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A few days had passed since the incident Jaz and Adam were a part of. A few days of Jaz recovering from her injuries, and a few days of Adam avoiding Jaz. Jaz had been on edge ever since the torture, but Jaz being the strong, independent woman she is; was not going to let anybody see that change in her.
Everyone on the team could sense something different about her, all treating her the same as before just keeping an extra eye on her. Which Jaz had noticed, which made her mad.
It was before dawn; Jaz was pacing in the kitchen. It was another sleepless night, waken by some nightmares a couple hours before. Jaz's burns were healing much better, but were still not healed enough to get back in field. Walking back and forth through the kitchen, woke up Amir.
Walking through his door, "Jaz, what are you doing its 0300." Amir tried to rub the sleep out of his eyes.
Startled, Jaz jumped and turned around to see Amir standing there, "Nothing, I couldn't sleep. Go back to bed."
Walking towards Jaz, Amir sat on the kitchen table opposite to where Jaz was standing, "Do you want to talk about it?"
"I want to talk to my best friend, but he is dead. And you're here instead." Not realizing how harsh she sounded until the words left her mouth, Jaz's shoulders slouched. "I am sorry. I didn't mean that."
Amir, not affected to was Jaz had just said puts his hand on her shoulder, "I know what you are going through, I was undercover with ISIS for three years. Are you having nightmares?"
Jaz couldn't look up, so all she could do is nod.
"It will get easier. I know what you are thinking, but this does not make you weak. You're human, and this happens to everyone." Amir reassured Jaz.
"Thanks." Jaz lifted her head to meet Amir's eyes and gave him a nod.
Amir then walked pass Jaz, and went to his room to get at least a couple more hours of rest. Jaz feeling better, decided to relax on the couch, and ended up dozing off in the matter of minutes not realizing Dalton standing in the corner watching her with concern.
Adam went to Jaz and realized she had fallen asleep, grabbed a throw blanket and put it over her. Staring at her for a minute, he then retreated to his room where he would have another sleepless night, just like what Jaz has been having. Until the sun rose, Adam was staring at the ceiling, thinking about what to say to Jaz, coming up with nothing. Just like the last three nights.
Finally hearing some movement outside of his door, Adam heard McG talking to Jaz. He left his room to see McG behind Jaz, looking at her burns.
"Jaz, these are healing great. Your nerve endings are shot, so I am guessing you have no feeling in the spots right?" McG said while running his hand down her bare back.
"Yeah, unless you touch the side of them." Jaz said calmly. McG then touched the side of one of her three burns, Jaz jumped and then grunted, "Like that, you asshole."
McG smiled, "Sorry, my hand slipped" Realizing Adam was walking from his room he turned his head to Adam's direction, "Morning top."
Hearing McG say that made Jaz want to sink more into the couch. She could feel Dalton's eyes on her back.
"How are the burns healing up?" Realizing these were the first words he had said to Jaz since the incident, since the kiss. He watched to punch himself in the face, full knowing that Jaz would do it for him.
Harshly Jaz replied, "It is fine."
Noticing tension between Jaz and Dalton, McG changed her bandages quickly, and then went to the kitchen, "Do you guys want any coffee?" McG didn't get an answer, so he turned around to see Adam and Jaz giving each other a stare down. Luckily they were interrupted by an incoming video call from command.
"McG, go wake Preach and Amir. Its Patricia." Adam said while walking to his computer.
Before McG could reply, Jaz was already on her feet, "I will do it." Then was out of room in no time. Being confused by Jaz's shade towards Adam, McG gave him a look. Adam could only put his hand up and shake his head, meaning it's not the right time, and to leave her be.
Finally done with the call with Deputy Director Campbell, they were going on a small-inconsequential to do some reckon then leave. About to pack up their gear, Dalton gave everyone orders. Besides Jaz.
Finally speaking to him Jaz looked at Adam, "What are my orders, Top?"
Adam looked at Jaz, "You are not ready to be in the field yet, this is a small mission. We need you here to be 100%" Without looking he would know this was not what Jaz wanted to hear. But he was looking at her, and her eyes turned to fire.
Standing up Jaz shouted, "I AM FINE. Are you saying I'm not fine? Because that is rich since you haven't said a word to me in three days."
Running a hand over his face Adam sighed, "Jaz this is not a serious mission, if it was I would put you in. But you are still healing."
McG, Preach, and Amir exchanged glances with each other, and knew they were in the middle of something, they just didn't know what. Preach then walks up to Jaz, standing between her and Adam, "Jaz, listen he is right. You are our eyes when we are on missions, and if your back is bad when you are looking after our asses, it could make you lose your precise aim."
Amir muttered, "Plus he is our CO"
McG turned to Amir, "Dude, shut up."
Jaz sighed while looking at Preach, he knew she would not want to be the reason that would get them killed. She looked at Preach, then Dalton, "Fine, be safe." Brushing past, Preach she went to grab rifle.
McG, standing next to her, turned his head, "What are you doing?"
Without even looking at him Jaz put a mag in the gun and brushed passed everyone, and while looking at Adam she said, "I am going to the shooting range, I need to shoot something."
Smirking, McG muttered to himself, "Damn, she has got fire in her."
Shocked at Jaz, Adam didn't realize Preach now stood in front of him, "Thanks for that, Preach."
Preach smiled, "Don't thank me yet, a hundred dollars says Jaz is picturing you while shooting at the targets."
Adam sighed, knowing that Preach was right. Soon the four of them were changed and ready, and headed to the ready helicopter. Passing the shooting range, Dalton spotted Jaz, and soon she spotted him. Staring at him, Jaz was shooting the target while looking at Dalton's eyes with pure anger. She was hitting the middle target every time, Preach then noticing, he whispered to Dalton, "Told you, Top."
Watching the rest of her team leave in the helicopter made Jaz furious, in every possible way. She was part of that team, she wasn't someone you could just push aside. Jaz knew Dalton was right about her burns on her back, but anger still flourished through every bone in her body.
Finished with shooting at the range, Jaz went back to her room to get some rest. Since nobody is there, she could have her nightmare, and nobody would be there to hear her scream, if she had. Letting sleep take her, Jaz finally fell into it, and fell into a nightmare.
"What is your name, what do you know" Ackemli said.
"I don't know" Jaz said with a smirk.
"Oh so you like to smile? I don't think you will be smiling after this." Ackmeli went to the fire and brought back the brander with his first name initial on it.
Now this will hurt. He then placed the iron on her back, and then a scream ripped through Jaz's body…
Screaming awake, Jaz noticed somebody by her. Without realizing who, she attacked the person. Pinning the person to the ground, she heard, "Khan, Khan! I am a medic on base!"
Jaz then realized what she did, and got off of the person she had just attacked.
"Oh my god, I am so sorry." Jaz was so upset with herself she looked at the medic laying on the floor and the blood coming out of his nose.
"Joseph McGuire told me to change your bandages, and I heard you scream so I ran in here, my name is Lopez, Rick Lopez." Lopez lifted himself off the floor.
"Are you alright? I am so sorry." Jaz looked at her hands instead of the medic's face.
"I am fine, only a little blood. How about you?" Lopez went to the door.
Jaz couldn't answer, only nodding in acknowledgement. She walked past Lopez and went to the kitchen to see the clock. She had only been asleep for forty-three minutes, it only being four in the afternoon. Exhausted from the nightmare, Jaz went for coffee. "I am fine Lopez, I'll wait for McGuire to get back, but thank you." While drinking her coffee, Jaz noticed the punching bag.
"Bu—" Lopez was interrupted by Jaz putting on music, loud music. Blasting ACDC, she turned it all the way up to drown any sound.
Putting her hair up, not using any gloves, Jaz started swinging at the bag, Giving it her all, trying to get rid of the nightmares, the pain, the sad looks she gets from the guys, she didn't stop.
Letting her emotions pour out, all her built up anger she didn't even realize her burns opened up and started to bleed, along with her knuckles.
Two hours have passed, and the helicopter with the rest of the team landed, grabbing their gear, Dalton, Preach, Amir, and McG were stopped by a medic sprinting towards them.
"Lopez were you able to change Jaz's bandages?" McG said to him.
Unable to catch his breath Lopez got out, "Jaz—she—something –wrong."
Hearing "Jaz" and "something wrong" in the same sentence had everyone sprinting to their quarters. Coming up to their place quick Preach heard the blasting of ACDC and exchanged a glance with McG.
"This isn't good, she only blasts ACDC like this when she is really upset. Just like after Elijah died." Preach said loudly.
They were soon in, and looked around, only to see Jaz dripping in sweat and seeing blood on her back from all the punching.
"JAZ" Amir tried to yell, but had no luck.
Adam turned to Lopez, "How long has she been doing this?"
"For about two hours, after she woke up screaming from her nightmare." Lopez said to an angry-face Dalton.
"You didn't try to stop her?!" McG yelled.
"She already broke my nose!" Lopez yelled back.
Before saying anything else, nobody noticed Amir trying to sneak up on Jaz. About to put a hand on Jaz, Amir heard Adam, "Amir DON'T." Before he could retract his arm, he was face down, from a punch from Jaz.
She was in a stance, that made her go back to punching the bag without acknowledging what she did.
"Preach, you go get the music, McG you get ready to grab Jaz with me, you need to look at her knuckles and back. Amir get some water." All nodding with approval, and Amir nodding with now a broken nose, they got into position.
Adam and Joseph crept up behind Jaz, "NOW!" Dalton yelled, and then grabbed Jaz by the waist pulling her down with him. She was trying to fight, kicking McG in the gut when he tried to get on top of her. "Amir I need that water." Amir came running towards them and splashed the water on Jaz's face, helping her get out of her stance.
"Jaz! Jaz! Jasmine, c'mon." Adam pleaded while having his arms wrapped around her.
McG realized her pupils going back to normal, and soon Jaz relaxed between him and Adam. Breathing going back to normal, Jaz looked around to see everyone looking at her with concern. And noticing Amir bleeding.
"Wha—what happened. Oh no, did I go in my stance?" Jaz asked with sadness in her voice.
Knowing Adam was behind her, she relaxed to his touch, "Yeah, you did. Just like before."
"I am so sorry. I—I don't know what to say. I had a nightmare, and I was so mad. I just started swinging." Jaz looked at Amir, "Did I do that?" Amir nodded.
"Girl you broke two noses, and kicked me so hard in the stomach, I don't think I will be able to eat again." McG said with a smirk. "Let me see your hands, and back."
McG put new bandages on her back, and bandaged up her bleeding knuckles. Adam didn't take an eye off of her, "alright Jaz, try to get some rest?" Jaz nodded.
Watching Jaz walk to her room, Adam followed her into her room. "Jaz we need to talk"
"oh, so now you want to talk?" Jaz said while sitting on the edge of her bed.
"I am sorry. I didn't talk to you earlier. I just didn't know what to say. This is a predicament we are in. " Adam sat down next to Jaz. "But I was right to keep you out of the field today, if that happened out in the field, I don't even want to think what would have happened."
Jaz looked at Adam, "I'm sorry. "
In that moment Adam could only, put an arm around Jaz, and kiss her temple. "I know, now get some rest." I'll stay in the chair over there until you fall asleep.
Nodding, Jaz crawled into bed, and fell asleep. With just having Adam in the room, she had her first night without a nightmare.