This caught me off guard. Both of my brothers were matches, yet which one was going to give me a kidney? Oh god I don't know if I could even ask them to go through this anymore than earlier. But I was...dying. It scared me, yes, but the only thing running through my head was if I lost this battle to a kidney failure...I would lose my life with Kevin. My heart rate monitor began to beep incrudeously, my breath becoming more panicly rapid as I thought over the possibilities of me never holding Kevin's warm body to mine, ever again.

"Oh my god...Nick?" I felt a pair of hands take my shoulders softly, and my eyes readjusted to the beautiful face of Kevin looking worriedly down at me. "Nick, what's wrong..."

"Nick?" Joe scrambled over, he must have been lost in thought too after what we just heard. I felt another pair of hands, but this time they were holding my hands. "Nick-o, breathe, deep breaths."

I began to breath like a pregnant woman trying to give birth, staring into Kevin's loving eyes. Soon my breathing began to regulate and all I could do was stare. "I love you."

"I love you too, Nick-o." Kevin smiled softly, I felt Joe's eyes on us and my heartrate began to decrease slighty as I realized what I just said in front of Joe.

"I love you too Joe...don't forget that." I smiled nervously, hoping he wasn't catching the hidden meanings in me and Kevin's lovey-doveyness.

He only smiled.

"Yeah, same here, weirdo." He grinned, ruffling my hair. "So, Kevin...I think you should give the kidney..."

"Huh?" I watched Kevin give Joe an odd look, I was kinda stunned too, this wasn't like Joe to give up that easily. I expected him to argue with Kevin on who was going to give the kidney. "Really?"

"Yeah, really...that is, if your willing to..."

"Of course I am!" Kevin cut Joe off and it made me smile stupidly.

"Good, I'll go call mom and dad, and tell the doctor." Joe looked between Kevin and I for a minute furrowing his brow in thought before he moved to the door, his hand already grabbing for his cell in his pocket. I was still a bit curious at his previous stance as he paused at the door and smiled slightly. "Don;t forget...there are people who come in and out of this room?"

Joe opened the door, and both Kevin and I watched in shock as the door shut behind Joe and we were left alone. "Did he just..."

"I think so..." Kevin must be questioning what just happened too.

"Kevin..." I sighed, remembering the reason why we were here in the first place. "Do you think i'll die?"

"No, I have faith in you Nick." He leaned down and kissed me and I sighed contently. "Besides...we have our lives to live together, remember?"

"Yeah." I smiled. "We do."

We sat tight for almost a week, waiting, anticipating what was to come and almost two days before the surgury I felt major pain again.

"What's wrong with him?" Joe asked as he watched the doctor leave the room.

"We have to do the kidney transplant now...we have no choice."

I watched as I was pulled out of the room and down a long hall into a more dimly lit room, and I almost paniced if it wasn;t for the door opening again another bed, thing came in with Kevin laying on it. He smiled at me, but I knew he was nervous. So was I. They left us alone for a little bit, probably getting clean and stuff, which left me and KEvin alone for a nervous moment or more. I thought about us, about what would happen if I didn;t make it...if we didnt make it, and if we did. I took no chance as I turned my head, wincing as a surge of pain hit me again.

"Kevin..." I whispered.

"Yeah?" His eyes had never left me.

"I love you."

He smiled. "I love you too, and I always will."

"Kevin..."

"hmm?"

I paused, taking a shaky breath. I tried to find my voice, forcing it out.

"Will you marry me?"