Marriage is easy. Makes life easy, makes decisions easy. Everything is shared, everything is spoken for. All of my problems, my doubts, my worries, all turn to dust when I am speaking with my husband about them. It's like, he knew the answer to everything, even when I think I have it, he offers an even better suggestion. We are a team of one, one mind, one body, one soul.

Ever since Samuel moved in, things are a lot more lively at Hellsing HQ. A family lives within its walls. I take two hours out of my schedule every day to tutor my step daughter. She enjoys the lessons. Sam thought it a good idea to start piano lessons, and while I think she is too young, I give in a buy a piano. I already had one. But it's far to old and big for her. I can hear her from my office sometimes as she plays. Clunky strikes on the piano keys can be heard throughout the house at 9 in the morning.

"Master." I hear your voice intrude my head space. I haven't directly spoken to you in over a month, not since I got back from my honeymoon.

"What is it?" I ask, annoyed.

"What is that god awful sound coming from upstairs?"

"That, if you must know, is my daughter, she's taking piano lessons, she's a beginner, and if you couldn't surmise that from the sound well you-" I am cut off.

"I get it, Master, I get it." Your voice a deep sigh. "Sorry."

"Get out of my head." I snip. "And stay out." I hear nothing from you after that. I lite a cigar. Smoke fills the air surrounding my head. I sigh. I wonder how long I could keep you too apart. How long could I keep her innocence from vampires? How long could I keep the occult from her blossoming mind? My father told me at a very young age, mainly because his health was failing, and he knew I was the only one he could trust. I would never cross my father.

I hear a knock on my door.

"Come in." I say, in a low tone, my husband comes in, bring us both a cup of tea. I give him a small smile, my mood instantly lifts.

"Hello my love." he greets me. "Care for some tea with me to start the day?"

I chuckle. "Sure." He comes, taking a seat by me, setting down the tea cup.
He lightly blows on his tea before taking a sip.

"Dear." I say.

"Yes?"

"Do you think it's appropriate for Constance to be practicing this early in the morning? I mean most of the staff are just now waking up."

Sam thinks for a moment. "Well, we could always move it to the afternoon, and move her schooling to the morning instead."

I am satisfied with that solution. I nod. "That might be for the best." I say.

"Then it's settled." he says, taking another sip. He then perks up. "Integra, I have something to tell you," He says, his tone serious.

"What is it?" I murmur, just a little worried.

"Well, I have another trip coming up." He says. He sits down his tea his cup. "With a very important U.S Senator." He continues. "I am going to be in the public eye for at least two months."

I lean back in my chair, blinking. Two months? Two months?

"Two months?" I question, "Why two months?" I ask, curious.

"There is bill that needs passed in Senate and the House of representatives. And I need to be there, to." He trials off. "Inform them as to why it needs passed." he explains.

"I see." I say, sternly. "Well, it seems a bit impossible to fall under the radar." I say,

"I have to stay in a hotel for a few days before the trip, so I know you won't be tracked, I could not bare it if Hellsing was discovered by the public." He says, putting his hand on my shoulder.

"Hm." Is all I say. My chest feels strange, empty.

"Are you all right?" He asks me. I nod. I put my head in my hands, then run my fingers through my hair.

"I'll be fine." I say. "It's just, we've only been married for two months and already we going to be a part." I say.

"I can't walk away from my duty." he says. "If I could get someone else to do it, I would, but I can't."

"I know, I know."

You come into mind. Two whole months of you and I being unsupervised. No Samuel to stop the thoughts from coming. But, I don't feel the same about you. After the first time I had made love, those obsessive thoughts ceased. Something broke, like a ball and chain. I was free from you.
But maybe, if Samuel left, they would come back. And I am utterly terrified. I do not need the temptation. Even if I couldn't become a vampire anymore. Not that you knew that yet.

"Integra?" Sam's voice breaks my train of thought.

"Sorry, i'm just thinking." I say. He says nothing. "Sorry."

"If I could let you go, I would." he says.

"It's not a big deal, Samuel, really." I look at him. "It just caught me off guard is all." I say. I give him a weak smile, he does the same.

Later on that evening, I sit in my undefiled marriage bed. Sam and I hadn't had sex since we got back from Colorado. Maybe it's time. I wait for him but he does not come. I get up from my bed, and go to Connie's room. I peak in. Relief washes over me. He's reading her a bedtime story. I smile, before silently leaving. I go back but to my room. But I gasp upon entering. There you stand, before the window, the moon shining through it.

"Alucard." i say, locking the bedroom door. "What are you doing here?" I ask.

"I made you upset this morning," you turn to me, "So I came here to apologize."
"I see." I say, "Well, say you're sorry and get out." I snip. I see your grin grace your face.

"You don't want me to leave." You say, "Otherwise you wouldn't lock the door so your husband wouldn't find us."

I feel my heart sink. My eyes go wide, you approach me slowly. You put your hands on my shoulders. You stare into my eyes, and I look into yours, your eyes glowing red. You are trying to find something.

"No!" You exclaim, letting me go, turning your back to me. I stare at you emptily.

"Alucard, i'm married." I say, "You can't me a virgin forever."

"I thought it would work!" You yell.

"What would work?" I cross my arms. Curious.

"Bonding!" You look into my eyes, desperation in them. I almost feel bad. "When you drank from my chest- You broke us!" You yell, "What we had is broken!"

I take a step back, my expression calm. "It was never together in the first place." I say. "So all this time, you wanted me bonded to you so you could turn me into a vampire?" I ask.

"Yes! I wanted you forever, for always!" You grab me by the shoulders, lifting me up. I gasp. "Alucard, calm yourself!" I snap. I manage to get myself out of your arms.

"Do you still love me?" You ask. Your face dark.

"Yes, but you won't have me forever." I say.

"So I am to die along with you." You say.

"I wouldn't say that, I might have children."

I see your face twitch. "If you think I could ever follow a spawn created by him, you are dead wrong." You sneer.

"You will. And I will hunt you forever if you don't, I'll make sure you follow until the day they die, and then I will hunt you into the deepest pits of hell!" I yell. You blink, taking a step back. "I-I am sorry…" You apologize.
"You are damn right, you are sorry, now leave, go, get out!" I scream. You vanish from sight, but I can still feel you there, the master and servant bond, is still there, and always will be, until I die, and then my child. My child. I could have a child. A put them through all of the hell I have been through, make them a slave to duty. Make them clean up my messes from my own life. I don't like the sound of that, maybe a child isn't for the best. I sigh, unlocking my bedroom door.

I take off my clothes, and put on my nightwear. I get into bed, so much for a romantic evening, you ruin everything. I hear my husband silently come in out room. Getting into bed. I feel his warm lips on my cheek, I open my eyes and turn to him.

"Hello." He greets me, moving a strand of hair out of my face, he kisses my lips, I kiss him back, smiling.

"Hi." I put my arms around his neck, his hands on my shoulders.

"What is it, Integra?" He asks me, curiously.

"I want something." I pout.

"I can see that." He chuckles, half-heartedly.

"We can't been intimate in a while." I say, avoiding eye contact.

"Oh, I see." he murmurs, kissing my ear. I pull him on top of me, he kisses my neck and chest, I wrap my legging around his waist.

"I want it, really hard." I whisper in his ear. He grins.

"As you wish."

I moan as loud as I can, hoping you'll hear, hoping you'll listen.I am sure you can, I am sure your heart is twinging with pain. I whip my head back and become undone. My husband and I lay together in silence, falling asleep in each others arms.

This, what we had, Alucard, wasn't love, it was obsession, and only time, will you understand, that I cannot love you, two different species cannot love each other. You are dead, stealing the life of others to feel whole, to regain the soul that was forsook so long ago. Maybe if I wasn't Integra Hellsing, maybe if I didn't have a duty. I could truly be your countess, killing, and conquering the world with you by my side.

No,

That's impossible. I should be more responsible, I am your master, and I am responsible for your well being. So, for your sanity, let me go.