A.N. I am so sorry it has taken a while for an update, between life, work and very stubborn vampires not wanting to talk much I have had a hard time getting updates worked on. Good news is at least the vampires and wolves are talking again. I am also close to an new chapter for Sesquicentennial and It's Raining It's Pouring.

This is part one of Edwards Fear, part two hopefully will be coming soon.

We all head back into the living room and settle down.

"Edward is my first born," Carlisle starts. "Do you wish to go next or pass?" He asks me.

I look at him and mentally say: 'I just don't want to hurt her.'

'Who?' He asks.

'Mother, I don't want to hurt Mother.' I respond.

She must have heard me because I hear her call me.

"Edward, baby the past is the past. I know you, I love you and you were forgiven so many years ago."

I walk over to hug her and say "Thank you Mother," before I kiss her cheek.

I walk over to where Angela is sitting, and sit on the ottoman in front of her before I begin. Taking an unneeded breath I feel Jasper sending calming waves my way.

"Thanks Jazz." I say.

"I was born in 1901 to Edward and Elizabeth Mason Sr. My biological dad was prominent attorney in Chicago and was able to dout on my Mother since they began their courtship. They had been married a few years when she became pregnant with me.

When I was born I became their world, or so they lead me to believe. Don't get me wrong, I was my Mother's world, she much like our Mother Esme made sure I knew how much I was wanted and loved. But also like Esme you didn't want to get on her wrong side. My Dad Edward Sr. made sure we both had everything we could have ever wanted or asked for from a nice house, private school, finest cloths to a grand piano."

"The one you play?' Angela asks.

"Yes, that was my Mother Elizabeth's. She used it to teach kids and eventually me."

"I'm sorry if I said something to upset you Edward, I just want to say that piano is beautiful. If I any ask, what kind is it? I mean I know it's a full grand, what I mean is what company." Angela says.

"A Steinway and Son," I answer, "and you said nothing wrong so no need to apologize."

"Thank you Edward, and WOW, our church has a baby grand by Steinway and Son. They are my favorite sounding pianos."

"Do you play Angela?"

"No, not that good. I have played around on it a little but no formal lessons. People think because my Dad the Pastor of our church we have money. But sometimes…well truthfully sometimes it's hard for my parents. They know I how much I would love lessons, but I personally think it would take away from my brothers so I always come up with a reason not to accept their offer." She explains.

"Well how about I teach you, I would love to hear you play at your church one day."

"Really? Thank you, but only if you promise to tell me if it becomes too much or I am really not that good at it."

"I promise, but I am sure you will do great, plus you can come over anytime you want to practice here."

"Thank you again Edward, this means a lot to me."

"You're very welcome Angela, truly my pleasure. Now where was I...Edward Sr. made sure mom had everything she could have wanted, a large house, the finest cloths, even her dream piano.

After a few years of trying, Mothers final dream came true and she gave birth to her first and what would be her only child. I was born September 1, 1901. Now Edward Sr. began again showering her with gifts, and making sure his son and name sake was given the best in life. I had private school, fancy cloths, any and everything except what I really desired…a Father. He was always at work or traveling for work. My Mother was everything to me, my parents, teacher and guardian. We had a unique bonding and relationship, as I grew older I became her confident also. She would talk to me about almost everything, including how lonely she was when he was gone on a work trip."

I take another unneeded breath then continue,

"In September 1918, my Dad had just came home from a trip and was not feeling well, the next day he started running a fever. Mother and I took him to the hospital. While I had to continue school, Mother stayed at his side as much as possible. I would go after school and sit with him so she could get a break and rest."

I stop and take a deep breath as I know the next part for me is going to be hard to talk about. I glance over to Jazz who nodes before sending me a small calming wave, Father feels it also and walks over to us, noticing my eyes are glistening with venom tears he whispers,

"Son, I can take over if you want, I will tell this part for you. Also, Jasper thank you son for helping your brother."

Jasper nodes to Father and reigns back the feels a bit.

'If you don't mind Father, thank you.' I say mentally.

'Not at all, just let me know if you wish to take over this part.'

.

"I'm going to tell this part for Edward, and if any of my other children with help with any part of your story I will help you too.

I met the Mason family the morning after Edward Sr. was admitted. I was just starting a long stretch on to help relieve my fellow Dr.'s who were now fighting this epidemic. As soon as I introduced myself I knew Edward Sr. was much worse than they thought, also that Elizabeth had already contracted it…"

Edward looks sadly at me now.

"Yes son, I'm sorry to say she even knew she had it. She didn't want to let you know because she knew it would only upset and worry you more.

I also could tell Edward was also fighting it. Sadly approximately forty-five hours after meeting them I had to unfortunate displeasure of pronouncing Edward Sr. and informing Elizabeth. I also had to beg her to allow me to admit her for treatment, she promised me she would allow it after she buried her husband and if she could fine somewhere for Edward to stay. I knew she was looking for any excuse not to come back so I promised her I was going to admit both of them after the funeral so Edward would be near her at all times.

Three days later Elizabeth and Edward came back and were admitted under me. Much as before the Mother Hen kicked in and she started taking care of Edward and not herself. Every time I came to check on them I found Elizabeth tending to Edward. I even had to chastise her a few times for being out of bed and not listening to me. I went to check on them one night, Edward was sleeping and Elizabeth asked to talk to me. She told me she knew the end was getting closed and asked me to save her son anyway I could. She even said 'I know you be the Father Edward desired the one he needs. Please take him as your own when I am gone."

As I am telling this part I hear a soft cry, when I turn towards the direction I see what I never have dreamed I would see, Rosalie comforting Edward. I think about stopping when I hear Esme tell me to continue. I look over to Edward being held by his sister, knowing what part I'm at.

"It's okay Edward, we're here, I'm here. I may not always get along or agree with you but I'm always here for you." Rosalie whispers to him.

After another small gasp I decide I need to finish my part so Edward can finish his.

"I try to tell Elizabeth I can save them both, they can still be together, but she refuses my offer. 'Thank you Dr. Cullen, but I'm meant to be with my husband, his birth father. Please just save my baby any way you can and please take care of him for me. Also please do me one last thing, always reassure him how much I love him.' As I agree she then said, 'God Bless you Dr. Cullen, Carlisle you are more than my Dr. your my friend.' These would be her final words as Elizabeth then closed her eyes forever.

It was then I truly knew what I had to do, I had to change Edward and raise him in this life as my own. I had to keep my promise to my new friend Elizabeth.

Frist I had to tell Edward about his Mother's passing. Edward was growing weaker by the hour, that evening I had him moved to a private room, I told the nurses I had to tell him about his Mother's passing and I knew he would have an extremely hard time with the news. That they were extremely close to each other so I wanted time alone with him to help him deal with the information.

It took several hours and a mild sedative to calm Edward down, only to have him begin to get hysterical again, wondering what will happen to him now that they were both gone. I decided to pick him up; cradling him like a child while I re-assured him everything would be okay. His Mother and I had spoken about who would care for him had they both passed. I began humming to him softly to help calm him down.

During the night I notice him having a harder time breathing; I realize time was running out for him so I decide to give him another injection to sedate him a bit more. I laid him on the bed, looked up to the Heaven's asking God to forgive me for what I was about to do.

I then whisper in Edward's ear, 'Please forgive me and know I will always be here for you Son, I promise I will always be here for you.'

Then I bent down biting his neck and beginning his change."

Now I take a moment, and as I am about to continue I hear Edward,

"Father, I can take over now, I just want to get something from my room first."

"Okay Son"

"Why don't we take a moment while Edward runs upstairs, Angela you can have a moment to herself if you would like and get a drink?"

As Angela heads to the bathroom, Edward heads to his room coming back with a letter, now we wait for Angela to return…