I felt my feet slip from time to time. I didn't actually fall though, but I was pretty darn close.

I sighed in relief when I finally found a safe place to stand on the balcony. I brushed off the dirt on my clothes and looked inside the window. They were sound asleep, both of them. They were apart though, making me smile. Alright. Now I just gotta hope that Mochida doesn't wake up as well.

I held my breath and knocked on the window, gently at first.

Fuck! Mochida started shifting, his body rolling over to the other side. Ayumi didn't move at all. I waited for him to be completely still again and then started knocking one more time. Ah, I see her moving! Keep going! I knocked even harder and she finally rubbed her eyes and started blinking. The moment she looked at me through the window, her eyes shot open and she opened mer mouth in shock. I couldn't hold my laughter in.

That's when her expression turned from shock to absolute rage.

She pointed her finger in the air, telling me to get out. I shook my head and waved towards me, telling her to come. After some time with doing nothing but going back and forth, she rolled her eyes and decided to come out.

"What the HELL are you doing here!?" she hissed out the moment she closed the door behind her. She was wearing a pale pink nightgown made of nothing but silk and lace, making me gulp nervously. I quickly shook it off, smiled innocently and said: "I wanna hang." Ayumi mockingly sneered at me. "Hang, huh? Do you know what time it is?" she asked. "Uh-huh," I said, still smiling. She glared at me, telepathically asking me if I was serious. "I just wanna hang," I said. Not as exes. As just former mates in college." Ayumi still didn't look like she was buying it. I sighed and kept bribing. "Alright … If you come out with me right now, I won't bother you anymore. Okay?"

Ayumi's face changed. She looked calmer. "… Promise?" she asked. "Yup," I said casually. She frowned. "I don't believe you. But fine," she mumbled, making my blood rush excitedly. "But please, let me at least put on a pair of leg- Hey!" I had already pulled her by the arm to the ladder. "We don't have any time to waste!" I said, careful not to push her off the edge with excitement. I wasn't worried about anything anymore. Not sleep, not Mochida, not Ayumi's temper. It was the first time in my life that I've truly felt free.

"Come on, can't you say something?"

The cities were quieter than usual. Obviously, it must've been because of what time it was. My eyes were stuck on the road in front of me while holding the steering wheel with stiff hands, not really knowing for sure where I was going. I just had an idea.

"I'm not the type to start conversations," Ayumi said. I muffled a laugh. "That's how you caught Mochida, huh?" I said. I felt the aura grew a little colder after I said that. "Don't," Ayumi spat out. "Geez, no need to get so mad …" I muttered, briefly looking at her. She did not look very pleased.

"Thanks for not letting me put on any clothes, by the way. You're such a gentleman," Ayumi said sternly. I rolled my eyes, took off my jacket with one hand and threw it over to where she was sitting. Right next to me, to be exact. It took her a couple of seconds to react. Or, she actually didn't react at all. I just heard her silently put the jacket on. I don't know if she was being shy or if she still was mad about that dry tease.

"Funny thing is …" I started. "Naomi said the same thing earlier this evening." That sentence caught her attention. "Naomi?" she repeated. "Mhm. We went out today," I said, making sure I said every word clearly. Wow, I'm horrible. Making her feel jealous on purpose is so cheap. "Puh. And now you're asking me out? You disgust me," she sternly said. I groaned. "I told you, this is just a friend's thing. Besides, the date sucked." Pft. Wasn't I supposed to make her jealous? Why am I telling her the truth, then?

"Really? What happened?" she asked. It warmed my heart to see her being genuinely interested. "Promise you won't laugh?" I asked, pressing my lips together. She didn't answer, but I went for it anyway. I sighed and filled in: "Basically, I tried to sleep with her. But I couldn't get hard."

At first, Ayumi acted like I still hadn't said anything. Then I heard a hint of a muffled laugh. "Cough … That's unfortunate," she said calmly. I breathed out a laugh. "Right," I said. "You know I never had that problem everytime we did it." I heard her let out an annoyed growl. "Yoshiki, I swear to God, you're just pissing me off with that!" she said loudly. "What? I'm just being truthful," I said. "Well … Yeah, but …" Ayumi stuttered out, scratching her neck. I smirked at her when I saw her red face. She got even more mad. "S-Stop looking at me like that! Seriously, you're so stu-"

"Excuse me, could I get two large Big Mac menus? Oh, and two Cokes."

I ignored her last sentence when I noticed that I almost had driven past the McDonald's drive through. Ayumi looked completely stunned and confused. I turned towards her and smiled. "Wouldn't want you to starve, right?" I said while grinning. Ayumi shook her head, disappointed. "What have I gotten myself into …?" she whispered to herself.

I chuckled and drove off to the next location.

"Why are we … at a high school?"

Ayumi looked out of the window and asked me that when she noticed the tall building and the swimming pool with fences around it. "I was a student here back in the day," I said. "I especially remember the swimming classes that I miserably failed." Ayumi looked surprised. "You can't swim?" she asked. "I can now. But back then, even bath water scared me," I jokingly said. She smiled. "So, why are we here?" she asked again. "Just wanted to have a late night snack by the pool," I said. She looked wary, but shrugged her shoulders.

"Fair enough."

She bit into her burger, only in a short nightie and my oversized jacket. It wasn't that chilly for me, but I guess she's colder because she's so skinny? I don't know. The lamps that were placed along the pool, lit up the chlorinated water, making even the weakest wave look so stunning on the bright blue water.

"Now that I'm on the subject of my highschool self …" I started, looking to my side. Ayumi seemed distracted, but faced me while she was eating. I wouldn't call myself a very open person. I didn't like talking about my issues, regrets or feelings. But for some reason, with Ayumi … It felt okay to break out of my bubble a little bit.

"I wasn't the model student, to say the least. I was far from that."

I smiled sadly and looked up at the clear, black sky. I wasn't proud of my delinquent days. Beating guys up, talking back to teachers, smoking … I didn't mention those details to Ayumi, though. I preferred mentioning the things that truly mattered.

"I planned to keep living that life … Until I my first week in college," I explained, aiming my smile at her. She was still looking at me. She knitted her eyebrows and looked down, not wanting to face me anymore. "Do you remember?" I asked softly. "You whipped me into shape after I tried to pick a fight with my teacher for the first time, didn't you … I still don't get why you did, but still …" I reached for her hand and squeezed it. She tried to let go, but I didn't let her. She needed to hear this.

"You changed me."

Her pupils quivered and her lips were trembling. "F… Flattery won't get you anywhere," she said after swallowing. "I'm serious," I said, not changing my earnest expression. Ayumi sighed and bit her lip shyly. That was her. That was the Ayumi I fell in love with 6 years ago.

"… I'm glad, Yoshiki."

I couldn't keep myself from smiling, even though I planned to remain serious. "Listen, I know that flattery doesn't help, 'cause I know you're happy with Mochida." Ayumi detected my white lie. "What do you exactly mean by that?" she asked. I gave her a smug look and said: "I just would never guess that Mochida would be your type. He's too soft and conservative, don't you think?" I expected to be met with an angry Ayumi, but she didn't say anything. Therefore, I continued: "Do you know what sounds even better than Ayumi Mochida, though?" Knowing that she wouldn't be pleased with what I was about to say, I took off my clothes, preparing to jump in the pool. "Huh?" she muttered, confused. I looked at her from behind my naked shoulder, grinned and said:

"Ayumi Kishinuma."

*SPLASH!*

Hahaha, I can't bear to see her reaction! I opened my eyes underwater and swam around in the cool poolwater. This was exactly what I needed. A little moment to just reflect on what I wanted to do while I was swimming.

I … I have strong feelings for Ayumi. I really do. Even now, it hurts to think about a world where she doesn't exist. Does that mean that I'm fine with her just being alive? Or do I just want to be with her, after all? She's in a relationship. And not just in any relationship. She's getting married to a guy who's definitely smarter and kinder than me. Ayumi looks like she's in love with him, and he's definitely in love with her. If that could just melt into my mind, I could let her og. Still I …

…All I want to do is act on my instincts. Just do what I want."

I swam up to the surface and brushed my hair back, panting. Ayumi was still sitting by the pool, looking at me with warm eyes. I smiled and swam to her, hoisting myself up so that my naked arms were right in front of her feet.

"Pft …" she giggled and said: "You do realize that you're completely naked, right? And that you didn't bring a towel?" I didn't pay attention to what she said. "Ayumi … Can I see you again?" She just laughed again. "You promised, Yoshiki," she said, irritated. I didn't give up. I wanted to see her again, and nothing could stop me.

"If I kiss you like an adult, will you consider it?"

I could only hear the gentle waves on the pool, splashing against my lower back that was still underwater. "Pft … Geez, Yoshiki …" Ayumi whispers and laughs it off as a joke. This couldn't be happening. I have to get her to take me seriously. I stared straight into her eyes, not letting her escape my determination. I drew her in, trying to make her understand what I truly wanted.

"…Yes."

That was all I needed to hear. I didn't even care that I was soaking wet and naked. I hoisted myself completely up from the pool, grabbed Ayumi's face with both hands and roughly kissed her. I wanted her. I just wanted her, that was all. I was used to feeling the vibrations of her voice in my mouth, but this time … It wasn't angry protests. It was moans.

When she eagerly played with my tongue and wrapped her arms around my neck, I felt a huge victory dwell up inside me. "Nm-aah …" I let go for a second just to slide off the straps on her nightgown. This was clearly an invitation to og just as far as last time.

"Y-Yoshiki …" Ayumi whined out, reaching out her arms, begging me to hold her again. I couldn't remember the last time I was this moved by something. Here I was, thinking that she secretly hated me, yet … She could wear such a lovely expression and be so kind and loving. I embraced her and buried my face in her neck.

"Adults don't kiss like that …"

"Yes, they do."

A/N: Is there any hope, or what do you guys think? Please tell me :) UNTIL NEXT TIME ;3