Regretful
Kise ran down many streets. He wasn't all that familiar with Kasamatsu's neighborhood. He took turns and turns, ran down stores, parks and many different buildings.
Slowly he began to lose his breath. He had ran for ten minutes straight, never stopping. Kise had never ran this far for so long before, basketball was a different story, at least they had breaks where he could catch his breath, but running for ten minutes strained his body far from anything else.
Kise stopped, he bent himself over and began panting and heaving loudly. His throat was parched, he needed water. He needed cool and cold air, he was sweating and the hot humidity and sun weren't helping him at all.
Once he caught his breath he stood up again. A few feet from him he saw a few girls watching and lurking at him.
He had no time to talk to anyone, he had no time to flirt with girls. He just wanted to get away. Get away from what' he would ask himself, Kasamatsu's house was far, far away. Kise had ran far enough that he might be in a different town by now. That didn't stop him from wanting to run again, didn't stop him from wanting to hide, to be ashamed of what he did, and he wished he never did it.
He prepared himself to run again, but to his dismay his legs wouldn't budge. They were weak, they were tired. He took a small step and stumbled a little. Then he slowly began to walk.
He didn't know where he was walking towards, but he felt the need to keep moving.
After a few minutes Kise found himself at a small cafe. The smell of cakes and pastries dragged him there. He look through the window and to his surprise it was still open. Inside were a few people chatting and others studying.
Studying.
That word sent images to Kise's head that he wished he could erase. Erase it all. Make it so that it never happened again.
He walked inside. He didn't want anything but to not be rude he went a got a small cupcake and sat down in a small table. It was located near the far end of the cafe, near a small window where you could see a playground and some kids playing around.
He sat down and sighed. Today was messed up. Messed up in many ways. Kise couldn't believe what he did.
It was supposed to be a fake study session. He was going to use it know more about the girl Kasamatsu liked. Know more about her so Kise could make a plan. A plan to take Kasamatsu before she did. Now that plan was never going to happen. It was never going to happen, and that made Kise sad..more sad then mad. He ruined it all. Kasamatsu probably didn't want to see his face again. He would probably make Kise quit the basketball team, he would never trust Kise again.
Kise couldn't blame him. He touched him without permission. He enjoyed it. He enjoyed passing his hands around his small body. Kise should be happy that he got to touch him, but he couldn't be. It was horrible.
The moment he got up, and saw those shaken and shocked eyes of his possession.
His possession, could he even call him that anymore.
Kise looked up at a clock in the cafe. It was twenty minutes before the last train left. He decided to leave and figure out how to get to the train station.
He got his bag that he set down and noticed that he barley touched his cupcake. He didn't know whether to throw it away, or kept it.
He didn't want to be rude. So he took it with him. Once he walked out he began to walk back the way he came from.
Surprisingly he found the small park he saw from the window. At the far end he saw some High schoolers from a different school. He thought he would ask them the way to the train station. It seemed simple enough then walking around getting more lost.
He crossed the street and began to cut through the playground. On the far side he heard some crying. It was muffled but it was crying.
He looked to his side and saw a little boy crouched under the slides, hands covering his eyes and his ears red.
Kise felt bad for the little kid. He looked down at his cupcake and back at him. He walked towards him. He really was crying. It looked like he had fallen from somewhere, his leg was scrapped.
Kise touched his shoulder gently. The little boy looked up at him, tears staining his shirt and face. He had black hair and blue eyes, the same as Kasamatsu. That made Kise's heart throbbed in pain just thinking about the man.
"Here, take it"
Kise showed him the cupcake and the boy took it with shaking hands and smiled.
"T-thank you mister"
Kise smiled back and walked away, just from doing a good deed he felt his heart reach out from the pain its been surrounded in.
After asking the kids for directions to the train station, he made it just in time to be able to get on.
After a while his mind started to think about Kasamatsu. His heart pained. He hated what he did. He hated himself for what he had done, it was the worst. He should of just left, he should of just went back to sleep or just simply stopped the moment he gave him the first kiss.
When the train stopped he got off and started to walk to his house.
After getting in, taking off his shoes and backpack and walking up the stairs to his room, he slowly opened the door. He got in and sat down at the floor looking blankly at his wall. It dark out and noting could be seen in his room, only the small stream of light from the moon was visible.
Kise sat there for hours, regretting what he had done.