„Heeeey, it's been a while! How are you" Gumi cheered. It was exciting to have everyone in the chat again. I was a little worried that the group would fall apart after such a long break but it seems like everyone wanted to keep this up. „Christmas and New Year is always so busy. Let's do the Hatsumode together next year." Len said in a complaining way. It was a nice idea. Going to the temples together to have the first prayer in the new Year. I would love that.
I was not the only one agreeing. „Next year is fine. I will have to write my graduation thesis so I don't have to help at home." Gakupo said. I got exited…but also a little sad. In April I will start university and then we go to the same institution until next march…We may have even less time. Then he will start to work. I will pray for his success.
„Cool, then that's set! I never planned so much in advance." Gumi said and typed our plans into her phone. „How is graduation going on at the high school side? Soon the admission letters will be send." „Really?!" Miku was now fully there. „How do you know?" Her now girlfriend asked. I envy them. „I caught it while my Professor was talking to a colleague. Nervous?" Gumi tried to tease us again. „Not really, I am more worried about Miku." Everyone laughed. „Kaito! That's not funny!" She was damn nervous about it…so for me it was damn funny. „Kaito-nii sure gets accepted." Len said. To be honest, I have no idea how the exam went. I tried my best and studied relentless with Miku, Gakupo and Luka. I refused to go to a preparation course. I wanted to focus on my weak spots. I don't think I will have any regrets…at least I hope so.
„By the way, want a little distraction from exam?" A distraction sounds fine by me. I am so over all the math. „What do you have in mind?" „Next week is student night in a club. Have a student ID, get everything for half the price. Entrance fee, drinks…" A club? "Gumi, we are still minors until next year." Miku said. The Duo stayed silent. They seemed to wonder how this will develop. „I know but please. It is fucking late and with the right people you get in easily. Just dress a little more sexy and bam! You will look like an adult." „Sounds like someone has experience." Gakupo said but he kinda looked like he agreed with Gumi. „What if they notice?" I asked calm. I never had the chance going to a club but dancing of some stress in a different way than DDR sounds good. „They won't because we exchange IDs not fake them and even if, they will just send us away." Exchange IDs, huh? I was surprised about this. „Will you go, Luka?" Miku asked. „Yeah, most likely." Really? She didn't look like the clubbing girl. Well with quite people you never know. „Okay, than count me in." „I will be there too." Gakupo said. „Nice!" Gumi didn't know? „Me too!" Meiko then followed. „Great, and Kaito?" Urg, I don't feel good about doing something illegal but…on the other hand…there is one person in my family who did far worse. "Okay, I'm going." „Yeah! Party time!" Gumi seems overjoyed. „I want to go too." Len suddenly said. „No way, you are too young…and still look too young." Len pouted at Gumis objection. „Len, let them have some adult fun alone!" Rin said out of nowhere and her brother blushed. We laughed. Rin was a little bomb sometimes. „At least send some pictures." Well, that's possible I think.
I was sitting on the couch of Mikus House wait for her to finally be ready to go. I was ready for ages and Miku just couldn't stop doing her makeup. It was stupid. I restarted my game and tried for another round as Miku finally came down. „Dooone!" „Wow, I thought you would never finish." „Shut up. Good things take time and you need something too." She grinned cheeky and held out her clear lip gloss. „I am gay, not drag." She rolled her eyes. „Just use it! It will look good." „No, this is weird." She took my hand and pressed the gloss in it. „It will be gone the moment we arrive. Now use it. I need you lips shiny for a selfie!" She won't give up so I used that stupid gloss. It felt as weird as it looks but it tasted not that bad. We made like a thousand selfies afterwards and then finally left. I had a small bag with me. If I need to, I would stay at Mikus but maybe I will make it home so I just locked it at the station close to the club.
As we arrived everyone was already there. „Hey, you're late!" „Sorry, it's my fault." At least Miku was honest. „No thing. Just let's work on getting you in." Gumi said exited. „Gakupo and Luka are waiting outside and we get you in." Now I was feeling nervous as fuck. Thanks Meiko. I took Gakupos ID and Miku Lukas but we look so different from them. The door keeper will never believe this. Still we stood in line and there was no going back anymore.
I really thought this would never work but the moment I stood at the entrance they just let me in after a short and very brief control…what?
It was very loud and super crowded. Meiko was leading us and Gumi left to bring Gakupos and Lukas IDs back. We just waited leaving our coats in the care of the clubs stuff members. „You look good." Miku screamed at me and I smiled. „You too." It was so loud. If we will talk a lot today I most likely will become hoarse.
It took a while until the other two were finally inside. I could already see them getting rid of their coats. Gakupo looked as good as ever. He went all black with a white west and his hair was left open. A rare sight I truly enjoyed. When they were finally done our eyes crossed and his the way his piercing blue eyes looked at me took my breath away. I hoped we could soon join the dance floor before my legs became too weak for me to stand.
I was waiting for this day for a while now. The last time I went clubbing felt so far away and it was kind of fun to play the senpai who is making their kouhais do something bad. Still I was kind of surprised seeing Kaito with his hair in a little bit of a wilder style. Not too much but definitely a little ruffled up so some stands stood up a bit. It looked good and I was glad to see him pass the entrance without problems.
Now was our turn and that was also quite eventless. I gave my coat to the stuff and looked for the others. It should be easy because Kaito and Meiko were quite tall.
I was right and I caught Kaitos form instantly in the mass of people. This time though I was completely stunned. I was used to think he was cute and he always looked younger than he was due to that. Seeing him in this all black attire was completely new to me. The pants where tight but didn't looked uncomfortable. They were emphasizing his long legs perfectly and this shirt…where did he got this thing? The fabric hugged his form perfectly promising so much without showing anything. Just the collar teased the eye with a generous amount of his white skin which barely passed the 'just right'. To top this all of he wore this black choker with a silver pendant. Hell, he looked so much more his age now and it was damn hot. I wasn't expecting him to pull of the 'sexy' so nicely.
My thoughts were stopped by Luka pressing herself past me to reach Miku. I followed her. Kaito was now looking away. I asked myself how long we had stared at each other. „Let's go!" I heard Gumi scream and everyone started moving. I kind of kept looking back at Kaito. Once I caught him looking back I smiled gently. He was again looking away in a shy manner. That's more like the Kaito I know.
We went straight to get some drinks. One cannot go to a club without drinking! Miku and Kaito accepted the alcohol we basically made them drink but they don't seem to care much. We still kind of tried to talk but it was more like screaming. After the second drink nothing could keep Miku from the dance floor and she took all with her I was stopped halfway by a guy from my course. „Hey, you here?" He asked. „Yeah, clubbing with friends." I answered. He looked drunk already. „Okay, have fun with your chicks. Don't let them be taken by that guy." I looked at the direction my fellow student nodded and saw all of my friends dance with each other…or more like I saw Kaito dancing in between the girls by himself… Gosh, I remembered that Miku said something about him being good with his body but this was illegal. The way he moved, the way his hips swayed to the rhythm of the music. How could a guy possibly do that….he is a high schooler for god damn sake! It still was hypnotic. I could stare at it the whole night and not getting tired of it.
I moved all on my own ignoring the drunkard joining his movements. There was no shyness when we were dancing, no flinching away and no blushing. Even as we started to get closer, touching carefully before I pulled him as close as our movement allowed. Dancing he was like a different person. Mind blurred by alcohol and drowned in music the distance between us got smaller. His eyes reflected a firework of colors as the light changed. His lips shimmering moist from what I believe could be lip gloss. Everything was intoxicating…and everything lost its meaning as our lips met in a longing touch…
I didn't know how we ended up kissing on the dance floor but I was sure I was not drunk. I knew what I did, but it was so blurry at the same time. I just…couldn't stop myself from leaning closer. It was a gentle kiss but as our lips parted they already pushed against each other again in a more desperate way. It was electrifying. His arms circled around me holding me close to his body.
We were not even dancing anymore as we kissed in the middle of people for who knows how long. I couldn't think anymore. He didn't gave me time to as he left my lips to attack my neck, nibbling at my choker. I gasped unheard through the loud music but somehow Gakupo had noticed. His lips parted from my skin and we looked at each other heated. This was a dream, right?
His arms left me but he instantly took my wrist to drag me to the exit. I couldn't see the others anymore. I didn't even know where we ended up in the club as we danced. How long have we been here?
He dragged me to the place our coats are stored by the stuff. We got them and left. He was holding my hand now leading all the way to the station. In a moment of sanity I stopped him by the station lockers to get my bag, than we were on it again. Inside the train I felt my mind clear up. What were we doing? But this question was fleeting. I just looked at the screen telling us which way the train was going. It was the line Gakupos home station was on. I felt nervous and the long haired held my hand just a little tighter. I couldn't help myself loving this small reassuring gesture.
As predicted we left at Gakupos station with him leading me to his home, a very small apartment in an old building. I was here before but never inside. I never minded. You could see nearly everything through the webcam. That's how small it was. Now I kind of do mind it.
He unlocked the door and as soon as we were inside he pressed me against the cold metal door kissing me passionately. All my doubts, my nervousness and my sanity where thrown away as I returned the kiss just as fiercely. The shoes were just kicked off as he pulled me from the door to push me through the room right on his bed. Clothes were shed and he devoured me by kissing my whole body. I was maddening. In the back of my head I was scared but I was lost in unknown feelings. New levels of pain and pleasure run through me as he opened me up gently and with utmost care. Still nothing could have prepared me for what was about to come. The pain was bearable but I was far from ready for what overwhelming feeling Gakupo was about to cause me. I heard myself screaming at one point. At least I think it was me. My voice sounded so foreign. Our noises mixed as our bodies joined and I couldn't scream anymore when finally everything became blank. My heart arched as our lips met for a last gentle kiss tasting as sweet as honey.
I felt warm when I woke up. Nice and warm. I was about to just close my eye again to continue sleeping as a stroke of pain run up my spine as I tried to move. „Ngh…" I whined surprised. „Are you okay? Does it hurt?" A gently dark voice asked from behind me making me shiver. I froze in realization. Everything was crashing down on me. The club, the dancing, the kissing, him taking me here…and…everything after that. What the…?! How could I do that?!
„Hey, you okay?" Gakupo sounded even more worried and stopped my internal panic attack. „I…I think so." I was hoarse. Oh my god. „You sure?" I tried to move again. It wasn't so painful when you expect it to feel weird. „Just a little discomfort." I really was not that painful. I just got me. I now looked at him. His eyes shining brightly with a gentle emotion that was making my heart skip a beat. „Okay, wanna take a bath?" „If that's not too bothersome I would like to take the offer." I said. He just smiled at me the way I like the most. He is spoiling me. „Not at all."
He got up and went for his bathroom. Now I was alone…I sat up slowly and looked around. His apartment really was small. A bed, a desk and a small closet. I could see the open kitchen perfectly, just the bathroom was its own small room where the bathtub would barely fit in. Was it even big enough for him? I will know soon I guess. Somehow I really liked that place. It may be small and cramped but Gakupo decorated it nicely with is personal things. Everything was tidy and had its order but it also had a chaotic vibe to it. Maybe because he had too many things for this small space. I loved it.
He came back just to go to the kitchen for a glass of water he offered wordlessly. „Thanks." I said and he sat next to me. I drank some of the water. It was lukewarm and even though it tasted kind of bad it was nice for my throat. We still stayed silent. It was so strange. Yesterday we were still just friends and I was just drooling over him like a lovesick fool and today? I couldn't say anything anymore because we had sex out of nowhere and I feel utmost bad about it…and kind of guilty. I don't know what I was feeling so guilty for. Sex takes two people…still it had a wrong taste for me. This was not how I planned my first time to be…but at the same time I was glad. I did it with someone I love and I did enjoyed every minute but still…I blushed at my memories. Gakupo stood up again and checked the water. „It's ready." „Okay." I said trying to get up….failing. „Ouch…" I said in a low voice but Gakupo was already coming. You can't hide anything in this small space. „Can you get up?" „Yeah, just…a little weak." He chuckled. „Sounds like I should have been more gently." What?! Nooo, he has already treated me like a raw egg. „That's not it…" I tried to find words. „It's okay. Come, let me help you." He helped me up. Damn it! „I feel like a weakling." He smiled. „You don't look like one. You look rather trained actually." Uwahhh, I do not really train but I do things once in a while…it may…just may paid off. „Can I…can I brush my teeth first. I have my stuff…in the bag." He looked at me and nodded. Then he kind of searched for it. I lost it probably at the entrance where he attacked me…I need to forget that for now.
As I got my stuff and thanks to me finally standing stable again I brushed my teeth and cleaned my legs roughly. He came back just as I was finished. Gakupo has dressed in his old clothes for now. He even wore his underwear this whole time while I was still bare naked. Too late to feel ashamed about it I guess. Still if he was wearing something he was already up before…meaning he came back to my side at some point. It was confusing.
He helped me into the tub. I mean it was obvious that I couldn't get in myself. It still kind of nagged on me. I tried to relax in the warmth but it was hard when you felt tense even though Gakupo stayed with me…or maybe because he was with me. I still felt horrible…what is he now thinking of me? He still is so nice and lovely but I just felt cheap…
„Hey, what's wrong?" I just shook my head. „You look like you're about to cry. What's going on in your beautiful head?" He smiled but it just made it harder. He was a university student and I know thanks to some conversations that he is not innocent. But still, how he is…in this regard is unknown to me. I can't expect anything. It's scary. „Ne…Gakupo…" I said my voice sounding uncomfortably loud to myself even as I just whispered. „Is this….a one-night-stand?" I knew he had some…that made it even scarier. My heart was arching more with every second he kept me waiting for an answer. It was suffocating. „Do you…want it to be one?" He could be so cruel. But…wasn't this already the end? We can't go back now and…I just…couldn't take it anymore. „No…"
He stood up and I looked at him in confusion and shock as he took the first step into the tub fully clothed. It was so small I had to make space for him as he kneeled down just so he could take my cheeks into his hands and lead me into a kiss full of pain. My heart arched and I could see it in his eyes a moment ago his does too. The kiss really was painful…but only because we put all the pain and fear of the morning into it until it tasted sweet again. As we parted he pulled me into a tight embrace making me settle in his lap. I also clung to him like my life depended on it.
„Me too." I let go of my breath I did not know I was holding. He was already kissing my neck again. „Gakupo…no…" I whined. My body was still sore but it also reacted to his touch as I moaned traitorously when he caressed my nipples. „I won't do it…just touching." I couldn't say no. I was already far too excited as he leaned back freeing is own legs, bucking up his hips in the act, making moan again. I could feel him feeling as desperate as me. We kissed as he freed himself and started rubbing us together. I felt ecstatic soon rocking my hips impatient in his rhythm. I never was so…in need for something like this before I met him. His low moans make me shiver I wanted more and he gave me more. A finger was teasing my entrance. „Gakupo…" I wanted to scold him but I just moaned as finger entered and moved inside me. As he rubbed my insides searching for the right spot I moaned his name again. I could already feel it rolling over me, grasping his hand trying to touch him as long as I could until we both soiled the water…but in the moment of aftershock we didn't cared.
I was basically laying on his chest and shoulder catching my breath. He really knows what to do. I could finally relax as I calmed down getting tired again. „It was you first time…am I right?" He then said out of nowhere in a low voice. „What gave me away?" I just asked back. Was it that obvious? „…nothing…I just…guessed…and hoped I was right?" „Really? But…I was so weird a moment ago, right?" I thought at least that was a huge give away. „You were…it was worrisome…but people could possibly react like that regardless of their experience." Oh…okay. Makes sense…maybe. „I am glad it was your first." He smiled into nothingness as I looked up. I got up a little to look at him properly. He instantly focused on me. „Glad?" I repeated in mild surprise. „Yeah, you are the one person I don't want to share…" I gasped…suddenly all my bad thoughts where gone and forgotten. All of the doubt and worry lost in this very moment. I don't needed words of love…this was all I needed.
We sealed this unsaid promise with a kiss.