Liz and Allie heard her before they have stepped into H1. Bea´s voice was not exactly loud but it was really angry and forceful.
- For god sake! I don't get it! – she slammed into the table. – Why are they so stupid?!
Maxine and Boomer were sitting on the sofa barely paying attention to her. They have listened to this for the last fifteen minutes. At first, they have tried to calm her down, but now it was obvious that Bea had to get this out of her system.
- They are just simply unbelievable! How fucked up someone has to be to get rather bashed than to say one fucking name?!
Liz and Allie stopped walking, keeping their distance from the fuming top dog.
- Fucked up, stupid junkies! - this time she kicked into the chair and started pacing. – Fucking had to do it because they don't understand!
- What is going on? – Liz asked she was hoping Bea will calm down if she talks.
- What is going on? Had to bash those two stupid whores! They are driving me crazy! There is no talking to them! – Her red hair was flying as she turned around and kicked once again into the chair. – All they care about is the fucking gear, they don't care if others die or suffer. Fuck it!
- It is not so simple Bea. – Allie said with low shaky voice.
- How in hell not! It is exactly like that! – Bea yelled turning to face the young blonde. - Fucking junkies and their stupid brain!
- We know you are upset hon, you didn´t want to bash them. We get it, but you have to stop before screws come. – Maxine tried to reason with her.
- I actually don't get it! – Allie felt her heart racing and blood boil. She has never seen Bea in a state like this, she never heard her swear so much and never saw her being so furious. – I don't fucking understand! Why are you so angry Bea? It is obvious you hate junkies so much that it should have been a pleasure for you to beat them up! – At this point, Allie raised her voice too. Enough is enough! Watching Bea talking in such a manner about junkies was upsetting. – What the fuck is your problem, Bea?! As you said they are stupid worthless whores, why do you care? Why are you angry? You beat them up and what? – She stepped to the chair and kicked it too. She kept watching the red head and yelled. - Do you feel sorry for yourself? You shouldn't have! – She stepped even closer to the older woman, coming with her almost nose to nose. Piercing her blue eyes into the ones before her. - Just let it go, they got what they have deserved, right? So, fuck them, Bea! – she said this time calmly before walking into her cell and closing the door behind herself.
Everyone was quiet, trying to take in all that happened. They have seen Bea upset few times, furious too and sad, it came with the top dog position. But during those few weeks with them, Allie never showed this side of her. She was happy and smiling most of the time.
Bea raised her eyebrows and her confusion grows even higher when she saw the others staring at her.
- What the hell was that? – she asked with a low voice.
There was no answer just pairs of disapproving eyes looking at her. Liz sat down on the chair, giving her a very angry and annoyed glare.
- Way to go love!
- What? I didn't do anything! It´s not my fault she is so sensitive!
- Of course, she is sensitive! But you are not that is for sure! – Liz continued.
Bea raised her eyebrows and asked while stepping closer to the table.
- What did I do?
- You are as smooth as the most coarse sandpaper Bea! – Boomer joined getting a disapproving look from Maxine who said.
- We are just saying that sometimes you could pick your words more carefully.
Bea was confused and started to get annoyed, "What the hell are they talking about?" She had a bad day already, she was not looking forward any more drama.
- It was little too harsh love. – Liz said. – We get that you are upset, but there is no need to use such a language. It sounded pretty harsh.
- And what? – Bea threw her hands in the air. – It was meant that way! I have enough of stupid junkies, that is what I meant. Why is that so offensive suddenly? It´s not like nobody else swears around here!
- We all do, but you have to understand it comes across harsh. You make her feel bad.
- Who? Allie? – Bea was totally lost by now. – Why would she feel bad?
- Because she was one herself. – Maxine said quietly.
- And a whore too! – Boomer added not so quietly, earning a soft slap on her arm from Maxine.
- You had no idea? – Liz asked.
- No, I had no idea.
- It is not a secret we talked about it.
- You might have, but not with me around. Fuck sake and it is not like she is like them!
- She was love.
Bea rubbed her temples with a sigh. Well, this is day is fucked and not getting any better. Hurting Allie was the last thing on her mind. That bad gear was making women sick, one already died but that won´t stop them from taking it. They will risk it. Why do they have to keep their mouth shut?! Would be easier for everyone if they spill the name or names. That gear must come inside in some way and that route must be cut and destroyed as quickly as possible.
There was a soft knock on the cell door before she heard the door handle click, the door open and then after a few quiet steps, they closed again. Allie was lying on her bed facing the wall. After her outburst in the hall she was pacing in her cell for a few minutes, but then she curled up on the bed and tried to clear the thoughts of the fight out of her head.
She hugged the corner of the cover she was lying on closer and sighed.
- Not now, Maxine, I´m ok. Just need some time to myself. – she said quietly.
But the steps came closer and she heard the toilet lid drop quietly down.
- It´s me. – she heard a husky voice and she couldn't help but flinch. "Great!" freaking Bea Smith sitting on her toilet is the last thing she needed.
- Not now Bea. – she let out a long breath.
- I´m sorry Allie. – The redhead said. – I had no idea and even if I had it was not meant against you.
Allie contemplated for a minute if to talk or just leave it. Maybe getting into a conversation as this, right now, is not the best idea. She was too emotional at the moment, but on the other hand, she felt really bad that Bea sees her that way.
- Junkies are not happy people. They giggle and laugh, they look carefree, but they are not. They are sad, lonely people, they are afraid, scared and weak.
- I know. That is why I´m so upset Allie. I know they have done nothing wrong, that they need help. I want to help them you know that I helped some of them to get clean. But these are just driving me nuts. I didn't want to hurt them. I´m sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it. I just tried to vent my frustration.
Allie felt as a big burden would have been lifted from her chest. She heard in Bea´s voice that she meant what she said and that she is sincere. Deep down she always knew that Bea doesn't like hurting the women. She did it because there wasn't another way, but it bothered the redhead. Allie turned to face her.
- Maybe I could help you. – Bea looked at her questioningly. – You know, like when they hire criminals to catch criminals. They will trust me more and maybe they open up.
Bea shook her head.
- No, that won´t happen, you are not going near them. Do you understand?
- Bea, they won´t hurt me.
- Allie, they are dangerous, unpredictable. It is my problem to solve.
-But I want to help and I know I can.
- No! You are not going to be involved in this.
- You don't trust me.
-This is not about trust. You know by now, that Liz and Doreen don't mix into top dogs business either. Maxine and Booms help, but honestly, I don´t like that. It can be dangerous. I don´t want you girls getting involved.
Bea stood up and walked towards the door still looking at the young blonde.
- Forget about it, do you understand?
Allie nodded. She had no strength left to fight with Bea again. She will think about this plan a little more and maybe ask Maxine for help. Bea smiled at her as she grabbed the door handle and quietly left. Allie watched the door behind Bea disappeared, this topic is not closed yet, but she let the top dog think she won for a little while.
Allie was basking in the sun, literally. She stood next to the table since she arrived five minutes ago and with her head tilted back she bathed in the sunshine. The yard was relatively quiet and peaceful.
Bea was sprawled on the bench listening to the girls gossiping. Conversation Sonia had with Boomer about Tasmanian tiger was something special. Bea had a hard time not bursting out laughing loud few times. Maxine had no such a restraint and obviously, she doesn't have the top dog image she has to maintain so she was giggling loudly.
Suddenly the noise stopped. There was dead quiet. Allie subconsciously sensed that, but she kept her head up and enjoyed the sunshine until she noticed as Bea stood up. Then she felt the older woman brushing against her and step in front of her. Allie felt shivers run down her spine. The redhead stood right in front of her. Allie could feel the heat radiating from her back right into her front. It won´t take long for her nipples to erect and become painfully hard. She licked her lips and hoped that the pounding of her heart is not as loud as it felt.
She inhaled deeply that familiar but precious scent. It would be so amazing to be able to wrap her arms around the older woman now. Pull her close and intertwine their fingers on her stomach while placing her head on the redhead´s back. She softly smiled at the thought but then the awakening came in the form of the still deafeningly quiet which was hovering over the yard.
Allie lifted her dazed eyes. The first thing she saw was Liz sitting just a few feet from her with her eyes focused to the gate. The old woman had a clearly shocked expression. Then she noticed that everyone was looking into that direction, so she turned her head slightly. It was enough. Her eyes fell on Kaz Proctor.
Bea stood tall, she unconsciously flexed her arms, widening her shoulders in an attempt to cover the young blonde behind her as much as she could. Her brown eyes were coldly locked on Proctor who was slowly walking to the door. They must have brought her today during lunch so nobody noticed. She glared at the older woman trying to get her point across. She is the top dog! It looked that Kaz understood it, at least for now. Her arm was still in cast her sweatshirt not hiding it. She went to the H3 table where her girls immediately made a circle around her and gave her quiet welcome hugs.
Bea turned to face her and Allie´s breath hitched. The soft brown eyes were almost black now and clouded with determination.
- She won´t touch you, I promise.
Allie felt dizzy and it was not because of Kaz. The look in the top dog's eyes made her melt. She wanted to wrap the older woman in a hug but that would be crazy. They never hugged, never touched, except for that one time when Bea touched her arm after she told her to go and check on Maxine. Squeezing her in a tight embrace here on the yard would be a big mistake
- Make sure you are never alone just in case. The girls will watch you and I will watch her. – Bea said and sat back down as Allie nodded. She looked at Kaz, she looked weak and drained with pain. Allie was not scared of her. Maybe she is naïve, but she doesn't think that Kaz would actually kill her. Hurt maybe, but not kill, plus Bea will keep her safe. She smiled at the thought. Looks like the top dog accepted her fully into her crew.