I'm writing this for no reason but depression. I'm alone and helpless. I'm vulnerable and I don't know what to do any more, I fell in love with a boy who isn't really a boy I feel in love with a girl who doesn't want to be a girl. I broke up with that girl because I was trapped, worried I'd be unable to get out of a relationship that was on the edge of going down hill and there was no way of stopping it. Me , unable to get over him, tries to make my love for her into hate- and his new girlfriend of course , who I had found out he liked a day after the break up. Before you ask no this isn't made up this is real. And this is my life.
Family-
My dad has cancer, that was easy, I try to let it just ease off into the world to disguise the awkwardness in between me and the person I'm telling. My sister has problems, like sometimes she can't connect with the world that she can't just be happy all the time. Like she has to have an excuse to smile, to laugh and all that jazz. My mum is going through something of her own, she has to deal with work, stress, my dads cancer and me and my sisters eczema , with her own eczema too. Living life isn't easy, isn't easy at all.
Anger-
I don't know what to do when I feel anger, whether to punch a wall or to dig my sharp fingernails into my soft skin. People think I'm a happy person but I'm quite the opposite, the things that go on inside my head are too bad I cannot explain, not yet anyway.
Good bye for now,
Me