Chapter 4

On day 3 of staying at Beca's house, Chloe started to feel uneasy.

Chicago broke up with her immediately the moment he heard that Chloe was pregnant. Was it weird he never really showed any interest in kids when we were together?

It sure made sense now.

But was it weirder how I never considered bringing up the issue of family and kids to him when we were together?

She was pregnant out of wedlock and it looked like she was going to have to do this all alone. Being a single mum is not anything out of the ordinary but the road ahead would surely be difficult; anybody who is a single mother could testify to that.

She had nowhere else to go in the city because she and Chicago shared an apartment together, and there was no way she could go back to that place now.

But what made Chloe uneasy was not any of those above.

What made Chloe uneasy was how easy and comfortable it had been for the past 3 days despite all the things that were happening in her life. She should have been heartbroken. She should have felt like she was betrayed. She should have gone through the stages of grief.

None of that happened.

And she knew the reason why everything felt so normal was because of Beca.

Beca stopped asking anymore questions since the morning kitchen encounter. Instead, everything from then on was pure action - calling Stacie to arrange appointments, informing Chloe's parents she was doing okay and she would be staying with Beca for the time being, Beca finding people to bring all of Chloe's belongings from her old apartment to Beca's.

The following Monday morning was just like any one of those weekday mornings they had when they were together. Beca made coffee (but denied Chloe hers). Chloe made breakfast and force-fed Beca the food. The two things that were different now were the places they headed off to - Chloe to the law firm instead of law school, and Beca to a different label. DJ Khaled's label.

It felt as if no time has passed. And it felt normal.

And that was what made Chloe uncomfortable.

4 years ago she broke up with Beca. All of her friends showed understanding but Chloe knew that deep down, everybody was siding with Beca. Yet nobody really knew how much Chloe was struggling back then. Ever since a kid she imagined her life to be like all typical American families - a husband and a wife, a father and a mother. All of that began to shatter the moment she met Beca in college. Nothing about Beca fitted into the fantasy Chloe had dreamt of, but nobody has ever made Chloe so happy. Being with Beca felt euphoric at times, but there was also a constant clash of dreams and reality in Chloe's heart. To a point where it became too much to bear; Chloe had to walk away.

The sad truth was, Chloe was not out of love with Beca back then.

Now, sitting at her desk in the office, Chloe closed her eyes and took a deep breath -

Hell, she had never been out of love with Beca. That was why everything felt so easy. That was why everything seemed like falling into place even when nothing in her life seemed to make sense.

Everything felt normal, because Beca was her normal.

Life will never be exactly like the way you want it to be. That's what makes it interesting.

But having to tell the love of your life that she is the love of your life while carrying another man's baby, and having broken her heart 4 years ago.

That's a whole different story.