Missing Dreams

Chapter 10

"Do you know that this is called kidnapping?" Lily asked for the millionth time as they stepped off of the Hogwarts Express for Easter Holiday vacation.

"No it's not, you got on the train without force," James smirked as he grabbed her small arm and steered her towards the floo network fireplaces so that they could get to his house. His parents were out at a meeting for the night so there was no one to pick him up seeing as he hardly ever came home over such a short break.

"No, instead you simply picked me up, made my trunk follow and sat on me until the train started to move," Lily pointed out as the followed him through the oddly close to empty platform.

"I picked you up because I felt as if your feet had done enough walking, and I couldn't very well carry the trunks and you at the same time! And I sat on you because I'm so attracted to you that my body is simply drawn to yours like a magnet."

"Uh-huh, whatever," Lily laughed as he drew her into the huge fireplace along with their trunks.

"Oceanside Mansion," James announced as he took a handful of green powder and threw it onto the bare stone floor.

"Wha-?" Lily started to ask as James held onto her and they started to twirl around in circles, passing room after room that you had barely a glance of until suddenly they came to a bone jarring stop, causing Lily to stumble into James' ready arms.

Lily looked up into James' eyes and felt the same tightening in her stomach that had been making itself known for the past three weeks every time James merely looked at her. When he touched her was a whole different story. It was as if her entire body was engulfed in flames, as it felt right now.

"Sorry," James said, steadying her body as he slowly backed up, not wanting her to feel the effect that she had on him every time she was close. Right now they were only supposed to be friends, that's it. Friends didn't show other friends their lust for each other.



"It's okay," Lily said her voice barely over a whisper as James pulled away from her. Just as James pulled away from Lily they heard a whoosh! From about their heads.

"Oh, no," James groaned as he hurriedly pulled Lily back into his arms and ducked his head.

"Ouch!" the three of the screamed all at once as they landed on the hard, unforgiving stone floor, Lily on the bottom of the pile.

"Get off, get off, get off!" she groaned as she struggled to breathe. Being under two growing teenage boys was not the easiest place to breathe. "Please get off of me."

"You left me!" Sirius announced as he scrambled off of James so that Lily.

"Uh, I didn't know that I was supposed to wait for you," Lily said as she rolled out of the fireplace and sat next to it on the black shag carpet.

"I'm not talking to you, I'm talking to him," he snapped, glaring at James as he stepped out from the fireplace, looking ashamed.

"I'm sorry, mate, I forgot," James said, looking at Sirius apologetically as he sat down on the blue couch, side stepping the glass table.

"Forgot? We've only been doing the same thing for the past seven years James! Then suddenly Evans over here is in the picture," Sirius yelled, storming away from the fireplace as he pointed at Lily, who was leaning against the wall looking at him with wide green eyes.

"Watch it Sirius," James growled as he stood up and faced off his best friend.

"No, James, she comes into the picture and you forget about everyone else. You don't let us help you with your problems, you rarely hang out with us alone, and you forgot to wait for me!" Sirius screamed, pushing his long black hair behind his ear furiously.

"I didn't mean to forget you Sirius!" James yelled back, stepping closer to Sirius. "And I'm sorry if I'm not around you all the time any more, but have you ever considered that if I left Lily alone she has no friends to go to?"



"That's not my problem! My problem is that my supposed best friend deserted me!"

"I didn't desert you, I asked you to go along with everything."

"Who wants to go along with someone and their girlfriend?" Sirius asked with a roll of his eyes.

"Why, I do it with you and yours all the time!" James shouted back, neither of them noticing as Lily slipped past them and out the room, searching for a way out.

"But it's not like I'm in love with them."

"So what, your true problem is that I love Lily and you don't love any of the girls that you dated? That is so … dumb!" James shouted, coming close to hitting him out of anger.

"No, this friendship is done. And over with," Sirius spat in his face, his brown eyes cold as he glared at him.

Suddenly a loud scream sounded through the hallway, causing James to snap his head towards the doorway, his eyes scanning the room for Lily. "Where's Lily?" he asked as he ran for the door.

"Hell if I know," Sirius shrugged as he followed his friend at a slower pace, still pissed off.

"Lily!" James screamed as he tried to figure out where to run. Not hearing anything James turned towards Sirius and sighed.

"I know that you completely hate me right now, but she's never been in a wizard house before. Will you please go that way and look for her?"

Seeing how scared he was for the red head, Sirius sighed and headed down the west wing of the house, looking for anywhere that Lily might be hidden.

"Evans!" he screamed as he reluctantly started opening doors and looking in.



"What do you want from me?" Lily snapped as she turned from the window that she had been at, staring at the rose garden that was Nichole's prized possession.

"Listen, I don't know why you ran away, but James is really scared for you, so go get the guy out of his misery," Sirius sighed as he leaned against the doorjamb so that he could follow her so she wouldn't get lost.

"I'm sorry that I've taken James away from you," Lily sighed as she stayed where she was. She felt horrible for coming between James and his best friend. Just because she had never had a best friend didn't mean that she couldn't understand how hard this was on James. And she was the cause. After everything that he had done for her, she didn't want to come between him and his friends.

"That's something for James and me to talk about, not you and me," Sirius told her with a roll of his eyes.

"Yes, but I'm at some fault here too, because I didn't take into consideration that he might have other plans made with other people. I'm sorry, I'm not used to friends, so I didn't take into any consideration anything like that," Lily told him, looking as if she was ready to cry.

"Don't," Sirius groaned as he looked at the ceiling. He was a sucker for a girl who cried. How could he stand around and not try to make the horrible tears go away?

"I'm sorry. Really I am," Lily said as she looked at him with those emerald green eyes that were close to shedding tears.



"Just don't cry. I will do anything if you just don't cry," Sirius said in a reverent tone.

"Sorry," Lily sniffed as she turned her back on Sirius. "It comes easy to me. I'm such a baby sometimes," she said and gave a weak laugh.

"Please don't hate James, Black, hate me. I don't know if he could go far if you hated him."

"I don't hate him," Sirius sighed as he came into the room, crossing the floor so that he stood next to her. "I'm pissed at him. That's a big difference."

"He doesn't deserve it. I know that to you he might, but from the way I'm looking at it, he doesn't deserve it. He's done so much for me, and I feel horrible if he gets repaid by his best friend and he being at odds." She told him with a wounded look on her face. "You don't understand what he's done for me Sirius. I don't think that anyone could know what he's done for me."

"Evans, just know that you can trust us as much as you can trust James. We won't let you get hurt again," Sirius told her as he laid a hand on her shoulder in a sign of friendship.

"You can't promise that," she said with a shake of her head, her hair falling over her shoulder with that movement. "But I appreciate the thought."

"Evans, you have my best friend's heart in your tiny hands. You better rest assured that I will stand in front of He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named for you so that he doesn't get hurt," Sirius told her solemnly.



"No, no one will stand in front of me and him, because I'm going to find a way to kill him myself for what he's done to my family," she said harshly as she continued to watch a colorful butterfly go from flower to flower, attracted by all of the different colors of the flowers.

"Give us a chance," Sirius sighed, figuring that there was going to be no middle ground with this girl.

"Thank you," she smiled up at him over her shoulder.

That was what James saw as he entered the room. His best friend with his hand on Lily's shoulder and her smiling up at him with that smile that made his legs go weak at the knees.

"What's going on in here?" he asked suspiciously as he copied the pose that Sirius was in when he first found Lily, crossing one jean clad leg over the other as he looked from one person to the next.

"Black was offering me his friendship," Lily smiled again. "I've never really had friends before."

James relaxed at the words and gave a nod of thanks to his best friend. For being such a prat he could also be one of the greatest people that he knew. And if you were Sirius' friend, then you could rest assured that he would take care of you when you were in trouble. That was the thing about Sirius, he was the loyalist person you knew, and would do anything for those he considered to be in his little circle.

"What do you say to some food?" Sirius asked as he rubbed his hands together. "I bet that minky has some out already."

"Mashed potatoes," James grinned as his blue eyes light up in excitement. "Come on, Lily, we men have to eat. And you pigeon's have to also."

Lily glared at James as he walked in grabbed her hand and started dragging her behind him towards what she assumed was the kitchen.

"I'm not a pigeon," she told him in a flat tone as she almost tripped over a rug in the hallway.

"She's right you know," Sirius told James as he followed, causing Lily to cast him a grateful smile. "She's a skeleton."

Her smile easily turned into a glare, causing him to laugh.

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Later that night Lily lay in an unfamiliar bed staring at the ceiling. It had been nice to feel as if she was in a family again, but at the same time it had made her miss what she had.

In many ways the Potter's had reminded her of her own family. The loud, boisterous dinner, the way that everyone had some kind of opinion to add on to 

something, even the cooking. She had a feeling that they all had gone out to make her feel welcome, but she appreciated it. And Nichole was a great and beautiful person. She only hopped that she could be like that for James.

At that though Lily sat up in bed, eyes wide with shock. She hopped that she could be a great and beautiful person to James? Where did that thought come from? She only liked him as a friend, so what did it matter?

As a friend, who are you kidding? Every time you see him looking at you all you're thinking about it what he would do if you were to go over there and kiss him brainless!

No I don't, she argued with herself as she lay back down and crossed her arms over her chest.

Yes you do. And what about those dreams you've been having about him and you in the..

Okay! Okay! No need to revisit those memories, Lily groaned as she moved one of her arms and covered her eyes in desperation. She couldn't like James like that. It would only lead to heartache and sorrow.

But you can't help who you like and don't like…and you more than like James.

"Who the hell made up the conscious anyways? It's a worthless waste of the brain," Lily huffed as she tried to ignore the internal debate she had going on.



Hey I object!

"Shut up…I'm not even supposed to be talking to you…Only crazy people do that…and what do you know, I'm still talking to myself," Lily sighed. "I just need to go to sleep."

You do that you crazy old lady.

Glaring at nothing in particular, Lily turned on her side and tried to fall asleep.

The last thing she thought about before her mind finally closed off for the night was what it'd be like to have James kiss her again. The feeling of his lips brushing against hers, his hands on her body.

…She had good dreams that night.

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Authors Notes:

Sorry it took so long!! But here you go…it's kind of a transitional chapter, but the next one will have a lot more going on. And not only that, I realized that for the first time in one of my stories, I really didn't have Sirius in it! He's one of the best characters to have to add humor to a situation, let me tell you! Lol.



Anyways, I'm finally done with finals, so I'll be all yours until August….well outside of work, but that's more time than I had.

Hope you enjoyed, and please review!

Mistress del Mare