Chapter 3

What have I done

The moment Kise stepped on Kasamatsu's porch he began to jump with excitement. The last time Kise was in Kasamatsu's house had been five months back before the winter cup. Kise had begged the grouchy man on his knees, and Kasamatsu couldn't refuse at all since many of Kise's 'fans' began to circle around the captain and ace. Kasamatsu didn't want to have a gang of girls on his back for making the model beg on the floor so he reluctantly agreed just like he did a few hours ago.

"Would you stop that". Kasamatsu turned around to give Kise a disapproving glare, which only lead to Kise giving him a child like smile. Kasamatsu quickly unlocked the door not wanting to stand around him anymore.

"Don't touch anything, don't even look at anything, just...just stand there"

Kise watched as Kasamatsu walked away towards the kitchen. Honestly Kise didn't need to move at all, he could just close his eyes and know by memory where everything is. The last few times he was in Kasamatsu's house he made sure he knew every corner, every inch of his house, just in case things progressed with Kasamatsu way ahead of time. For Kise it seemed like the perfect thing, to know everything there has to know about his...his possession. For others or Kasamatsu it would be creepy to know Kise did that, so he would never tell anyone.

After a few minutes Kasamatsu returned. He had books and a small but wide table under his arm. Kise looked at them, then he look at Kasamatsu and back at the things he had. "What is that for?". Kasamatsu gave Kise a questioning look and slowly back away walking toward his living room. "Kise..this is for the help. For studying...you asked me to help you, you idiot!"

"Oh right!" Damn Kise had almost forgotten. He can't fail now just when he's almost at where he wanted to be. He walked around, he mainly walked towards the kitchen. The last time he was there, he'd realized that Kasamatsu's parents kept their car and house keys hanged on a hook in the kitchen.

When he got there, he quickly looked at the wall and to his no so much surprise the keys were gone, so that only meant one thing. Kise and Kasamatsu were all alone, Kise was all alone with him, no one getting in the way, no one interrupting their alone time...no one would. Kise had to hold his excitement in, he was ready to just start jumping up and down, screaming right there, he couldn't wait.

As he was walking back to the living room, he got a better idea. Why not go into his room, be there together in Kasamatsu's room...all alone.

Kise's mind was going in circles. The things he could do to Kasamatsu all alone in his room, touching, licking, sucking, thrusting, kissing, god all the things he's been keeping locked up in his mind would soon be real.

Kise couldn't stop thinking about it, he knew it was nearly impossible for it to happen, he was dealing with Kasamatsu after all, an abusive, grouchy, small man. Before Kise could even lay a hand on him, Kasamatsu would of probably have already broken his arm, or worse his face.

When Kise returned to the living room, Kasamatsu was already done preparing things, all he was doing was sitting on the floor waiting for Kise.

"Um...senpai...can I ask you something"

Without turning his head back Kasamatsu answered in an irritated voice. "What?"

"...Can we go study in yo-"

"NO!".

"But..but i haven't ev-"

"I said no"

"you don't even kno-"

"You want to go into my room"

"Well yea. Why can't w-"

"A no is a no. Listen to your upperclassmen, We are going to study down here in the living room, no where else. So shut up and sit down!"

"But..bu-"

"KISE! My house.. my rules! Now SIT DOWN"

Kise wanted to obey, but he just couldn't, even if his goal was to know more about that girl, his mind is now somewhere else, his mind is set on taking Kasamatsu, wanting him, wanting to touch him. He had a crush on him since way back and now it seemed he wanted him to be his no matter what. So instead of sitting down like he was told to, he began to move towards the stairs. Kise didn't look back. He kept moving up and took a turn to Kasamatsu's room.

He slowly opened the door and walked in.

Kasamatsu's room was clean and proper. His bed was clean, his floor didn't have anything

on it, no clothes, no books no nothing. Kise itched to go and touch his things, oh how badly he wanted to touch his things. He could already imagine how Kasamatsu would touch himself on his bed, moaning and shuttering when he came. Kise walked over to his bed and sat down slowly. He couldn't help those thoughts, they were all over his mind now.

A minute later Kise heard stomping sounds and before he knew it Kasamatsu stomped his way into his room and kicked Kise in the middle of his stomach. " What the fuck Kise, What did I tell you!"

"Senpai..please"

Kasamatsu went quiet then after a few seconds he sighed and nodded then left the room.

Kise smiled. He didn't know why he smiled but he did. He was excited that he began to bounce up and down on Kasamatsu's bed. When he returned Kise stopped his bouncing and waited till Kasamatsu finished re preparing his things.

"Sit".

Kise slid off the bed and sat across the floor from Kasamatsu, the table in between them.

"What subject?"

Subject. Subject. Kise didn't know what subject he wanted to study about he couldn't remember what class he was in when he heard about the test and self- project. When he looked down Kise saw that Kasamatsu had books on almost every subject they were taught in school. So he picked one that seemed easy enough.

"Biology"

" What part"

"... Cells"

Kasamatsu opened up to that page and got out a notebook opening up to a clean page.

A few hours later Kise was dead tired. During the course of the study session Kise slowly made his way toward Kasamatsu's side and Kasamatsu said nothing about it.

Kise didn't know when he fell asleep but he did. He woke up with pain shooting down his neck. It looked like to Kise that he fell asleep onto of the table. He looked over to his side and saw Kasamatsu laying down on the floor asleep.

Kise thought he looked beautiful, much more better than before. Without thinking Kise bent down and stroked his hair. He then planted a soft kiss on his lips. The moment Kise saw what he did, he stood up as quick as possibly and waited to be kicked and smack around. But nothing happened.

He looked down and Kasamatsu was still sleeping.

He went over to him again and kissed him. Kise never knew an opportunity like this would happen or existed but it did, and it was happening right now. Kise pressed his lips aganst Kasamatsu once again. He liked it, he wanted more. Being able to kiss the man of his dreams was far more better than what he thought it would be.

Kise wanted more, he needed more. He slowly lifted Kasamatsu's shirt and trailed a finger against his soft skin. He then made circles around his nipples, careful not to directly touch them.

After a while Kise went and kissed Kasamatsu a little harder this time. He kept kissing him and made his way up to his neck, softly biting the skin and sucking on it. He stopped and looked up at Kasamatsu, he was still asleep. Kise took a deep breath and moved his other hand down towards Kasamatsu's crotch.

Kise lightly squeezed it, and Kasamatsu stirred but didn't wake up, so Kise began to rub. With his other hand, he began to touch Kasamatsu's nipple directly this time, passing his finger over it and pinching from time to time.

Kise wanted more. He bent down and licked his nipple earning a small moan from the sleeping man below. This got Kise excited.

Kise then began to suck on it. He sucked hard, and grazed his teeth over his nipple a few times.

He was so busy with touching the man that he didn't hear the front door open or close. He didn't notice anything until he heard footsteps going up the stairs. He then stopped and rose back up.

Kise's face paled the moment he rose. Down below Kasamatsu was wide awake, his face in shock and horror. Kise didn't know what to do, he didn't know how he missed the time when Kasamatsu woke up.

"Ki...Ki...se.?"

"Senpai...I...I..."

Kise couldn't believe what was happening. He didn't want to be in front of him, he wanted to hide himself away, away from the horror that was happening right now.

Kasamatsu stared up at him, not moving, just laying there in utter shock.

Kise couldn't take it anymore, he stood gathered his things and bolted out of his room. He passed Kasamatsu's parents. He put on his shoes and left without looking back. He ran all the way down to the train station.

All he could think now was that he had no chance, no chance at all anymore.