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Chapter Fourteen
CALLIE'S POV
Arizona has disappeared. She's left the space we have just been sharing and she's disappeared. Sure, she hasn't gone far but I don't like the silence she has just put between us. I don't like the idea of her hating me for what has happened. I didn't cause any of this, though. I didn't ask for the outcome to be the death of Jaida. My father also didn't take it into his own hands. Yes, he may have suggested that she needed to be kept away from my wife, but the guys he knows take things how they see them and that was the end of the conversation. I'd like to say I'm angry about what they did to my ex, but I can't. I can't because it means Arizona is safe and that is my priority. She is my priority. I just don't want this to come between us. I don't want it to create a space so big that she leaves and I have to finish my tour alone. I'm not sure I could cope with that. I'm not sure I would be able to do it. I meant what I said when I told her I was ready for a family with her but something tells me that isn't going to happen any time in the near future. Something tells me that she is going to come out from beneath the covers she is currently under and tell me she wants a divorce.
I just wanted her to be safe. I just wanted her to feel secure and protected. Seems its gone the opposite way and she is probably fearful of even being in this room with me right now. If I could change any of what's happened, I would. The problem is, I can't. I can't and I need her to talk this out with me. I need her to scream and shout and tell me how she feels so we can move forward. I need all of that so I can fix this and make us good again. My wife knows I love her but I'm not sure how she is going to react once she's allowed this information to sink in. I very much doubt she is going to be thanking me, I know that much. Fuck, this is a mess.
Slowly moving through our suite, I glance over at the super king size bed my wife is currently hiding in and I feel like I need to break the silence. I feel like I need to see her face. Look into her eyes. Anything to show me that we are going to be okay. Anything that tells me she doesn't hate me. Maybe I should just ask her. Maybe I should just come right out with the question and hope she doesn't give me the answer I'm suspecting she will. Clearing my throat and dropping to my knees beside the bed, I pull back the crisp white sheet and find my wife with her back to me. "Arizona…"
"Not right now, Callie." She buries her face deeper into the pillow. "Just…give me some time alone."
"I really don't want to do that." My voice soft, I desperately want to see those gorgeous eyes. "Please, talk to me?"
"I have nothing to say to you." She sighs. "Take a walk or something."
"You want me to leave?" I ask, my heart sinking into my stomach. "Y-You really want that?"
"Yes." She agrees. "Or I can…it's up to you."
"Until when?" I furrow my brow as she turns and fixes her eyes on my own. "I don't want to leave you…"
"I just need to think, Callie." She sits up on her elbows. "I mean, none of this is okay." She scoffs. "And I can't believe you think it is, or it should be."
"There's nothing I can do to change it, Arizona." I run my fingers through my hair. "I can't change what happened but you are safe and that is all I care about right now."
"Did you ask them to do it?" My wife studies my face. "Did you ask them to end her life?"
"No." I hold up my hands. "And I can't believe you would even ask me that." Disappointed by my wife's accusations, I drop my head to my hands and try to control my emotions. I know she is just a little freaked out but it still hurts that she would even think that about me. "You really think I would do something like that?"
"No, I'm sorry." She sighs. "Just…I don't even know what to do with any of this, Callie."
"You aren't supposed to do anything with it," I reply. "This is why I never wanted you to know. It was hard enough for me to deal with."
"You should've told me."
"I'm sorry," I say with complete honesty. "I just figured the less you knew, the better."
"Maybe, but I'm your wife." She sits up and faces me better. "We're supposed to be honest with each other."
"I know and I'm sorry." I climb to my feet and settle on the edge of the bed. "Don't leave, please?"
"I just need to process all of this." I fully understand that, but I need her to process here…with me. If she leaves this room, her mind with go into overdrive and it will only make things worse. I know how she does things and I know that is exactly what will happen.
"I didn't want her death to be the outcome, you have to know that."
"Promise me, Calliope." She takes my hands in her own. "Promise me that you had no part in this. Not even discussing it."
"I promise," I say with nothing but total certainty. "I received a call around six months ago. From one of my dad's contacts."
"And?"
"He said our problem had gone away." I clear my throat. "Then he hung up."
"That's it?" She scoffs. "Like, it's just a natural thing to happen?"
"I hate it as much as you, Arizona."
"I just…I don't know how I feel about it." She breathes out. "Yes, I'm happy that she can't hurt either of us anymore, but I still don't like this. Not at all."
"And I understand that." I give her a sad smile. "Your safety is all I care about, though. I know it was harsh and not how things should be done, but I couldn't settle knowing she was out there. When I received that call, in a way, I was happy." She might not like my honesty right now but she should know. She should know that I spent most of my nights lying awake for fear of Jaida coming back.
"You never said…"
"Because you didn't need to know how worried I was." I press a kiss to her knuckles. "What good would it have done?" I ask. "You had your own fears, you didn't need mine added to the mix."
"I appreciate that." She squeezes my hand and her features soften. "I love you."
"Thank god." I breathe out. "I was expecting you to leave."
"Leave you?" Arizona furrows her brow. "Why?"
"I wasn't sure you could stay here knowing what you know." I shrug. "Thank you for not running…"
"Oh, we're way past running, Calliope." She shifts a little closer to me. "But please, no more of your dad's friends getting involved in our problems."
"They're not his friends." I snort. "He just has connections. My father isn't that kind of man, Arizona. I promise."
"I am fond of your dad, Callie." She gives me a genuine smile. "But I don't know him as well as I probably should."
"I know." I drop down against the mattress, my body relaxing into it. "I'm sorry, okay?" Glancing her way, my wife comes to lie beside me and gives me a nod. "I am, Arizona."
"I know." Turning on her side, her arm falls over my stomach and her head rests on my chest. "Just…maybe we shouldn't talk about it again. It happened and it's gone. I don't want to go into any more detail. I know now, and that is where it ends."
"Sounds good enough to me." I sigh, my hand settling on her own. "You are the only thing I care about. Nobody else matters."
"All kinda makes sense now." Arizona sits up on her elbow and studies my face. "How you were perfectly okay with leaving for your tour."
"I knew you would be joining me," I reply.
"Still, it wasn't immediately."
"No, it wasn't." I agree. "But yeah, knowing she was gone made it a lot easier for me to leave our home without you."
"Thank you." My wife's voice breaks. "For protecting me." I know she doesn't like any of this but her thanks mean the world to me. She knows I'll always have her back, but we don't often talk about what happened a year ago today. It's often left unspoken but that's okay. It's the past and it's exactly where it should stay. "I've always felt protected with you, Calliope."
"And you always will." I pull her in closer and suddenly find my wife on top of me. "Nobody in this world comes close to you…"
"Shut up and kiss me." She whispers against my mouth. "Now." Leaning up, I capture her lips and she moans into my mouth. My hands roaming up and under her shirt, my nails graze the soft skin of her back and Arizona shudders against me. "Your hands still feel as good as they did when I met you…" Her hips grinding against my own, I smile against her mouth and she pulls back, her eyes finding mine.
"Your body still drives me crazy…"
"Yeah?" She trails soft kisses along my jawline before reaching my ear. "You know what drives me crazy?" Her voice low, arousal pools between my legs. "When you moan for me…"
"Mm, now that I can definitely do." Suddenly flipping us, I find myself straddling Arizona's legs, my hands removing her shirt from her body. "All day long for you…"
"You're too kind." Lifting my own tee over my head, I throw it to the floor and her hands find my stomach. "Gorgeous." Sitting up and wrapping her arms around my waist, her tongue trails my skin as she makes quick work of the removal of my bra. "Everything about you." Taking my nipple between her teeth, she sucks it into her mouth and my fingers tangle in her gorgeous blonde hair.
"Oh god." I throw my head back. "That feels so good."
"Mm, I know." Biting down a little, she knows exactly what I like. My wife knows exactly what I need and nobody has ever given me as good as she gives me. "You need more, though…" She states. "So much more."
"This is supposed to be about you." I cup her face with my hands. "And I need you naked." Climbing off of Arizona, I tug her jeans down her thighs and her soft blue panties are the only thing covering her body. "These are not needed." Slipping them from her body, her legs fall open either side of my body and she tugs at the denim covering my legs.
"Get them off, Callie." Her voice stern, her eyes are darker than before and this totally isn't how I saw our afternoon going. Only moments ago I was worried that she would leave this hotel suite, but here we are…making love and more memories to add to our collection. Now completely naked, I settle between my wife's legs and she moans as our centers connect. "Mm, yes." She moans as her head buries deeper into the mattress beneath her. "Callie…" She moans.
"What do you need, beautiful?"
"Y-You." She gasps as I move further down her body, my mouth never leaving her incredible skin. My eyes landing on the scar she gained this very day last year, my thumb ghosts over it and unshed tears settle in my eyes.
"I'll always protect you, Arizona." Pressing a kiss to her damaged but bad ass skin, I focus my attention back on what my wife needs and trail my tongue down her inner thigh. "Do you have any idea how much I want to taste you right now?" Smiling against her, a low moan rumbles in her throat, pure music to my ears. "You're soaked and it's all mine…"
"Do it." She grips my hand as it trails up her stomach. "I need you, Calliope."
Taking a slow but firm lick up the length of her soaked sex, my wife laces our finger together and grips the sheet beneath her with the other. "Mm, so good." Pulling back, I glance up to find Arizona's eyes closed, her mouth hanging open. "Better than anything…" Teasing her entrance, her legs open wider and I know she needs more of me. I know she needs me right now. Two fingers slowly but surely slipping inside of her, a gasp falls from her mouth and I push a little deeper.
"Oh god." Her hand tightening around my own, her breath catches and her walls clench my fingers that little bit harder. "C-Callie."
"You're so beautiful." Taking her throbbing clit between my lips, my tongue rolls over the swollen bud and she suddenly grips the back of my head, her hips rocking against me.
"F-Fuck." Shuddering as she falls closer to the edge, I curl my fingers and take her just how I know she loves to be taken. "Shit, yes." Her chest heaving, my wife's thighs close and her back arches from the bed. "Oh god, don't stop." Riding out her orgasm, I can't help but smile against her perfect, dripping sex. "Fuck, t-that wa-" Cutting herself off I slow my pace, her grip on my hair loosens a little and her body relaxes. "Callie…" Her words barely above a whisper, she tugs at my hand and I move back up her body. Her eyes as blue as ever, my heart pounds in my chest.
We may have been together for quite some time but this woman still makes me fall harder in love with her every single day that I wake beside her. Everything about her is incredible and to this day, I don't know how I got this lucky. I don't know how or why she saw me. She did, though. She did and we are so in love that it physically hurts at times. For me, Arizona was it from the moment I met her. That night in the bar when she looked at me, I knew that I would spend my life with her. Nothing else that's happened since then even matters anymore. She is safe and she loves me. What more could I ever want or need in my life? "I love you."
"I love you, too." She gives me one of her adorable smiles and I know we are okay. I completely understand why she had to be alone for a moment earlier, but she knows I wouldn't ever allow anyone to hurt her again. She knows that above all else, she is who matters. "I'm sorry I freaked out a little."
"Don't be." My thumb brushes her bottom lip. "We're okay, and we always will be." Replacing my thumb with my lips, I press them against her own and Arizona smiles against my mouth. "You are so freaking beautiful." I pull back and study her face. "And you know I will spend my life telling you that."
"Calliope…" She smiles, her dimples popping. "How the hell did we get to this point?"
"Meant to be, baby." I breathe out, my own smile curling on my lips. "Meant to be…"
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