I drifted to sleep, not even slightly nervous about what Monday would bring.
When I woke up, I found a note on the empty bed.
"Hey, I went home to get ready, get up and ready I'll drive you to school :) Alice"
And I did just that.
She arrived just in time, like she always does.
When I hopped in the car, her soft face was emotionless, she was getting a vision, she warned me these things might happened. So I waited, until she came back to me.
"Hey" I whispered when her eyes focused on me.
A small frown appeared on her perfect face. And she gave me a look of complete and utter sadness.
"Hi" she said, without leaning for a kiss.
"Is everything okay?" I asked
"Y-Yes" she is lying.
"Alice what did you see?"
"Nothing." she's lying again.
If she didn't want to tell me, it was okay. Who am I kidding no it's not! Yesterday she was promising to share everything and now she is lying to my face.
"Okay" I said coldly.
"Bella, I'm not going to be at school today" she said after a silence.
"Why?"
"I have to...erm"
"Alice you're the worst liar I've ever met just tell me what's wrong?"
"I ...Well...I'll tell you tonight" she said pulling in the school parking.
"No Alice, tell me now please" I pleaded.
"No" she just said.
"Okay" I said getting out of the car without goodbyes.
I thought she'd follow me. She didn't.
I just heard her start the engine and drive away.
What is it that she saw that made her shut me out completely? Am I going to do something wrong? I mean, I'm just realizing one of the downside of being with a psychic. Not only I'm going to wonder what I did wrong, but also what I am going to do wrong.
Since Alice and I got together, I've never been to school without her, and even when we were not together, the fact that she was there somewhere, made me feel better.
Damn it I didn't even kiss her today!
It's okay, I'll handle it. One day without Alice Cullen. One entire day at school without my vampire soul mate. It's fine...It is?
First period: I spent the entire math class, thinking about her, and I think that she is being so unfair pulling away from me, I didn't do anything wrong! And even if I am going to I still didn't!
Second period, I think that maybe I am overreacting, her vision could've been about one of her parents and she wanted to talk to them about it before talking to me, which was her right.
Third period: No, if it was about her parents she could've just said so, like "hey Bella, my vision is about my family it's personal" there it is. Why shut me out completely it must've been about me. It had to be. But she didn't seem angry, she seemed sad. I am going to make her sad aren't I?
Lunch break: Ami overly attached, I mean, it's okay, couples fight all the time. And Alice and I didn't even fight, we merely had a disagreement over something that I don't know. That happens I'm sure.
"Hi Bella"
I jumped.
"Edward, you scared the hell out of me" I said
"I am sorry" he said Chuckling
"You don't look or sound sorry" I said smiling
"Okay, you are right it was too funny. So what trapped your mind?" he asked
Your sister!
"Alice can be quite hard to understand sometimes"
"I thought you couldn't read me!" I said indignantly
"I can't, but I have eyes"
"Yeah"
"So what happened between you and my sister dearest?"
"She... this morning she had a vision, and then she I don't know I felt like she shut me out, and then she said she won't be in school"
"Did she tell you what she saw?"
"No"
"Maybe, she saw that they were going to serve you this awful fish for lunch and couldn't take to see you eat it" he laughed
"It's not funny Ed" but I couldn't help but smile. All the faces in the cafeteria showed disgust at the taste.
"I know, Bella you know that Jasper can feel emotions?"
"Yes"
"He can feel them and understand them, better than those who feel them sometimes. When I first met him, he used to do things I didn't understand straight away, but that made me feel better on the long run"
"You think she's doing this for my own good?"
"You are Alice's mate, that means that from the moment she met you, everything she'll ever do will be for your happiness"
"I want to make her happy too, but I can't if she hides things from me"
"I am sure you want her to be happy too. I am not sure if Alice told you about her past"
"That she doesn't remember it"
"Exactly, she can't know how it feels to be human"
"I can't be that different from being a vampire" I said
"It is Bella on so many levels, but the fact is that sometimes she will underestimate you and others she overestimate you. Sometimes she'll hide things she thinks you can't handle. It is your job to set her straight, I mean, well you know what I mean" He smiled.
"Thank you Edward" I said sincerely grateful
"You are very welcome" she smiled and walked over to the Cullen's table.
I spent the rest of the day praying that Alice will keep her words and come pick me up and tell me the truth. As I exit school I was relieved to see her in her car waiting for me.
"Hello" she said tentatively
I didn't answer her and pulled her into a kiss. A whole day without her mouth! Never again!
"I take it I am forgiven" she smiled
"No, but I didn't do anything wrong I deserved a kiss" I said
Her face turned sad again.
"I am sorry"
"Do you even know what you are sorry for Alice?"
"For not telling you what my vision is about"
"No, Alice you are allowed to have your secrets, even if I hate it, but it is not okay to lie to me and shut me out" I said softly
"I know, I am so sorry"
"Alice I am not breakable"
"You so are"
"No, I might not be as phisically strong as you, but you can talk to me. I can handle truth."
"I -"
"No, Al I proved myself enough, I've handled everything since now" I said as I took her hand in mine.
"You're right"
"So, what are you hiding from me?"
"Us"
"What about us?"
"I saw us being public and then there was all this attention, and you were so tensed. I saw a girl insulting you, I saw people whispering and you seemed so tensed. I just thought if I wasn't there you'll have a normal day, and it'll give me the time to figure out a good excuse that'll keep us from being public"
"You did all this because I was tensed in your vision"
"Well, you were really tensed" she said sheepishly
"Alice I spent the whole day more than tensed"
"Why?"
"Because you weren't here, because I thought I did or will do something wrong"
"I am sorry"
"Stop saying it Alice" I said softly "I guess you'll have to learn how to date a human as much as I have to learn how to date a vampire" I smiled "I will be tensed when we'll come out, one because I hate the attention, two because we are going to expose ourselves and for many other reasons I suppose. But it's worth it, if I'll never spend a whole day without kissing you again then it worth it"
She leaned in and kissed me, in the car, in the middle of the school parking. I heard Emmett laugh and applause from here.
When she pulled away I was breathless, and we were public. I saw a swarm of eyes pointed at us. Coming out checked, but I couldn't care less. Alice trusted me more with the truth and I got my kisses. I know that tomorrow I will face some narrow minded bigots, but it doesn't matter. I am with Alice Cullen the rest of the world could fall apart around me. Thanks to her I'll stand still and unharmed.
"I love you, you know that" she said
"I know I love you too"
"And I'm pretty sure I am going to mess up again, because I'll think I am doing the right thing" she smiled.
"I might mess up too, you know" I said
"It's okay, you are my mate, you can mess up I'll be there anyway" she smiled
"Hey, I'll be there for you too"
"Aren't I a lucky person" she whispered getting close to my lips again.
"Nope, I am the lucky one" I whispered back grabbing her lips between mine.
Here is the first little conflict.
Bella is getting more and more comfortable and even if she worships Alice, and knows she's perfect for her she is able to tell her when she is mistaken.
Let me know what you think.