A Coward
-Beep- -Beep- -Beep-
Kise groaned. He shifted himself to the side, pulling the covers over his body, trying to block out the sound.
-Beep- -Beep- -Beep-
It didn't work. He forced the covers off his body throwing it down to the floor. Without moving he lunged his arm over to the annoying sound, only to have his hand land right on top of his phone.
He picked it up and forced his eyes open only to have them close back up. The sun was beaming through his window, lighting up the whole room. It burned his eyes, the sun was high up in the air and Kise cursed it to go away.
He moved his body to the other side of the bed and slowly opened his eyes, taking in the scenery of his room. He took his phone again and looked at the screen.
10:15
LATE!
Kise didn't move, after a few minutes his eyes widened at the realization. A few months ago he began to arrive late to school. Kise didn't think much of it. Being late was nothing to him because at the end of the day he was in school no matter what. It didn't have any meaning to him until Kasamatsu forced him to come to school on time, the next time Kise was late he wound't be able to play any matches for over two months. He would have to still down and watch the match from the bench. Kise didn't want that, so he put an alarm that would sound every fifteen minutes if the time passed eight.
Kise threw himself off the bed barley catching himself on the floor. He stood up straight and hissed loudly.
His back hurt, he couldn't turn his head to the side before a jolt of pain went down his whole body. He took a few steps and almost fell down to the floor. His right leg hurt, it was sore and painful.
Kise couldn't complain about his leg. He ran for ten, fifteen minutes long none stop. It was his fault, his fault in many ways.
Kise shook his head, he didn't want to think about the things that happened yesterday. They were painful, sad and depressing. He was ashamed to remember, ashamed to know that he did such a crude thing like that.
Kise threw his phone back onto his bed and started to walk and shuffle slowly toward his bathroom. When he got inside he looked himself over in the mirror.
He looked tired, dark circles were under his eyes, he looked pale, and drained out of energy. Of course he looked tired, Kise didn't to sleep until the next morning. He was sitting on the floor, knees to his chest repenting his actions.
He felt a small pain in his chest. Kise didn't want to think about it so badly, but it simply couldn't leave his mind. Kasamatsu's face popped up from the shock he had yesterday.
Kise rubbed his face and sighed, he wanted to just drift away, drift away to a far away place, but that wound never happen.
Today he would have to face Kasamatsu, face him straight on. Kise doesn't know what would happen, he doesn't even know how Kasamatsu would talk to him, or if he would even look at him straight in the face.
Thinking of all that started to make Kise a little scared. He looked back at his bedroom door. He could simply pass of as sick and not have to face Kasamatsu, but what would that achieve... nothing at all. He took in some air and let it out.
He brushed his teeth, and slowly took a shower.
He shuffled himself back into his room to change into his uniform. Changing wasn't easy when his neck and back hurt, in a way Kise thought that he deserved to be in pain for the things he did yesterday.
After he finished dressing up, he got his phone and looked at the time.
11:20am
In the back of his head, he wanted to be late as possible, so for the rest of the day he wouldn't have to panic and worry about Kasamatsu.
Just thinking about him again, pained Kise's heart.
He wanted to distract himself, to not think of his name, his face, his whole being, or the events that happened.
Kise put his phone away into his pocket and slowly began to walk to his door. He looked at the stairs he would have to walk down. His right leg got a little better from the hot shower he took but it was still sore when he bent it to much. He clunged to the side of the railing and started to slowly go down, step by step.
He got down and shuffled himself to the door to find his backpack and shoes where he had left them yesterday. He bent over put on his shoes, and his backpack and headed out the door.
Walking wasn't fun when his leg hurt. The train station was at least twelve minutes from his house, and the pain in his leg was starting to return.
He sighed, he deserved it was the only thing he could think of.
After successfully getting to the train station five more minutes than intended, he prayed the gods when he saw his train stop the moment he go there. He wouldn't have to stand and endure the pain.
He limped over to the doors and sat down in the first seat he found. He was lucky not many people got on. This would help him sleep in peace.
After the doors dinged Kise stood up from the scare, regretting it entirely. He hissed and limped his way out the doors. He checked his phone again.
12:09pm
Kise began walking, by the time he got to school at his walking speed it would be break time and he could easily slip right in, not making anyone ask questions.
After finally reaching the school doors, Kise stopped to take a breath.
He entered and went straight to his class, he just wanted to rest his leg for the reaming break time and the reaming three hours of school before he would have to go to practice.
Once he opened the door almost all the girls in the room looked up at him. They smiled and said hi a few of them meeting Kise at the door. All he did was smile back and ignored them, going straight to the teacher desk and signed in then went to his seat. Kise didn't want to talk to anyone or have girls flirting with him.
He set his head down and sighed.
Someone tapped Kise's shoulders lightly. Kise slowly opened his eyes, he didn't know when he fell asleep but he did. He picked up his head and looked at a girl in front of him.
It wasn't just a girl it was the girl that confessed to him a few days ago. Usually when Kise rejected someone they wouldn't go near him they would, go back and admire him from afar. She smiled at him and pointed at the clock. "School ended"
Kise looked at the clock and indeed school had ended. He fell asleep for three straight hours, he wondered why the teacher didn't wake him up. "Thanks" was the only word he let out. He smiled at her and got up from his seat. His leg felt slightly better but not completely.
He walked out the classroom door and looked at the hallway he would need to walk through , to be able to go to practice.
He swallowed hard and began walking. He shuffled his feet, that took more time for him to get to one place to the other. He would probably be the last to arrive, meaning that everyone was already there and so would Kasamatsu.
He turned himself down the hall and was faced by the locker room door. He swallowed and took a deep breath. Kise took a hold of the door handle, and stopped. He didn't move.
It was like lighting that struck when he heard the rough voice of Kasamatsu. He could hear it clearly from outside the door. Kasamatsu was yelling at someone.
That made Kise's heart throb in pain, hearing his voice made Kise break down a little inside knowing the fact that he would have to go and face the small boy in less than a few minutes.
"Um..Kise"
Kise jumped without letting the door handle go he turned around to see Nakamura behind him.
"Are you going to enter?"
Kise looked back at the door never realizing he stood there more than a few minutes. His heart's pace picked up again. He was a coward, he knew it, he definitely knew it.
He took a step back releasing the handle, he swallowed. "No...T-Tell...I-I'm not feeling to good".
Nakamura nodded and walked inside. Kise go a small glance, and he was able to see Kasamatsu at the far end of the room. He lost his breath and ran across the hall, his leg hurt but he didn't care. Kise got to the second floor of the school and slide down a wall, he sighed and cover his face with his hands. "I'm such... a coward"
He definitely knew, he knew...
He was a coward.