" If my vision is correct she should be in Forks in three weeks. As for her plan I don't know anything all I know is that in my vision she kills me next to the lake where we go camping on sunny days"

"Fine, for the coming week I want you to keep acting normal at school, and we'll train to fight at night" said Carlisle "I will gather as many information as I can about Jane and the Volturi and we'll handle things when the time comes"

All the Cullen's nodded in agreement.

"Okay, for now Alice why don't you take Bella to your room, you have school in only a few hours, let her get some sleep" smiled Esmee.

"Okay" said Alice

She guided me to her room.

"I won't be able to sleep, Alice" I said

"I am sorry" she said

She was looking from the window.

"Alice please stop saying you're sorry. I should be apologizing I yelled at you"

"You had every right to"

"Damn right I had, but still I shouldn't have" I smiled

I walked towards her and hugged her.

"I love you Bella"

"I love you Alice Cullen and we are going to love each other for a very, very long time" I smiled in her hair

We laid on her bed. I wasn't even slightly tired, and I knew I will regret it tomorrow, but still.

Again she leaned on me completely, and I held her.

"Alice, Jane was your first time?" I asked cursing myself for my bluntness

She nodded against my skin "The first that I remember"

"Just so you know, human or not the day I'll see her I'll kill her" I said

"Don't try to fight her Bella, none of them should try" she said bitterly "I won't let you face her anyway"

"Alice, change me, change me now"

"Bella, you are not serious" she said focusing her eyes on mine.

"Yes, Alice I am, I want to fight for you, I want to be able to fight with you"

"No"

"Alice you promised that you would do it when I'll be ready. When I'll be sure I am. I've been since the moment I thought about eternity with you"

"Bella, being a vampire is not just live eternally, it is also loosing a lot of things. You're not ready to say goodbye to Charlie, or Renée, you are not ready to decide whether you want to give birth or not. You are not ready for any of that"

"I am not ready to stay back while everyone else is fighting for your life. I am not ready to stand still while your whole world is shattering to pieces. I am not ready to face a life where all I'll be for you in a time of crisis is a burden" I said a few tears escaping my eyes.

"Hey, everything is fine. Bells you'll never be a burden to me. God you'll never be even close. You are my life, Bella please drop your transformation subject. At least for a few days, please" she pleaded.

It sealed my lips. I can't put her in more pain than she already is. I can't and I won't. But I am not letting it go. I'll be one of them. I'll fight for her. Whether she wants it or not. I'm with Emmett, no way this bitch hurts her. Not again. Not under my watch.

I figured it'll take some time to Alice to become herself again.

Never go to school without a good night of sleep, never.

Or it could be the death threat over my mate's head.

Or it is my sleeping issues. We'll never know.

Alice didn't talk much, this morning, not at the house nor in the car. She's been very quiet.

She just said she'll drive me home, but she wanted to hang out before. I wanted to hang out. Maybe id we get to spend some time alone she'll open up. She'll expose her scars again so I can take care of them. Because right now that's all I wanted to do. Make her feel better.

I shared my English class with Edward, he sat beside me.

"Yesterday was rough" he stated

I only nodded

"I am sorry I didn't tell you earlier, but I couldn't betray Alice's trust. I could never do that"

"I don't blame Edward. I don't blame Alice either"

"Yesterday, it seemed like you did"

"Yesterday I blamed the whole world, today I still do. But I know that Alice isn't going to die"

"How do you know?" he asked raising an eyebrow

"I thought about it, and I know that she won't I feel it"

He nodded.

"You know, when Alice and I were going for these hunts, she always talked about you, I felt like she didn't regret dying at all, what she regrets was not having enough time with you. She wanted everything she had to be given to you. She selected a thing she wanted to leave behind for every member of the family. If I thought my sister was selfless before, she proven herself more than I ever believed"

I smiled that sounds like Alice. That sounds like perfection. That sounds like my mate.

"Tell me She still have hope Edward"

"She does, even when she was at her lowest she had hope. Today she has far more than yesterday. And it is going to get better. My sister is a fighter"

"Yes, I just wish I could fight next to her" I said more to myself.

Edward smiled. It seemed like he knew something.

When I got out of the classroom, I found Emmett waiting for me. Which was definitely odd. But normality seemed to have vanish of my world recently.

"Bella, let me walk you to class" he said

I nodded

"I heard what you said to Alice yesterday'" he stated

"I know"

"Bella, when the time comes if Alice refuses to change you, I will"

I stopped walking abruptly and stared at him like I was seeing him for the first time.

"What?"

"Alice is my only sister, I love her to pieces. But right now she is not in her right mind. And transforming you is difficult for her because all she remembers from her human life is the pain of the transformation. But I know her, and I hope I can say that I'm starting to know you and the truth is you'll be like us, for your sake and for hers."

"Thank you Emmett"

"Don't than me yet, if we do it against Alice's will, she is going to give us hell. She can be very bitchy when she wants" he let out a laugh.

Knowing that Emmett had my back eased the tension in my shoulders. He loved Alice as strongly as I did, differently maybe, but strongly for sure. I'll fight for her that I will.

When the school ended. I found Alice waiting for me. Her face was getting less tired, and the lying pain and resignation were slowly vanishing. It made me happy, at least slightly to see that she was happier, and that Edward was right she was getting hope...

"Hey Alice" I hugged her and kissed her lovingly. I wanted to give myself completely to her

"Hello, my love" she inhaling my hair's scent

"So where are you taking me?" I asked as we took place in the car.

"I didn't actually plan anything I just want to talk to you"

"Anymore bombshell announces?" I asked scared

"No Bells, nothing. Let's go somewhere only we know"

"Did you just quote Keane?"

"Who?"

"Forget it, Al let's go somewhere only we know" I smiled

We arrived at the Clairiére.

"Bells I wanted to apologize for yesterday, I should have told you sooner. I am sorry you had to see me break."

"I refuse to hear you say that"

"What?"

"You said we were meant to be together. So you should never apologize for breaking down in front of me. As for your vision Al I was mad, but I realize that it wasn't easy for you either. And I love you. I forgive you"

"You know Rosalie says Humans don't get love. I think you understand better than I do" she smiled and wrapped her arms around me.

"Alice?"

"Yes, my love"

"You are going to live, you know that right?"

She exhaled

"I hope"

"No, Alice I know it. Please trust me when I say she won't kill you"

"She won't"

"Because you have an army, me included, ready to go fight her even in hell"

"I love you Bella Swan. I am the luckiest person to have you as my mate"

"Same here"

"Alice?"

"Yes" she said huskily

"Make love to me"

"I waited all day for that sentence" she laughed, and here I saw my Alice. Rising from ashes.

Today's chapter.

Next one will be the training.

I think Emmett and Alice share a particular love, strong and different that's why I think he would turn Bella for Alice's sake.

Thank you :)