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Sorry for the huge delay. I'm taking an online course right now and trying to balance everything else out. There will be two chapters in this update and hopefully more to follow soon! Enjoy!

Jay lay on the gurney, staring up at the ceiling, wondering why no one was coming for him. The hospital gown was drafty and the blanket he was given was making him itch. He sat up, trying to peer out the door to see where the good looking nurse had gone.

Emma's face appeared in the doorway. She looked stressed out, but beautiful, and Jay suddenly realized that his heart was racing. He offered her a small smile and asked, "Am I dead or something? Because I've been here forever, waiting. If I died on that table, just tell me now so I can stop expecting them to come take me into surgery."

Emma's face remained stony as she approached his bed, taking a seat beside him. "That's not funny."

He lay back down, turning his head in Emma's direction. "Not like you'd care, right?"

She squinted her eyes, staring him down. "You really think I could ever not care if something happened to you?"

She meant it as a rhetorical question, so Jay left it unanswered. He swallowed, his throat suddenly feeling very dry. "Can you get me a glass of water?"

Emma shook her head. "No fluids before surgery, but nice try. You use that look on all of those nurses too? Must be fawning all over you."

Jay smirked. He shrugged nonchalantly. "It's a gift. How's the little man?"

Tears popped into Emma's eyes at the mere mention of her son. His small body looked even smaller in that big hospital bed. She had remained strong for him, but now, here in front of Jay, Emma hung her head and let her worries pour out. She sobbed openly, while Jay held her hand, wishing he could get up out of this bed to hold her in his arms.

She finally looked up at Jay, eyes flooded with tears, cheeks stained from those already shed, and asked, "What if something happens to him? What if this doesn't work? I don't know what I'd do if I lost him. He's everything to me."

Jay swallowed back his own tears. He'd been having the same thoughts. Jay worried that his bone marrow wouldn't work on Jase, that even after the transfusion, Jase would continue to be sick and there wouldn't be anything anyone could do for him. But Jay also worried about the procedure working. He hated to admit it, but if everything went well, if Jase went into remission, he would leave and Jay wouldn't get to be in his life. Selfishly, Jay wished that Jase and Emma could stay in Toronto longer. He wanted, he need more time with both of them.

Jase and Emma had only been here for a week, but Jay had spent every day with them. They went for walks, played in parks, visited Jay's garage (Jase had an uncanny interest in cars), and just hung out. Jay was addicted to spending time getting to know his son, and Jase had taken an immediate liking to his father. But the fact that Jay was never able to reveal himself, made him feel cheated. He needed more time, time to convince Emma that he could and should be a regular part of Jase's life.

"I want to thank you," Emma suddenly said, interrupting Jay's private thoughts. "You didn't have to..."

Jay held up a hand, blocking the rest of Emma's words. "He's my son, Em. You honestly thought I'd say no? I guess you really don't think very much of me, do you?"

Emma shook her head. "I think the world of you, Jayson Hogart! Don't you ever think any different. It's just that I've been horrible to you. I've lied and made you out to be some kind of uncaring guy, when the truth is that you're a stand up man."

Jay stared at her, his mouth gaping. Emma Nelson thinks the world of Jay Hogart? He was speechless!

"Oh don't look so surprised! The last time we saw each other, you knew that I was heartbroken. I wouldn't have felt that way if I didn't care about you," she admitted with a smile.

"Heartbroken? I broke your heart?" he asked innocently.

Emma nodded her head slowly. "I was in love with you, Jay. I didn't think it would happen, not after Sean, but it sort of snuck up on me."

"I'm...I was...in love with you too," Jay confessed, taking Emma's hand in his.

The two sat there, holding hands, staring at each other. Emma looked down and saw her engagement ring, reminding her that Jimmy was still a factor, and a pretty big one at that. She had managed to put Jimmy off from coming, given that he was still out of the country on business. The last thing she needed was...

"Emma?"

Emma swung her head around and came face to face with Jimmy Brooks, who sat there, staring at his fiancee, holding hands with Jay Hogart.

Hope you're interested to see how Jimmy reacts to the news...