Nothing Good...Ever Happens
They walked in silence. Two feet away from each other, arms swaying as they walked in no particular direction.
Kise wanted to say at least something to break the ice. He practically asked a girl to accompany him, a girl who likes him, a girl who had confessed her feelings to him. The more Kise thought about it, the more he felt like he had done a stupid thing asking her to go with him.
She might end up taking it the wrong way, and there was no way in hell Kise was going to tell her about Kasamatsu. He let out a sigh, deciding not to say anything.
The day was hot and humid. There was a light wind that left Kise refreshed. He then looked down at his leg, it didn't hurt now, but he knew when he got home and finally takes the rest he deserves, its going to ache and hurt more.
Kise felt his lips with finger, they were dry. His mind suddenly started to wonder off. He didn't want to remember what happened but it forced its way in. He remembered the kiss, it was fast but he liked the way it felt. Kasamatsu's lips were small and soft. Kise remembered the way their lips pressed against each other. He remembered the way Kasamatsu gripped his shirt, being helpless against him.
The few seconds that he was able to put his tongue inside his mouth was bliss. Kise honestly thought that he would be able to do more than just a small kiss the moment Kasamatsu moaned, but that didn't happen. Kise would always remember the way Kasamatsu's mouth tasted, he wouldn't forget.
Kise didn't know he had stopped walking. He felt his face heat up, and his heart beat rapidly, but he snapped out it, he forced himself to. He knew what was going to happen next, he didn't want to replay it and get hurt more by the thought of it.
He let out a heavy sigh, once again started to hate himself. He looked up and saw Masumi was a more than a 100 feet away from him so he stared to walk.
A couple of minutes of walking she finally spoke. "So...um what happened to your face?"
Kise gave her a small glance and smiled, "I got in...a small fight"
She rose her voice, making Kise flinch " What why, with who!"
Kise took a deep breath " I don't want to talk about it"
"Please tell me"
Kise shook his head and she gave him a forced pouting face. She then suddenly stopped turning herself around to face Kise.
"Wait, I have to go back to school and get something...you won't mind right?"
Kise wanted to shoot himself. He didn't want to go back to that school, he didn't want to take a step inside. He was happy enough to go back in the morning when he was positive he wouldn't run into Kasamatsu, but going back now. Going back now! with what just happened, along with the fact that Kasamatsu was still in school.
He stopped walking and his heart sank. He didn't want to mess up again, he had messed up two times already but Kise felt he had messed up more than that. He didn't want to face him, he didn't want to get him mad again, he didn't want to see his scrunched up face hating and judging him.
Kise looked over at Masumi, she was patiently waiting.
Kise couldn't be an ass, he had asked her to come with him, the least he could do was let her get the thing she forgot.
Kise swallowed hard and nodded. She then went to cross the street, Kise just stood their confused. Masumi stopped walking and turned to Kise again.
"Oh, um these two street lead to school, Iv'e taken this shortcut a lot"
Oh, a shortcut just... great, thought Kise.
He wanted to go back on his answer, he never expected that the school was only two streets down. Kise slowly began to panic. He didn't want to go in there, he didn't want to go inside, he didn't want to do anything.
He started to shake as he slowly followed behind Masumi. The closer they got the harder it was for Kise to hold his emotions in. He badly wanted to break down completely. Kise just knew, he wouldn't be able to hold it in.
After only about two minutes they were near the front gates. Kise could clearly hear all the outdoor sports still practicing near the back of the school.
As he began walking he heard a whistle making him jump, he scanned the area to find nothing, only the cherry blossom trees that were covering way to much of the school ground swaying in the light wind.
Kise looked back at Masumi only to see that she had gone inside the school without notice. He let out a heavy sigh and rushed after her.
Kise took a step inside and his heart began to race. He felt nervous and he was nervous. The inside of the school was empty and quiet. It was the first time Kise had ever been in the school at this time. Since the first day of basketball practice Kise never went threw the hall to go home, he had always used the big door that was connected to the gym, it lead straight outside.
It was too quite for Kise's liking. He felt like he was in a horror movie anything could happen, at anytime, at anyplace and it didn't help that Kise was already nervous.
He never admitted it to anyone but he was one of those people that was easy to scare. Kise was never able to finish a whole horror movie before, he ended up chickening out. Even if someone was behind him and tapped his shoulder Kise would have screamed in fear.
Masumi was taking her time, Kise didn't like that. He wanted to leave as fast as he can and with her taking her sweet time was frustrating him.
"Can we hurry up please" Kise said. Masumi turned around and gave a look. She then turned a corner, Kise quickly following behind. After three more corners turned they finally arrived at a set of of green lockers. Kise cocked his head to the side. Those lockers were different from all the other locker in the school. The school lockers are a light blue color.
"These lockers are...not blue"
Masumi let out a small laugh while she turned her lock. After a few seconds she managed to unlock the lock, opening the locker she spoke. "Well yeah, but you should know that"
"Me..know what"
"That these locker aren't blue, I mean you always pass by here right?"
"Really, I don't think so"
"Then how do you get on the bus, or go into the gym when they block the locker room door"
"What?"
"Kise, you've been playing basketball for so long, and you have never noticed these lockers before. These are like, extra lockers for the basketball and volleyball teams. The other gym door is right there"
She then pointed at a closed door. Kise mind went blank. He looked at the door. Kise swore he had never seen that door before, nor the lockers. He passed Masumi and looked around a small corner only to notice the EXIT sign on top of an open door at the end of the hall.
"Oh" Kise finally said, getting a small laugh from Masumi. He smiled at his stupidity but that smile disappeared.
Kise's breath hitched and his heart started to rapidly beat. It finally dawned on him where he was.
He began to shake again, if he would walk back in the direction he came from it would lead him to a door on the side, which was the lockers, the basketball locker room.
Kise knew the world was against him today. This was the only thing he didn't want, he didn't want to met up with Kasamatsu, he didn't want to get caught by anyone in the team because he knew that they would misunderstand, they would think he was skipping practice and drag his ass over to Kasamatsu by force.
Kise's voice was low. "Why do you have a locker here"
"I'm in the Volleyball team and I use this locker occasionally to put my math and English books. I'm not going to carry them home."
Kise wanted to throw himself on the ground. He looked up at the ceiling and begged god over and over again to not let Kasamatsu show up, to not let him leave the gym or go inside or anything, but since everything was against the poor boy today the gym door opened.
Kise froze. Then some of the basketball players started to come out. Kise let out a nervous sigh, no one he knew came out yet. As the last person left the gym, Kise pushed himself back against the cool wall.
Then the door opened once again and Kasamatsu came out.
Kise stumbled forward.
His heart started to race once again. He felt his face heat up and small tears forming.
Kasamatsu looked up at him. His blue eyes could burn a hole right into Kise's forehead from the intense stare he gave Kise, the more Kasamatsu stared the more Kise felt like letting his tears fall.
They said nothing, only stared. Kasamatsu was the first to speak up, his voice low and menacing, "Your in the way". Without a second thought Kise moved to the side and faced the wall in front of him not daring to look to his side.
He heard Kasamatsu fidget with his lock.
"Kise it's not here, lets go to my other locker" Masumi suddenly said. Kise jolted up and turned to hear and nodded. She then began to walk away again.
But Kise couldn't move. He couldn't lift his leg up to walk, he looked over at Masumi only to see that she was no where in sight.
"Found yourself a new one already?" Kasamatsu said.
Kise looked over to his side. He didn't know what to say, so he shook his head no.
Kasamatsu let out a scoff. He walked over to Kise and stood in front of him.
"What are you in love with her too?"
Kise shook his head again, his eyes getting more watery by the second. He was barley holding on to his tears.
"Your to disgusting to go out with anyway" and Kise let them out. He started to cry, he hated himself for being so weak in front of him. Kasamatsu started to walk back inside the gym and he spoke again. "Not everyone gets what they want" he said but he didn't move so Kise decided to move before he lost it. As he started to walk he heard Kasamatsu speak again. "You better hope I forget about all of this by Monday", and went inside the gym.
Kise started to cry harder. More tears started to fall, every time he swiped his face more just poured down.
Kise didn't care anymore he just wanted to go home now. He began to walk at a fast pace, keeping his head down the whole time. He passed through all the classrooms, all the lockers and headed straight to the door.
He didn't care if Masumi was still inside looking for whatever she forgot, but he hated her. This was her fault, but he knew he was the one truly at fault, for agreeing, for confessing, for having feelings towards Kasamatsu.
Kise quickly made his way to the train station and sat down at the same spot he was before and waited for the train.
20 minutes later the train pulled up, Kise got on, sat down and kept his head down.
When the train stopped at his stop he quickly got out, and rushed himself home.
When he did get home his mother was there, she started asking him questions but Kise wasn't paying any attention.
He got his shoes off, headed up the stairs into his room, locked the door behind him.
He took of his backpack throwing it at a random corner of the room, he threw himself on his bed and buried his head into a pillow.
And began to cry.