Terribly sorry for the late update. I know I'm being sloppy on it, don't mean to. Anyways, this chapter may be a little on the confusing side, because it talks a lot in metaphors, and such. If you don't get it I can probably send you a translation or something. Basically it's supposed to be confusing.
Petting the Mountain Lion
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Sometimes in life, you screw up, or actually life tends to screw you up a lot. Usually it's small, something so incredibly simple that no one notices it. Sometimes, you get in over your head.
Other times, you know something is wrong, everything about it is wrong, but you want to keep doing it, because it's just so amazing.
I guess they could even be the same thing.
When people grow up, they tend to mature in plateaus. I think of them as levels. Occasionally however, you have a relapse. Even though you've hit a higher level of understanding, things happen that you just can't grasp. You do things that, even though you know you shouldn't, you can't help. Like a dog that will sneak up and take something, that he knows he shouldn't have, but do it anyways because it's good. Because the pleasure for that instant seems more important than the repercussions later.
And for that moment it seems perfect. So perfect.
But then reality always comes to slap you in the face. It's simple really, it's like someone telling you life isn't this normal. Life is strange and difficult and you can't have it the way you think, because you are selfish and weird. More importantly than that, life is the worst thing that will ever happen to you. You get sick, you grow old, you loose amazing memories, amazing ideas, amazing people.
And most of all, in life you're stupid.
Occasionally though life says, "Good job," and tosses you a bone. It's kind of a pathetic congratulations that you did something right for once. The bone can be many things, a person, an amazing experience, or just a good feeling. And when life gets mad, it can take away your bone, just like that. Then grab you around the muzzle and tell you in a firm but gentle voice, "Bad boy, don't do that." Usually though, life will give you that bone back, but it'll be a long time before you get another one.
I don't get it.
Don't laugh and call me a stupid jock, I doubt you get it either. Seriously think about it for a second, we have brilliant opportunities, chances to make our lives so good and so simple, but as humans we lack the ability to sustain those opportunities. It's always someone is cheating on someone else. Or we do something to make something simple, extremely hard. Trying to guess what else we're going to do or what else we can say. Always afraid of offending some one or pretending everything is the same, when in reality, your life very well may be coming apart at the seams.
So this is all a quasi-survival-of-the-fittest game. Just like High School, just like the rest of your life. If you want to get what you want, you have to succeed. You have to focus on your prey, then zero in and attack with all you've got. Take them down at the throat because you will not get another chance. And when you finally succeed, when you finally get what you want, the victory will be so sweet, so incredible. So tasty.
You're on Mountain Lion, you're on.
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Sorry it is short, but next time I update, I will update two chapters at once! Or something. Tell me what you thought? Or didn't think maybe.