Forks high...

It's been a few weeks since Alice and I became public, a week during which we've been the it thing, everyone talked about us. Most of it was positive even if we had to deal with some... not so positive stuff. But every time I'd feel a bit overwhelmed by the attention, I'd feel a small cold hand in mine and a gentle squeeze that promised me that everything will be okay. And it was enough.

Lately, I've been trying to get more physical with Alice, to make my kisses deeper and my hands more curious about her body, but she never let it go too far, she always pulled away...always too soon for my liking. I mean I was the human, who never had intimate relationships, but she acted like it. I was getting frustrated, I mean I want her, all of her. No, I need all of her. I was ready, but she wasn't so I didn't pressure her, every time she stop my hands from unclasping her bra, I just accepted her gesture without asking. But it was getting harder to stop the sigh from escaping my lips. To prevent my hands from trying again.

Yesterday, Alice invited me over to the Cullen's house, she said her family would be away and she didn't want to spend the night alone. But all I heard empty house with Alice for a whole week-end . Yes her refusal is driving me crazy.

I got everything ready, myself, my clothes that I wish I won't have to wear. I kissed Charlie before leaving, the fact that he allowed me to spend the week-end with her showed how much he trusted her and me and that made me proud, proud of her, proud of me. Proud of us.

Alice was here to pick me up, I went to hop in the car but she got out.

"Hi, Bells" she said lightly

"Hey Alice?" it came out like a "Why are you getting out of the car Alice?"

"I would like to thank Charlie for letting you stay with me"

"He'll be thrilled to see you"

She laughed, perfect melodic, harmonious laugh.

We got back inside the house, Charlie was still reading his newspaper.

"Hello, Chi-arlie" smiled Alice

"Hello Alice" said Charlie smiling widely at her.

"I wanted to thank you for allowing Bella to stay at my house, I was a bit scared I'd have to spend it alone" she smiled

Scared? Really Alice? Like I could make you feel safe!

Charlie's eyes gave him away, he loved Alice. He truly did.

"It's okay Alice, I trust both of you and if there is even a slight problem you call me, okay?"

"Promise" she flashed him a smile

"Okay, we're leaving now" I said

"Have fun girls"

My beautiful pixie opened the door for me, then settled on the driver seat, leaned in and gave me a quick kiss.

"So you were scared to spend the week-end alone" I teased

"It was not a lie"

"How is that?" I smiled

"If I had to spend the week-end alone that would have meant that you didn't come and whatever reason would keep you away from me sounds scary to me."

"How do you do that?"

"What?"

"Take any random conversation, and turn into something so sweet"

"I must say I am gifted" she laughed.

While she was driving, she put her hand on my thigh. And I put my hand on hers. What's weird is that she is the one who loves when there is a concrete connection between us, so why won't she let it happened.

I mean maybe she didn't want me? Well, I am not going to torture myself longer, or her for that matter. Tonight I'll try again and if the same scheme appears I'll talk to her. One thing I've learned from being with Alice is that talking to her was never a bad idea. She'll listen and she'll be truthful. After all she promised not to lie again and I trust her.

When we arrived at her house, I felt more comfortable because we were alone. Last time I came the whole clan was there and I was feeling like I was passing the most important exam of my life. But right now my whole body was relaxed. I could appreciate the greatness of Esme decoration, the beautiful silence that filled the house.

Alice rested her hands on my waist and her head on my shoulder.

"Ready for this week-end" she whispered close to my ear

"Yes"

We stood there for a few minutes.

"So what do you want to do?" she asked.

"I don't know"

"Well first you can eat what Esmee prepared for you, so we won't have to worry about food" she smiled.

"Yes, we could do that" I smiled

Esmee left me, so much food, I mean I get that they don't get human food, but not that much she let me the equivalent of a month for two days. Worst of it I'm pretty sure everything tasted great. I am so going to gain weight!

"Why do you always watch me eat?" I asked

"Does it bother you?" she asked worriedly

"No, it's just that I would like to understand"

"Unlike the others in my family I have no idea of the taste, I mean the only taste I know is blood, I don't get to chew different flavors, and I don't know I find it fascinating"

"I've never felt that lucky to eat" I smiled "but there are a million of other things you can feel that I can't"

"It's true" she smiled at me.

I ate, and then Alice said we should watch a movie. I thought she'd put on a cute romantic comedy. She did not. A horror movie, not the nice kind , if nice kind existed, no bad kind. I ended up hiding my face in her neck most of the time.

When the movie was over, I was a happy girl.

"Never again Alice"

"What?" she asked innocently

"You know what, that movie was awful"

"It was not, plus you are always safe with me aren't you?"

"Yes, I am"

Safe for the second time that day I was reminded that I could never make Al feel safe the same way she made me feel. It was sad, kind of, it made me feel weak.

"Are you okay?" she asked

She was becoming so good at picking up on my moods that I wondered if I'll ever be able to keep anything from her anymore.

"Yes"

"Bells, we said no more lies" she smiled caressing my cheek

"You are right"

"I tend to do that a lot, look we're gonna lay in bed and you can talk to me okay?"

I nodded.

We laid in our clothes on her bed.

"So what is it?"

"Nothing I was just thinking that...Well, I feel safe with you and I was wondering if you'd ever feel the same thing" I said quickly

"I do now" she smiled

"I make you feel safe" I scoffed

"You do"

"It's okay Alice you don't have to say it"

"I do, Bells I've lived more than 20 years with mated Vampires. I always wondered if I ever meet mine, and even when I got visions of you I still wasn't sure you'd want me, but you being here with me, not scared. Accepting me. Bella you took away the greatest fear of my life, not having you"

My heart pounded like crazy, she could take any of my insecurities and make them vanish with a few words, with a gentle squeeze of my hand. I loved her. I love her.

"I love you" I whispered

"I love you so much Bella Swan"

I leaned in to kiss her but she pulled away.

"My sweet Bella, no kisses until we're dressed for bed"

"Why?"

"Because otherwise we might sleep in these outfits"

Or we might sleep naked! Or better not sleep at all!

I put on my T-shirt very quickly to return to bed, with my sweet Alice who went to change in the bathroom.

When she came back into the room, I gasped. She wore a nightgown that left little room for the imagination. I discovered her pale and thin legs, silk caressing her made-in-heaven body. Sketching the tempting shape of her breasts.

I walked to her and put her into a kiss, deep passionate. Full of a lust I couldn't even imagine before now. My hands traveled on her body with greed. I reached to unclasp her bra above her nightgown but she pulled away.

"Alice" I whispered

"Bells, we shouldn't" she said but didn't fully pull away.

"Alice, you can't wear that and tell me we shouldn't. What are you scared of?"

"Loosing control, hurting you, harming you, killing you" her voice cracked at the last part was spoken.

"You won't"

"How do you know?"

"I trust you, I love you and I am positively sure that you won't hurt me"

I grabbed her lips again. Pulling her on the bed.

"Not like I could've resist anyway" she said against my lips.

Here's today's chapter.

I don't know if I should write next chapter as a continuity of this one, and the week-end or just skip it … Let me know what you think please.

As always I love the reviews they're keeping me going :)