"You awake?" my mother whispers from the door.
I turned to face her and nod with a slight smile. She walked over to my bed almost instantly as if those two simple gestures meant the world more. I knew exactly what she was thinking.
"Ma I'm fine. It's not what you think" I chuckle as she sat next to me on the edge of the bed.
"Why are you still in bed then, are you sure you don't want to see the-"
"I just woke up, and I was just thinking-I wasn't paying attention"
She grasped my face and made me look her in the eye. Though this couldn't be medically proven, whenever something is up with me she does this. And in a matter of seconds she can tell, I still have yet to figure out how or what it is she sees when she does.
"Hmm" she says as her sign of approval.
"What were you thinking about?" she asks standing up and dragging her slipper covered feet back to the door. Her long curly hair swaying as she did.
I couldn't possibly tell her what I was thinking about. My mother would kill me. She'd already given me a two day lecture after Jase let the incident from a couple weeks ago slip up.
She bought home a pregnancy test and a drug test. To make sure I wasn't carrying his kid or doing his drugs. I guess I can't blame her, most parents around here know if their kids name is ever in the same sentence as Billy Darley's that something's wrong. But after I explained that he's just someone I know and see around she backed off. A little. She still questions the hell out of me at every turn. And I felt kind of bad for lying again.
I wish I could tell someone what I was thinking though. Tia would only tell Joe who would tell Billy who would then know exactly what I was thinking of him and when. Which was a hell of a lot more than I care to admit to anyone.
"Nothing in particular, I've been off the medication for almost a year" I shrug.
She turns around and a genuine smile crosses the tired woman's face.
"Has it been that long already?" she asks.
I nod, "In a few days, yea"
Her smile grows and I can't lie, I feel like a million big ones.
"I'm proud of you, nena"
I smiled back and replied, "Thanks"
With that she continued out of the room, telling me to come eat breakfast.
After we all ate I got dressed for the day and headed out. I told my mother I was running a few errands with Tia which was true. But I however didn't tell her after Tia was dropping me off to meet my new friend.
It's been about a month since the diner. And since then Billy and I have been keeping in touch. Through Tia of course we arrange days and times to hang out. Which mostly consist of him picking me up from work and picking up food. Some weekends I'd hung out at the bar with him for a few hours. Somewhere in that time the tremendous fear I felt melted away. He made it quite easy actually; plus I never pissed him off too bad.
However I'm not sure though how to label this. I'm not sure if I want to. Even though he's said he has this profound interest in me it doesn't change the fact that he's Billy Darley. I've heard all kinds of rumors, especially those pertaining to his behavior toward the opposite sex.
Even as I wander through the front doors of his favorite place to hang out decked out in the best of my most comfortable garb; dark washed jeans and a form fitting t-shirt, I can't help but fall victim to my doubts.
"Ahh! The princess of the muts has arrived!" Bodie exclaimed as I joined them all in the back. It was more or less normal, I wasn't nearly as timid or intimidated by them as I was the first night I came here.
I roll my eyes and politely say hello to everyone as I always did. It wasn't unnoticed, Bodies distaste for me being around. Simply because he has a bit of a crush on me. Which I find odd, I can't get a cute guy on the bus to notice me. But let me hang around a group of criminals to get some damned acknowledgement.
I sat down in the seat beside Billy's, only Baggy and Tommy were here with Bodie. Which meant everyone else was working, something I will never know anything about. Something I don't want to know about.
"Where's Billy?" I ask
"On his way, you want a drink?" he asks drinking a beer.
I shake my head no, it was the middle of the day, bad idea.
"I have to work later"
"You can hold your liquor can't you?"
"I can, doesn't mean I have to drink every chance I get" those days are over.
"Mmmh" he nods staring at me as he continued to drink. I rolled my eyes and looked elsewhere.
5 minutes later Billy strolled inside. He didn't look happy-well then again he never does so I'll say he just looked pissed. More pissed than I've had the pleasure of coming across.
He didn't even sit down at first he walked over to Tommy, snatched his shot and took it back quickly.
"You alright dog?" Bodie asked as Billy wiped his mouth with the back of his hand and plopped down in his chair with a hard sigh.
He didn't respond to Bodie but looked back at the bartender and with a nod requested a bottle of Jack Daniels.
I watched with a raised brow as he went through his coat, probably looking for a cigarette.
"You got a cigarette?" he asks nodding to me.
I shook my head no and furrowed my brows.
"When have you ever seen me smoke?" I reply.
I was almost certain I could get away with talking to him in ways he didn't let many people. Until today. All of the getting away I was going to get surpassed this moment. The look he gave me, staring dead in my eyes and sneering was one I've never gotten.
"Don't get smart" he grouses as Bodie passes him a cigarette and lighter.
I stared confused at him and opened my mouth to ask what his problem was when the barmaid walked over. She was too pretty honestly to work here, but I guess she liked it. You could tell she did from the way she switched her hips and flipped her hair. Smiling at everyone like she was in love with them. Especially Billy.
She spread out shot glasses for everyone and I pushed mine back.
Her eyes flickered to me and I could clearly see this look of disapproval.
Oh but of course she would, I don't belong here anyway. No I mean I really don't. This is no good for me.
As she walked away, making sure to poke her ass out farther than needed I notice Billy's eyes float right with it. He looked back at Bodie and they exchanged a look, a smile. Some kind of code I knew meant one thing.
My insides were boiling by now, I was angry and mostly hurt. But I wouldn't dare let him see it, or at least I was gonna try hard as shit not to.
He caught me staring at him and asked, "What?" gruffly as he poured his shot and passed the bottle on.
I grinned and shook my head, "Nothing, s'just...she has a nice ass" I shrug. Those close enough to hear me, Bodie and Heco tried to cover their laughs but failed. I held Billy's eyes for a moment ignoring the irritated glare before I turned back to the wall across the way that interested me so. Folding my arms across my chest which was the age old way of telling whether or not a girl was pissed off.
I'm not though, as far as Billy will ever know considering the fact that this is the last time we'll be "hanging out"; this evening is just wonderful for me.
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Everyone was taking shots, having a good ole time but me. I was as per usual in my head. Billy seemed to get in a progressively better mood. Although it was directed to everyone but me. Which was one of the main arguments I was currently having in my head. What did I even do?
When my brain was becoming too much to handle and I was getting sick of hearing about their mouths I stood up. Since I was again caught in a corner next to the wall I looked over at Bodie and asked if he'd move.
"Don't" Billy says before Bodie can do anything. "Where you goin'?" he asks
When I realized Bodie wouldn't move I pushed the chair back and got on my hands and knees. Crawling beneath the table until I came out on the other side. I wiped my jeans and pulled hair from my mouth as I stood up.
"The bar" I answer digging in my pocket for a hair tie. To think I actually did my hair for that turd. As I pulled my hair in a bun I walked over to the bar where my friend Sammy was wiping down the table.
Politely smiling at him I say.
"Hola"
He smiles back saying the same.
"How are you?" he asks in Spanish as always when I talk to him.
"Okay, kind of...I don't know" I shrug
He glances at Billy who is looking at us.
"Don't let him get you down pretty girl"
I smiled at him and nodded, "I'll try"
I stayed up front for another half hour maybe drinking free sodas back and forth. Every once in a while I'd look over at Billy. Sometimes he'd be looking back and most of the time he was chatting it up with the barmaid who Sammy, would complain about all the time.
"Lazy cow" he grunted in English making me burst out laughing.
He smiled at me and shook his head, "You want a job?"
I shook my head no, "I don't need to work near alcohol, I'd be dead in two weeks" I joked. But I could see it in his eyes, he knew there was some truth to that statement. He nodded and looked at the girl, exclaiming for her to come over.
When she walked over, again Billy's eyes followed her ass. It was inevitable that he'd meet eyes with mine. As Sammy and his employee argued over her leaving early I notice Billy strolling toward us.
I turned my head to the opposite side only to have him come stand directly in front of me.
He eyed me for a while before he asked.
"You ready?" I nodded and hopped down from the barstool eagerly.
"See you Sammy!" exclaim from the door. I vaguely noticed the girl following behind Billy as we left.
"Bye, and remember lazy cows never prosper!" again I laughed harder than I probably should have making Billy and his date stare at me confused.
I however paid them no mind as I walked out being polite as ever. Holding the door for them and smiling as they walked out.
Billy ignored it all and whispered something in the girls ear before he unlocked his car which was right in front.
I snorted and followed. "Reese you sit up front" he says making the girl frown. I patted her back and shook my head.
"I'll get in back, it's cool"
She smiled at me as if I was intentionally doing her a solid. I was how honestly trying to sate my anger.
Before Billy could argue and before I could see that look on his face I pushed the passenger seat forward and crawled in back.
That however didn't change a thing. What I didn't take into account was the rearview mirror. I caught him several times eyeing me through it.
"What did Sammy say?" he asks at the first light.
I glanced at him and sighed before I looked back out the window.
"Nothing"
He didn't have a chance to say anything else before barmaid Barbie interjected.
"I wish I knew Spanish, are you a Mexican?"
Normally I would have had a smart comeback but I didn't even feel like trying. I shake my head no, not caring if she saw me or not. Not paying the least bit of attention to her asking what I was after that.
"She's Cuban" Billy grouses.
Again he looked at me through the mirror but I completely disregarded it. We stopped in front of some unfamiliar house and I looked up front to see Barmaid staring confused at Billy. We both were, I was certain he was taking her to his place.
"Bye Hannah" he says staring at the street. She looked back at me and rolled her eyes before she made a dramatic departing from the car. I eyed Billy for a moment until he looked back at me.
"Come up here"
I didn't argue and crawled up to the front and ignored his stare.
"You wanna go get some foo-"
"No." I cut him off "Just drop me off" Oddly enough he didn't say a thing and simply took off in the direction of my house, even if it did take five minutes longer than usual to get back to my apartment. I'm not sure when this all happened but Billy was suddenly the most legal driver behind the wheel. He was following every driving regulation in the book.
When we were outside the building he didn't unlock the doors so I stayed still, silently waiting for him to do so.
"What's wrong wit'you?" he asks gruffly.
I shake my head instantly knowing he knew I was lying.
"Don't say nothin' y'mad at me...again"
"Even if I was it wouldn't matt-" I sighed and pulled in the door handle.
"Would you let me out I'm tired"
"No, I won't until you tell me what's wrong"
I rolll my eyes.
"If you don't know then I really should just go"
"I know, but I want you to tell me"
I sat there in silence, refusing to speak a word. I wouldn't dare give in first.
"I think you got jealous"
My head snapped to his and I instantly denied.
"I definitely didn't, I could care less who's ass you stare at" I spot back vehemently, not doing much of a good job at showing how not jealous I was.
He chuckled and brushed his fingers through the hair on his chin.
"You could care less but you noticed"
"Fuck yo-" I started to yell at him fuck you, I don't care what you do! But obviously I didn't get even close to it. He was staring at me with this look, this hungry look and I wished badly to know what he was thinking. Anyway I didn't have time to speak like I said because next thing I know a pair of soft lips are pressed against mine.
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