Everyone had left for business, leaving Anakin and Tahiri at home. He decided this would be a good time to talk with her, like Jaina had said.
He found her on the verdana, looking over Hapes. Her hair was down and willowy as she leaned against the railing. Anakin walked up behind her and put a hand on her shoulder. Tahiri flinched.
"Tahiri I don't understand," he said, "ever since I came back, you've treated me like some stranger. I just don't understand!" Anakins voice and risen in exasperation.
Tahiri turned to Anakin, emotionless, and gave a surprising answer, "Your right, you don't understand. You don't understand what its like when your friend never contacts you. You don't understand what its like to be taken by Vong. You don't understand what its like to have another person living inside your head. You don't understand what it's like to be weak, or scared, or alone," her voice lowered, "you don't understand what it's like to have your only stabilizer, your best friend, ripped out from underneath you, and you can't stop it. So your right, you don't understand." she herself away from the railing and walked away.
"So your going to blame that on me?" Anakin finally said.
"Why not? You take the blame for everything else."
"I-"
"What? Do you feel sorry for yourself. Anakin, I quit the Order after you left. You hurt me so bad I couldn't cry."
"I didn't know." he said softly.
"And the worst part is, is that there is no way after six months of healing, you could be in that good of physical condition. Meaning you stayed on Myrkr for a least two extra months getting back in shape." she stopped.
"I couldn't let you see me like that." Anakin mumbled.
"We're the ones who are meant to see you like that." with a small shake of her head, Tahiri walked away.
"Tahiri!" Anakin tried to stop her, but she continued to walk.
How dare he! was the only thought in Tahiris mind. Did he honestly think, he could just walk right back in. She had put up so many barriers to protect herself, they would take a lifetime to destroy. When she returned from the mission Anakin "died" on, everything reminded her of him. Quitting the Order had helped little if at all.
Tahiri had been pained so deep she hadn't been able to cry. She'd try, just to relieve the pain, but nothing worked. And now that he was back, her shattered soul hurt more than ever. She went into her tiny roomed where she could think in silence, she laid on the floor to try to get peace.
When seeing Jaina that night, Anakin told her about the meeting with Tahiri. After relaying the message, Jaina was shocked.
"I didn't know she had it in her."
"What, you've never had her blow up on you?"
"No, I mean literally. I didn't know you hurt her this bad."
"You make it sound like I broke her heart."
Jaina looked sad, "You did."