{ after chapter 15 }

I am sitting on the couch watching Girly Cow in my black sweats and a comfy sweater. I had the worst day ever and I wanted to relax to calm my nerves, but nothing seemed to be working. I didn't have to best morning when finding out about something huge, and I'm upset about it.

School didn't help the cause either because of the events that have happened. I don't know why it happened, and I'm still traumatized by it. I was in constant pain all day, and it didn't help with my emotions from what happened this morning.

Freddie was on his way home from class and I barely saw him today. I couldn't function in my classes or work, so I left early to rest and see if it would help. Obviously, it didn't. Why do I deserve this? I don't deserve this, do I?

Suddenly, my eyes started to get hot as tears filled my tear ducts. I tried to brush the tears away when the front door opened and the sound of keys filled the room.

"Sam, I'm home!" Freddie announced, walking in the living room area. He stopped his tracks once he saw me. "Oh, hey, how was your day?"

He just had to ask that. I bowed my head and hugged myself, a sob escaping my lips.

Freddie was alarmed before he ran to the couch and sat next to me. "Sam? What's wrong?"

I didn't want to say anything, but my brain thought otherwise when words fly out of my mouth. "It hurts..."

"What? What hurts?" He asked panicked.

"There's blood coming out of me," I whimpered.

"WHAT?!" Freddie shrieked. I turned my gaze to him and stared at him with a pointed look, waiting for him to understand what I meant. He should know by now what blood coming out of me means. After a moment, his eyes widen and his lips parted. "Oh..."

"Yeah, oh." I spat. "I got my stupid period this morning and it ruined my pants! And then I couldn't concentrate in class because my stomach was killing me like the fucking hulk was stomping inside me, repeatedly. Then! I worked at the library today, and two guys were talking about meat. And this bastard told his friend..." I sniffled. "He had the audacity to say... that turkey was better than ham..."

Freddie stared at me like I was going mad, but the truth is that I was going mad because of that stupid conversation that had me upset and this pain I can't get rid of!

"Sam... you got to be kidding."

"Does it look like I'm kidding?!" I snapped. "Who the fuck says that turkey is better than HAM?!" I tightened my arms around my stomach when I got another cramp. "Why won't this pain stop?" I whimpered, tears falling out of my eyes.

"Hey, come here," he opened his arms out and I scooted closer to him, resting my head on his chest. He closed his arms around me while rubbing my back softly. "I'm sorry, Sammy. Did you take anything to get rid of the pain?"

"I took like three Advil pills today and it keeps coming back!" I whined. I hate when my cycle gets like this. I probably have the worst pain tolerance in the history of womanhood and it's unacceptable. It's like I have to throw up every two seconds and taste salt in my mouth that makes me want to cry and pass out.

Fuck. Mother. Nature.

"Okay," he soothed my arm with his hand. "How about I make you some hot chocolate with marshmallows. Will that help?"

"Will you?!" I whipped my head back to look at him in the eyes. When I'm also in this situation, I tend to act like a child in an adult body. Hey, I can't help it. The pain changes me.

"Yeah. Whatever you want." He chuckled. He pulled away and stood up, staring at me. "One hot chocolate coming up." Then he disappeared into the kitchen to make my hot beverage. I just sat there in pain not trying to think of my horrible body. I can't believe I'm stuck like this for the next seven days and I'm already in a pissing mood.

Why can't I be a boy so I don't have to deal with all this crap?!

"And then I couldn't concentrate on my school work while my teacher was talking because all I could think about was my poor stomach exploding. I couldn't even eat lunch. LUNCH! My poor pizza uneaten because of my sickness." I complained. "Like this is what's wrong with society today, girls can't have freedom because we have to deal with shit that boys don't have to worry about!"

I was rambling on as Freddie was listening to me. Or pretending to listen since it looked like he wanted to shoot himself in the head from how he's massaging his temples with his fingers and his eyes closed.

"Getting pregnant, getting periods, getting cramps, gaining weight, going to the fucking gynecologist–"

"Okay, Sam, I get it," Freddie interrupted, resting his hand on my shoulder. "You're in pain. I get it. The pain will go away soon, I'm sure."

"Says the guy who has a dick!" I glared at him. "There's no blood coming out of you!"

He cringed while groaning. "Sam, I get that but this is not the first time you've had your period, and it'll be over soon. The days will fly by." He explained, generously. I knew Freddie was trying to calm me down, but my mood swings get very high when I'm in my cycle, and it's like I'm being controlled by Mother Nature and her evilness.

"Yes... I know they will. They just need to hurry up before I snap again." I said calmly with a strained smile on my face.

Freddie's lips tugged upwards to a grin and he just stared at me. "Don't worry, Sammy. I'm telling you the pain will disappear in a few days. And I'll happily make you laugh so you don't have to worry about it."

I shrugged my shoulders but appreciated that he would try to make me feel better like always. "Thanks, Fredward." I smirked.

"You're welcome. Okay, so I pulled a prank on Gibby, right? I put fake worms in his water bottle while he was in the bathroom during bathroom break, and when he came back and took a sip of it. He spits out the plastic worms and screams while our professor was teaching us." He laughed hysterically, hitting his knee with his hand.

Oh my God...

OH MY GOD! LIKE BIG ASS ANNOUNCEMENT!

Did you see Nathan and London's baby?! SHE FINALLY ARRIVED! 12/21/17

Rosie Carolyn Kress is so adorable! OMG!

I'm so proud of them, I was tearing up so much. I'm still in shock because our little Nathan is not little anymore now that he's a DAD!

Congrats to the Kress Family and their new baby girl!