I hadn't even noticed that a vehicle pulled up at the house, let alone hear anyone come up the stairs a while later. I probably wouldn't have known if a meteor had hit the world. Honestly, I could have cared less about anything; that is until I saw him. Peeking through my door. It wasn't until he sat down beside me and asked what was wrong that I let it out. His poor pathetic excuses just added to the fire and I wanted to know what the hell was up, no, I demanded to know what was up. What was his drama? What was his issue with me? I mean COME ON, TWICE! 16 and 18…it was a fucking party, not like he was watching me get married, but I'd guess he'd probably miss out on that too.

"…I never said I'd come to this party."

"You shouldn't have had to," I snapped. How could he even say such a thing! "We weren't fighting and you're my brother! It should have been a given that you'd be here tonight."

"Well did anybody miss me?" Wow…that was the stupid question in the history of questions. Well at least right now it was. I felt the tears that wanted to spill from my eyes but I held them back.

"I did!" I choked out before I would even think about it…but it was true. I missed him…he would have been the only thing I would have enjoyed on my birthday…not that he cared. I tore my eyes away from my converse covered feet and replaced them on Kevin.

"I want an explanation Kevin, why did you leave me high and dry?" I was about to deck him…my fist clenched into a ball in my lap.

"I didn't come because…because of this." I opened my mouth to ask what stupid explanation that was when all I could feel next was a pair of lips on my own. My eyes were glued to his as he kissed me. It took a moment or two…or maybe forever…to realize exactly what he meant… but even then, I was guessing. I immediately pulled away from him, causing us both to tumble backwards and fall onto the floor.

"I-I'm…" Kevin looked like he was about to cry, or maybe it was me…

"You kissed me…" I said aloud, more to my self then him. My voice was lost as Kevin began to stand up.

"I…"

"Kevin…" I started, but my voice caught in my throat and I began to realize that Kevin was getting flustered, nervous…scared? I had no time to react as my older brother fled the room and left me sitting there, on the floor of my bedroom, only to a coldness I never thought I would feel more than ever…and the loud click of Kevin's door.

I was so confused…I curled into a ball and began to cry.