„No. No. No. Nonononono NOOOO!"

„Where are you. Urg…shit."

- Your Party lost the game -

Everyone groaned. It has been a while since we lost but that's what happens when you play against a party with a much higher rank. But it was fun and for that we were quite good. „Oh man, we sucked…" Well not everyone was my opinion. „I think we were quite decent." I said and Meiko made an agreeing noise. „We still lost…" Gumi pouted. She was a sore loser. I chuckled to myself and looked as Gakupos stream. He was typing on his phone. As he put it away my phone vibrated.

= Want to go to the library tomorrow? =

I smiled and answered with a smile 'yes'. As he received it he smiled as well.

It's spring again and I am now a university student. Miku made it as well. It was really nice having some helping senpais around us. There was so much we needed to get used to. University is really different from school. I liked it. Our schedules still are packed but we do have more time at hand to just meet with the other three. Especially Gakupo and I used every chance to meet and study together…well…and other things. Not that! Pervert!...well that too sometimes but we are no animals!

„Urg, it's already late. Rin, bedtime! Before Mum is going to scold us." Len sighed. „Mou…why is time always running after school but not during school!" We laughed. Rin is so cute and reminds us always about the small things we hated about school as well. „Then good night everyone and don't flirt so much." The blond girl sang. I kind of felt my cheeks heating. Gakupo and I where an item now but…except for Miku who I can't hide anything from and therefore also Luka no one knew about what happened that night in January. It's not like we wanted to keep it from everyone but…I still feel unsure about opening about this. Gakupo just accepted it and wanted to wait for me until I get used to it. I kind of am afraid I never will be.

Well, Luka and Miku haven't told anyone either but they weren't hiding it so much. They always hold hands or even kind of cuddle which was adorable. No one seemed to question that. I still wanted a little more time for just us.

I suddenly heard my phone again. Strange, no one in the stream had used their phone. It was a message from Len. He was wishing me sweet dreams and I shouldn't stay up that long… Well, Len and Rin have left after we have wished them a good night. Still I was surprised to have an extra message.

= You too. = I just wrote not knowing what else to do with this.

When we finally met again we took our chance for another karaoke session. But this time we met in front of a restaurant before to get some food. The food in the bars was always so expensive and even though we smuggled in snacks they were not really filling.

„Hey, I brought you book with me. I loved you notes especially page 107." Gakupo handed my book over and I looked at him in confusion. Everyone was already there but somehow we where super busy with talking instead of going into the restaurant.

I looked up page 107. It was the end of a chapter in the book and the page had a generous empty space that I decorated with my big outrageous words saying 'They should chill and suck some dicks!'. I blushed furiously and closed the book fast so no one could see. I crouched down in shame. „Gakupoooooo…" I whined. I felt so embarrassed even though no one knows what was going on. I will never ever lend out a book I haven't checked. Fuuuuuuuck…

„Are you okay?" Len asked worried. „No." I whined again hiding underneath the book of shameful comments. Gakupo chuckled amused. That's not funny! „Relax. I wouldn't have written it that way but you where not wrong." „You not helping!" I instantly said. He now crouched down as well and took my wrist in his had stroking the inside with his thumb. „I enjoyed your thoughts. They were very entertaining and smart." Urg, he kind of knew how to get me. Not with his words but with his voice and these touches. I looked up at him still a little unhappy. „Next time bring something like this back to me without everyone around." I said in a low voice. He chuckled again and we stood up. „You know we are now super curious." Gumi said grinning. „My mouth is sealed…yours too!" I ordered strictly. Gakupo just signed that his mouth is zipped. Lucky you. „You are no fun." She whined but finally Luka stopped us to lead the group in the restaurant. Now I am super hungry…

Karaoke went always by super fast. We just started and then it was already over. I sighed as I was climbing into Gakupos car. He got it from his parents as they were visiting for spring break. His parents must be awesome. I would love to meet them someday.

„Hurry up." Gakupo said to Len. He was bringing both of us to my place while Rin was going to stay at Lukas this time. Miku will be with them. They already planned some kind of ladies night but looking at Mikus yawning nothing will happen. Gakupo started the engine as soon as Len was inside. I smiled. Today was fun. We really should do that more often. Still it always felt kind of unfair doing stuff without the siblings. Maybe next year will be easier.

„Hey, want to stay too? You look tired." I said after he finished parking and also yawned. I mean it's not like I don't trust Gakupo. He would make it home safely…but I don't trust everyone else on the Tokyo streets at night. „What will your mom say?" „She properly is long asleep and… I mean, you are my upperclassmen. It will be okay." He looked at me and sighed. „Okay, I will come with you. I am curious about you apartment anyway." I am relieved he gave in but I think he realized himself that he is just too tired for more driving.

So…this time Gakupo will be staying at Kaitos too. So much for my privilege. What nagged me the most was Kaito letting the older stay in his room while I was again left for the guest room. I sighed and changed my clothes. Rin would laugh at me. She kind of found put that I like Kaito but I always denied it. I mean…I do but…well it's kind of hard to get closer when there was this purple haired wall in between.

I shook my head about myself and left the room to wish the other two a good night. I wanted to knock against the door as I realized it was open by an inch. „What are you doing?" My heart stopped as I heard Kaitos gentle voice. „What does it look like?" Gakupo then said in a teasing tone. I am confused…and now just couldn't help myself spying in the room through the small slit.

Kaito was in his pajamas already and Gakupo just wore his underwear while holding Kaito close to his body from behind…what…?! What's going on? What did I missed?

„I'm recharging." Kaito chuckled not minding the embrace. They see each other nearly every day thanks to the fact that they go to the same university now. On top of that we spend the whole time together today! What did Gakupo need to recharge on? I see the taller man's hand underneath Kaitos pajama top. The blue haired stopped the hand smiling, finally turning around to face the other. „Stop that. We are not alone." What?! What would happen if they were alone?! But I could probably guess from what was happening next. Gakupo was leaning down angling his head kissing Kaito softly. My heart arched. Especially at how Kaito was returning the kiss, leaning in, getting closer. I left, not wanting to see more.

In the guest room I sat on the bed thinking about what I just witnessed. Kaito was…with Gakupo? I never noticed but now that I do know it made sense. It still kind of hurt. Damn it! Rin was probably already out like a light. I suddenly heard a knock. „Y-yeah?" The door opened carefully and Kaito came through. „Hey, everything okay? Need something for the night?" „Uhm…no. Thanks…" I want to switch with Gakupo. „Okay, than have a good night." He smiled lovely and before he could leave the room I just couldn't keep it anymore. „You're…dating Gakupo?..." He froze just to turn around very slowly looking rather shocked. „I…" „I saw you two…in your room." He gasped looking away blushing. It was cute but he looked so uncomfortable underneath my grace…like he was scared. I didn't mean to scare him. „Why...?" „Huh?" „Why him?" I asked clinging to the sheets. „I won't tell anyone just…just tell me why…?" He now looked surprised and seemed to actually consider answering. He could say so many things that are different. Gakupo was tall, smart, had a car and so on…but…I could grow tall as well and I am not stupid. A car also is just a matter of time. I… „He…always seems to know…how to catch me when I fall. He just…knows when I need space…or…the opposite." Urg…of all the obvious things he could choose from he chose something I could hardly argue with. Gakupo was just older than me and it was kind of obvious he had a hand for handling Kaito. I hate him…well I wish I could because he as well was one of my best friends. I may be able to learn this as well…but I can't say confidently I could succeed in time.

„I…I understand…thank you…" I still had one wish. „Could you…could you kiss me…just once?" I looked down in shame but…I really wanted this. „Please…" There was no answer for a while. „Okay." Really?! I looked at him disbelieving. „Close your eyes." He ordered me softly still he looked so strained. I closed my eyes. Do I really want to force myself upon him? I felt his fingers on my cheeks. They were always kind of cold no matter how warm it was…how warm he was. I could also feel his breath on my skin and then…there where his lips gently touching my forehead. I was a little disappointed…but I also was glad he didn't do the real thing.

I waited until his lips parted from my skin to open my eyes. Kaitos smile is sad. It does not have to be. „Sorry." I shook my head. „No, I am sorry…that…was immature. I'm glad you considered at least this." Now he smiled for real. Finally. „You are a good guy. You will find someone just for you. I'm sure you will." I smiled. This actually meant a lot to me. „Thanks…" He left…I felt a little like crying…but it's okay.

I felt weird. This was such a strange situation. I would never have guessed Len was interested in me and I am kind of really sorry for him. As I closed the door I saw Gakupo leaning in the doorway of my room. He probably saw what happened. I felt ashamed. I mean…I didn't cheated on him, did I?

I walked up to him after he stretched out a hand to me. I took it and was pulled into a passionate kiss that told me who my boyfriend was. It was possessive and…I liked it. „Are you mad?" I asked carefully as we ended. He looked to the side. „Not really. I am a bit jealous though." I never thought he would admit that. „Just once…right?" He now asked and looked at me in a way that tried to mask his mixed emotions. „Just once…" I nodded.

Together we went to bed. I hope tomorrow won't be too much of a hassle.

When I woke up Kaito was already gone. He kind of had a habit to wake up before me since we go to bed at a normal time. I should force him to stay up long with me again…well it works once in a while when he stays over at my place.

Well, I got up and found him in the kitchen. I smiled at that. „Morning." I said and he turned to me. „Good morning." I would kiss him now, but I don't want his mother to catch us like that. „Is your Mother already up?" I asked after he gave me a cup of coffee. No proper function without. „Yeah, she is on a short errant. We are missing more coffee." I laughed. „She is an addicted as well?" He nodded. „You should get dressed." He suddenly said and I looked down. I was still in my underwear. „Right." „Want to shower?" „I will at home." It doesn't make sense when I will put on my old clothes again. I left for his room just to come back a minute later fully dressed. I should carry a change of clothes in my car next time.

„Oh, hello. How unexpected." His mother greeted me. Timing! „Good morning, Miss Shion." „Ah, this is Kamui Gakupo. He is the upperclassmen I told you about." She examined me from head to toe. Her gaze was sharp. She looked a lot more different up close than Kaito, but you could still see how much he came after her. „Nice to meet you, Kamui-kun. Thank you for taking care of my son." She said in a soft tone also her gaze softened. „Oh, no. It's a pleasure to study with him. He is smart and learns fast. It's also nice for reviewing some topics." She laughed. „He really is nice." She said and took her coffee to take a seat at the dining table.

After Kaito woke up Len we had breakfast and agreed on me taking the youngest home. It was quite the way but I didn't mind. I don't use the car that often. Tokyo was just so easy by train. I also wanted to get Rin but she decided to stay with the girls for longer. Means I just took Len with me. „Here we are." I said smiling. „Thanks." We didn't talked about the situation with Kaito at all but the look he gave me was telling me something was about to come. „Gakupo…" He had all my attention. „If you mess this up…I will come and beat the shit out of you and then I will take him away!" I was pretty surprised at his…threat but it also made me smile. So he won't give up completely. Good. „I understood. I'm counting on you." Now he looked surprised but caught himself pretty quickly. „You can!" With a smile on his face he left. I'm glad Kaito now has so many friends who cared so deeply. He was always so closed up. Even for me it was hard to get through to him at that time. That's why I have no intentions to mess this up. I was actually more serious about this than I thought myself I would be.

With that thought in mind I drove home to get my long awaited shower. Maybe I would send Kaito a nice picture afterwards. He will probably scold me for it…but I am pretty sure he likes it.