Disclaimer: Still not mine
AN: I'm so sorry I didn't update in such a long time. To be honest I had to learn how to cope with my own life again, solve problems, make things alright again. Or give it a try, at least.
So once again, I'm sorry.
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Soul's tune
I turn around, facing the world again, my world. I try to catch a glimpse of heaven, before I shake my head slowly.
Heaven helped me once, it's time to move on.
It time to live again.
I smile at the person next to me, smile at his attempt to keep his cool mask, although sadness is shining all through his eyes.
Yes, it's time to begin my life again.
I raise my hand slightly to touch his cheek, feel his skin, embrace his warmth. His smile wavers a bit, while his eyes begin to water.
"I'll miss you." I murmur, while stroking his face with my fingers lightly.
He opens his mouth, but it seems he just can't get a word out.
Still not one for big goodbyes, ne koishii.
I slowly close the distance to feel him. And then my lips touch his.
And it isn't like I knew it at all. It's sweet and loving and fascinating.
It's full of everything I wished for all that time and it breaks my heart to leave it now, that I finally got the chance to taste it.
"Don't go." A mere whisper against my lips, mingling with the tears he tries so hard to surpress.
But we both know that I have to go.
I need to find my life again.
I need to find myself again.
I need to sort out the past to make a new future.
But Trunks doesn't seem to expect an answer anyway, for he brings our lips back together, kissing me like there's no tomorrow.
And maybe there isn't.
"I love you. I love you..." he whispers, again and again, as if saying those words would make them come true. Would make me stay.
I nod. I know. I knew it all along somewhere deep in my heart. He was the one to figure it out. It must pain him as well, that now, that he finally admits it, it can't change anything anymore.
There's just no turning back anymore. And I know he understands.
Time doesn't move in a picture.
But I can't live in the past.
Life is easy, if you don't care about the future.
And it's easy to smile, if you don't care about the truth.
I still love you, but I've changed myself.
I breathe in deeply and turn around.
Getting over the past.
Facing the future.
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He looks healthier now.
Still so thin, but nontheless healthier. His skin isn't as pale as before anymore.
I want to touch him, but I'm afraid he'll break. I'm afraid he will loose his determination again. And he needs it. Now of all times.
And so I'll stay quiet. Watching him. Watching him for the few minutes that are left for us.
A piece of heaven in a rotten world. Do you remember slow motioned times with little golden stars?
Do you recognize how hard it is for me to keep my appearance calm? Knowing you, I think you do. I want to hug you, kiss you. Everything.
Goten, don't leave me now, that there could finally be an "us". Don't go now, when we finally have the chance to make everything right.
But a single look at his eyes tells me, that he has to go.
He shifts slightly and moves his hand upwards to my cheek. His touch is like fire. Burning me, marking me as his. Marking me as his, while he tells me in the very same moment, that he can't be mine as well.
Marking me and leaving me empty.
I open my mouth, trying to get him to stop. Stop burning me. Stop hurting me.
But I just can't push him away. Can't push away this touch, when it could be the last.
"I'll miss you." He whispers.
And I want to laugh.
Then don't go! Don't go. Am I not reason enough for you to stay? Am I not reason enough to make you stay?
Eyes betray the soul and bear its thinking. Beyond words they say so many things to me.
And then his lips touch mine, melting with mine. Making me whole. But leaving me empty
Fighting time.
So hard I pray that this moment will last forever.
And will the world stay standing still. At least for me?
Through my eyes stare into me. I bear my heart for all to see, with my face turned to the sun, there ever standing still.
"Don't go."
Don't go without me. Don't go now, after all we endured. After all we faced. After all we went through.
Don't go now, that I know what we could have had. What there could have been.
I close my eyes and lean my head against front.
Count the seconds.
Count the time.
... it makes no sense...
My lips touch his once more.
Grant me this last moment, beloved, and I'll let you go.
Find yourself again. In a minute.
Find yourself again in a minute, but for now just give me everything you still are. Always were. Probably will always be.
"I love you."
There. I said the words I never thought I'd ever truthfully say.
And it can't change anything.
He nods and moves backwards.
Leaves me here, alone. Alone in the crowd. Somewhere far away my mind recognizes the sound of a camera.
I turn around to see a reporter watching me, his camera in his hands.
And it breaks.
I don't know what, but something inside me just... breaks.
I restrain a sob and quickly walk away. Run away. Alone in the crowd. With people who wouldn't really care but were to know anyway. Haunting me now, where ever I would go, while I would silently scream at them to leave me alone with my pain. Scream at them not to make my pain unbearable, when it was bad enough now.
Why won't the world stay standing still. At least for me?
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Okay. I did think about ending it right there. But after all this time leaving you hanging, I'll make it worth it at least and try a happy ending. So, cheer up, this is not the end.
I hope you'll review *even after all that time* ^_^
AN: I'm so sorry I didn't update in such a long time. To be honest I had to learn how to cope with my own life again, solve problems, make things alright again. Or give it a try, at least.
So once again, I'm sorry.
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Soul's tune
I turn around, facing the world again, my world. I try to catch a glimpse of heaven, before I shake my head slowly.
Heaven helped me once, it's time to move on.
It time to live again.
I smile at the person next to me, smile at his attempt to keep his cool mask, although sadness is shining all through his eyes.
Yes, it's time to begin my life again.
I raise my hand slightly to touch his cheek, feel his skin, embrace his warmth. His smile wavers a bit, while his eyes begin to water.
"I'll miss you." I murmur, while stroking his face with my fingers lightly.
He opens his mouth, but it seems he just can't get a word out.
Still not one for big goodbyes, ne koishii.
I slowly close the distance to feel him. And then my lips touch his.
And it isn't like I knew it at all. It's sweet and loving and fascinating.
It's full of everything I wished for all that time and it breaks my heart to leave it now, that I finally got the chance to taste it.
"Don't go." A mere whisper against my lips, mingling with the tears he tries so hard to surpress.
But we both know that I have to go.
I need to find my life again.
I need to find myself again.
I need to sort out the past to make a new future.
But Trunks doesn't seem to expect an answer anyway, for he brings our lips back together, kissing me like there's no tomorrow.
And maybe there isn't.
"I love you. I love you..." he whispers, again and again, as if saying those words would make them come true. Would make me stay.
I nod. I know. I knew it all along somewhere deep in my heart. He was the one to figure it out. It must pain him as well, that now, that he finally admits it, it can't change anything anymore.
There's just no turning back anymore. And I know he understands.
Time doesn't move in a picture.
But I can't live in the past.
Life is easy, if you don't care about the future.
And it's easy to smile, if you don't care about the truth.
I still love you, but I've changed myself.
I breathe in deeply and turn around.
Getting over the past.
Facing the future.
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He looks healthier now.
Still so thin, but nontheless healthier. His skin isn't as pale as before anymore.
I want to touch him, but I'm afraid he'll break. I'm afraid he will loose his determination again. And he needs it. Now of all times.
And so I'll stay quiet. Watching him. Watching him for the few minutes that are left for us.
A piece of heaven in a rotten world. Do you remember slow motioned times with little golden stars?
Do you recognize how hard it is for me to keep my appearance calm? Knowing you, I think you do. I want to hug you, kiss you. Everything.
Goten, don't leave me now, that there could finally be an "us". Don't go now, when we finally have the chance to make everything right.
But a single look at his eyes tells me, that he has to go.
He shifts slightly and moves his hand upwards to my cheek. His touch is like fire. Burning me, marking me as his. Marking me as his, while he tells me in the very same moment, that he can't be mine as well.
Marking me and leaving me empty.
I open my mouth, trying to get him to stop. Stop burning me. Stop hurting me.
But I just can't push him away. Can't push away this touch, when it could be the last.
"I'll miss you." He whispers.
And I want to laugh.
Then don't go! Don't go. Am I not reason enough for you to stay? Am I not reason enough to make you stay?
Eyes betray the soul and bear its thinking. Beyond words they say so many things to me.
And then his lips touch mine, melting with mine. Making me whole. But leaving me empty
Fighting time.
So hard I pray that this moment will last forever.
And will the world stay standing still. At least for me?
Through my eyes stare into me. I bear my heart for all to see, with my face turned to the sun, there ever standing still.
"Don't go."
Don't go without me. Don't go now, after all we endured. After all we faced. After all we went through.
Don't go now, that I know what we could have had. What there could have been.
I close my eyes and lean my head against front.
Count the seconds.
Count the time.
... it makes no sense...
My lips touch his once more.
Grant me this last moment, beloved, and I'll let you go.
Find yourself again. In a minute.
Find yourself again in a minute, but for now just give me everything you still are. Always were. Probably will always be.
"I love you."
There. I said the words I never thought I'd ever truthfully say.
And it can't change anything.
He nods and moves backwards.
Leaves me here, alone. Alone in the crowd. Somewhere far away my mind recognizes the sound of a camera.
I turn around to see a reporter watching me, his camera in his hands.
And it breaks.
I don't know what, but something inside me just... breaks.
I restrain a sob and quickly walk away. Run away. Alone in the crowd. With people who wouldn't really care but were to know anyway. Haunting me now, where ever I would go, while I would silently scream at them to leave me alone with my pain. Scream at them not to make my pain unbearable, when it was bad enough now.
Why won't the world stay standing still. At least for me?
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Okay. I did think about ending it right there. But after all this time leaving you hanging, I'll make it worth it at least and try a happy ending. So, cheer up, this is not the end.
I hope you'll review *even after all that time* ^_^