AN: Okay, I know many do not like SLASH, because it's either gross, against the bible, yadda yadda. Look, I like everything, and truth be told i dont have a sexual orientation. I'm not straight, bi, lesbian, whatever. I'm just Nik. I'm just the girl who has an apen mind to everything and every possibility in the world. So I'm okay if you didnt like it and it disgusted you, and appologies if it offended you in anyway, any of my storys. I have non slash storys, . You're welcome to view those. Quirks of being me, is a very good non slash. I'd advice reading that if you like jobros and complicated love...with girls i mean lol.

I'm thankful for the support throughout my storys of Emily-Havah Kinny and Tree-Ermine AKA Tree. Good people, and good friends. I also am thanking Paula for just effing being there throught the past years. Sheesh woman how do I live without you?! lol.

ALSO! Special thanks to Allie. Girl, you are a good writer, and not to mention you're acctually attempting to read Havah and my story we are doing together here. Thanks you.

-Nik
PS...thanks to everyone else too.

LOVE!

Okay here is KEVINS pov.

Nick's words shocked me and it didn't take me long to decide what to do. I opened my door, got out of the car, went around and opened the passenger side door after looking around to make sure that no one else could see. I looked at Nick for a split second before placing my right hand on his left cheek and my left hand on his right shoulder. I drew him towards me, in to a deep, passionate kiss. I had imagined him saying those words over and over again in my head so many times and now that he was actually saying him all I wanted to do was kiss him forever. For a second he didn't react at all, then he started kissing me back and I felt his hands running through my curls…they were nothing like his own, but I loved the way his hands felt in my hair. I stood on the blacktop parking lot, making out with my own brother, just hoping that no one had come up, that no one was watching us. I pulled away after god knows how long and looked at his face. I noticed that there were a couple of glistening tears on his cheeks, but he was smiling. "Nicky…" I started, sighing. "Nicky, don't cry." I reached out to wipe his tears away, I didn't want to see him cry anymore. As I brushed them away with my fingers, Nick put his hand on mine and looked up at me.

"Kevin…why doesn't this feel wrong?" he asked. I didn't have an answer to that question.

"Um…" I began, unsure of what to say. "I guess it's because…because we're both in love and love is irrational…" I shrugged. "There aren't any boundaries when it comes to the heart…I don't think."

"Wow…" Nick breathed. "That was…kind of beautiful." I hadn't intended for it to be poetic, I had just intended to answer his question, but winning him over with accidental eloquence wouldn't hurt…not one bit.

"Thanks." I felt my ears growing hot…god…my little brother was making me blush without making fun of me.

"I just have one question Kev," Nick asked softly.

"Yeah?"

"The girl who answered your phone?" He looked up at me, shy and nervous.

"A friend Nick, nothing more…and if she hadn't kicked me out of her house the second she realized it was your birthday then I probably would have stayed the night on her couch like I did when you turned 16 and none of this ever would have happened.

"I'm glad that she kicked you out then…" Nick trailed off.

"Was it worth the tears Nick?" I asked. "The pain that I caused you?" I begged god to let his answer be yes; more then anything I wanted to cancel out all of the hurt I had caused him these last four years.

"Yeah…" Nick nodded slowly. "I think so."

"Good…you know that I never meant to hurt you, I just…I thought that if I told you how much I cared then you'd flip out at me…never talk to me again, think me a sinner and the devil's advocate…" I sighed, trailing off.

"When I was sixteen I probably would have but now…now I just want you tell me that you love me too."

"Of course I love you Nick." I reached out and ruffled his hair, that gorgeous, sexy hair.

"Thank you," he whispered into my ear as I pulled him in to a hug.

"Anytime Nick…whenever you need to feel loved come and find me because have more room in my heart for you then you could ever understand." God…that sounded so corny! Kevin, if you say stuff like that again you're gonna lose him to some smooth talker.

"That means a lot to me." Nick smiled and I just looked at him for a second, taking in every aspect of his appearance at this exact moment.

"You're so beautiful…" I whispered under my breath, but I knew he heard me because I saw him blush…now I wasn't alone.

"Thanks…" He looked away and bit his bottom lip. It was cute. "So…are we like…are we like a couple now?" he asked.

"Yeah I guess…" That was a little awkward…I mean we couldn't go on dates or anything, but I didn't want to be with anyone else and I most certainly didn't want him with any one but me. "I mean if you want to, that is."

"I do." He nodded and smiled at me.

"So…" I held out my hand to him. "Do you still want to go bowling?"