I was far too tired for school. I mean it never was a good idea to stay up that long but…when it's because of Gakupo there are no regrets…well there is one. I regret getting up so early just for school.

Ahh, I wanna ditch so badly. But I really don't want to miss break with Miku. I worried her enough. So I got to the roof where she awaited me as usual. Just this time we first hugged for a moment or two. She always does this after days like yesterday. I am thankful for that.

„Sooooo, ready for some high quality picture." She grinned. „More than ready." I answered and she gave me her phone. While eating she showed me as much as she possibly could. Every picture had its story and I had to know all of them. Pretty challenging while eating lunch but somehow we made it through all of them.

Break left me with enough to think about to keep me somewhat awake. Luka looked really cute next to Miku. Meiko was pretty tall. I always thought Gumi would be taller….and Gakupo was properly even taller than me…and so much more handsome than the fucking webcam can reflect. Low-quality-bitch!

Well now we are at PupleSamurai again. Yesterday I was pretty close to spill just everything to him. I was that frustrated. I kinda want to tell him. I trust him but…at the same time I don't want anybody to know…which sounds kind of like I don't trust him at all. But hey, the trust thing is hard, okay?

I sighed. He never told anyone about my breakdown though. We were the only ones left after some matches, which was nothing special. But I got a massage from my mum that she will try again and I should hang on a bit longer. It kind of…threw me of…and it was so late. I just…broke down and cried like crazy. It was so embarrassing but Gakupo never hung up and waited the whole time. He even started singing for me which just made it worse…but eventually I stopped. All I could do was apologizing a thousand times for my behavior. He never complained. He just…was worried and so gentle.

The following day was so…scary but no one knew. Not even Miku. Everything was like always….and PupleSamurai never asked about it again.

Yesterday I had cried before I went online. I had hoped no one was there anymore…but like always he was there and caught me before I could make up my mind what to do next. I am glad I went online…and that I answered him…and that I agreed to the voice chat. I just wished my life was more normal…

Things go crazy at an awfully slow pace. That's how it always was. It was not unusual that Kaito stayed offline for a day. All of us have a real life and sometimes we just need to study or finish an assignment or a project. Online gaming is fun but not first priority…most likely second. Sleep is for the weak!

Still it was obvious that Kaito was more offline than usual. I knew why, but I couldn't tell anyone. It was distressing me. Always lying. By the time I knew everyone had caught on to it. One day Luka confronted me with it in a private voice chat. She was worried about me. It was so sweet. I gave in. I didn't told her anything specific, but I admitted I…we are lying because things started to go out of hand….again.

They tried to not press the issue, but they won't stop asking once in a while. It was nice to have Luka supporting me. She is interfering a lot recently. But Gakupo also tries his best to remember everyone that it's none of their business if we decided so. Sometimes I think he knew more than everyone else. I mean, he was the closest to Kaito next to me. Maybe Kaito shared things with him I don't know about. I kind of hope so.

„So about our next meeting…what about Karaoke?" Gumi tried to make us go to Karaoke for the last two meet ups. „You know we can't go and going midday is not fun." Well, it would be still fun but I know what Len was referring to. Just stopping at some point sucked. Staying over was also a thing. Rin was easy. She could stay with me or the other girls. Len could stay with Gakupo, but he was an unknown adult to their parents. They wouldn't allow that…and Kaito was currently out of every discussion. I sighed. „Let's do that during holidays. We could stay in the Karaoke bar over night." I said bored.

„…"

What's with that weird silence?

„THAT'S IT!" Gumi screamed causing me the shock of my lifetime. „Okay, now that this is set, what about the next meeting?" Urg, just let's cancel it. It fell together with 'that'. But getting distracted from it would be better.

"I recently saw a cute Café in my area. How about some cake and tea?" Luka, you're such an Angel. „I go!" I instantly said. It was a nice, relaxing idea. We don't have to go crazy all the time, right? Everyone seems to like the idea so Gumi gave in. She always wants to do something exciting, but doing something simple isn't so bad once in a while, right?

We decided to meet at the metro station exit closest to the Café. Luka lived in a nice area. As far as I know she was born here. Well nearly everyone was born here except for Gumi and me. I was from Kyoto and Gumi lived in Nagoya. I moved for high school and suffered dorm life. Now I have my own little flat. Gumi also has her own space but she moved later for University. I still get surprised by how nice Tokyo can be.

Now we are still waiting for Miku. She usually is on point but she seemed to be a little out of it for a whole week…but we kind of all where. It just left a big gap in our group when one was missing for so long. We haven't heard anything from Icy for over a week. Sometimes Miku updates roughly about him. But more than some greetings and that he is fine seems not to be possible.

Miku arrived a half hour later. Running and apologizing. „Sorry guys, I totally messed up the time." Gumi just laughed it off. „Don't sweat it. Just let's go." We still waited till she recovered. „Still sorry."

The Café was really cute. Maybe a little too much for Lens and my taste but it was okay for once. The cake was really good and the matcha latte had the right bitterness. We also had enough topics to cover. Miku soon has to concentrate on getting into a university and it seems that she wants to go to the same as we do. I think it's cute but she really should choose the best place for her field instead. That's probably the harder decision. What to study?

During a long rant what she could do and what not her phone received a massage. She looked at it ready to ignore it till she was finished complaining, but she stopped talking and seemed confused. We kept being silent while she was studying whatever she got. Watching her was enough for the moment. Her confusion became a strict expression that seemed to critically analyze everything she saw…or read. At some point her eyes became larger and larger till her mouth opened in shock. She still was scanning her display, properly looking or re-reading the whole thing again and again and then she gasped just to say in a faint whisper: „oh my god…."

Like in panic she swiped on her phone before she held it to her ear to call the massager. „Kaito! Really?!" she nearly screamed but no one of us wanted to scold her for it. There was a little break till this Kaito-Person answered. „oh my god…" Miku whispered again. A small noise told us 'Kaito' was speaking. „That's…that's awesome!" Miku said jumping up. „Where are you now?...at home? You mean….okay…will you…tell everyone?" That got our attention back. We thought this was not related to us so we started playing with our phones and drinks. „Really? You will? Pinky swear and all…o-okay, I tell them we will be on as soon as possible!...no way, I have to! And no second thoughts, understood?...Good! Just wait!" She hung up still standing. „What's up?" Gumi asked confused like we all are. „Kaito-! I mean IceCreamDragon is back from his appointment and is finally free!"

Wait…WHAT?! „Free?" I asked even more confused. „Yeah! We need to go home now, he will explain everything." Gumi instantly called the waitress. „But…can't he just come over?" Good point Meiko. At least one brain was still working. „No, he is busy packing." She said hastily. „Packing?" Rin asked next to a kind of terrified looking Len. „He will explain as soon as we are ooooonlinnnne." Miku now pressed. She lost her patience. „Okay, okay. Let's pay and hurry." Gumi interfered. At least we could agree on that now.

We paid and then hurried home. Somehow my head was spinning. We haven't had contact to Icy for so long and now it's like he decided to spill all his secrets. Miku was so excited. I had to take the chance to go to a convenient store first. I needed something to drink and some snacks for later. Len and Rin won't be home so fast anyway. The wait would drive me crazy.

When I came online most of us where already there. Even Icy but his status was absent. He was properly busy packing and waited for the siblings to arrive.

= Your late! =

Gumi complained. As if we could start now.

= Went to the conbini for survival items. The duo won't be home so fast anyway. =

= Sucker! I wished I got some shit as well. =

= If you hurry you could make it in time. =

= No, I accept my fate and go later. =

Well, their open 24h so no need to rush. No one joined the conversation until there was a new notification.

-BananaJuice is now online-

= Sis is with me. We can start. =

= Okay =

Miku answered and we waited tensely. The voice chat started but it was initiated by IceCreamDragon. He probably started it so fast the system couldn't chance his status at our side. Everyone took the call as fast as possible.

„Hi…" He said shyly. „Sorry for ruining your meet."

„Forget about that. What's going on? What are you packing for?" Len asked impatient and audibly distressed.

„I will live with my mother starting today."

„And she is living where?" He asked instantly leaving us silent.

„…At the other end of Tokyo."

We groaned in unison. He will still be here. A fear that everyone seemed to have hold silently.

„Gosh, when Miku said your packing it sounded like you're leaving Tokyo." Len whined.

„What? No, the court would have never agreed to me moving if it would mean leaving Tokyo."

„Wait! The court?" Meiko asked bewildered. I sighed.

„Well how about we let him start at the beginning." I said messaging my temples. We survived the first shock let's try for the whole story.

„Well that's what I was initially planning." Icy…Kaito was saying slightly amused. It sounded so good to hear him like this. It feels like we haven't heard him laugh or do something remotely similar in ages.

Everyone was silent now as a sign for him to start.