Flashback

Lee is dead. Gone. Not with me. Was he ever with me? Was this ever real? No. I won't do this. It was real. All was truth and honesty. Lee was truth and honesty even if he had to lie a little. Neji looked at me, watching my reaction . "How did he…" unable to continue, I looking up at the white wall, waiting for his answer. He never did tell me.

End of Flashback

I killed the man in front of me with a kiss. Poison Lips Jutsu where I collect chakra in my mouth and combine it with oxygen. I try not to use it because it makes me uncomfortable. I turn from the dead man, letting him drop to the ground. T

hen it begins: the process of losing my mind.

Damn, in the middle of a battle no less!

I can feel it. It makes my body shake. It makes my heart race. It makes my head pound. Fear creeps up my body. This can't be happening, here and now, when I have to fight. Fight for the villagers, for friends, for Lee.

I should have been taking it easy, not over doing it. I try to fight back but I only fall, slamming on to my elbow. My control is faltering. I'm going to loose all resolve and morality. "Kiba."

My voice is coarse. He doesn't hear me.

"KIBA!" I can hear it crack as I yell. I need someone. I need someone's help. I need him. I need his help. But Kiba isn't Lee. But he is close to it. He has to be.

Minutes pass, I hang on, keeping sane. No one comes. I look for Kiba. He is nowhere in site. What happened to him? I see Shino, so where is Kiba? He doesn't come. I'm so tired. I can't keep fighting. I can feel my body shake uncontrollably. I feel myself slipping, losing. No one comes. I change. Instinct. Breathe. Hunger. Thirst. Sleep. Pain. Fear. Live…Kill

--Neji's prov--

Tenten had gone mad ever since our mission in Suna. Now that I look back and reflect, I don't remember much at all. My whole focus was on Tenten, forget Lee and Gai. Tenten was in trouble.

We separated as usual, Lee with Gai and Tenten with me. An hour passed. Suddenly, we were attacked by the ninja Tsunade wanted interrogated. It wasn't long until we defeated him when Lee and Gai came running.

Some time later, we were already heading back home. But a sandstorm hit us like a brick. Gai and Lee were sent to retrieve water from the village we just passed. The detainee left in our care. My eyes were already feeling the weigh of the sun with nothing shielding me but now the sandstorm forced me to close my eyes.

Tenten said she had it all taken care of. Still, there was something about that ninja.

Five minutes of silence passed before I opened my eyes. The ninja was staring intently at Tenten, who was not moving a muscle or blinking.

Immediately, I shot kunais at the ninja and grabbed Tenten. She didn't respond to my callings. Her whole body seemed to turn to ice. I could hear the laughter of the ninja. At that moment, I wanted to break my composure and my rationality so I could break every bone in his body.

After Lee and Gai returned, we quickly returned to Konoha. Tenten had not moved an inch. Tsunade took her from my arms and into a surgery room. She came out with the conclusion that the ninja place a powerful genjutsu. The genjutsu however was not in his power to place.

Apparently, he had help from outsiders. She identified it as the work of Rain shinobi. But the genjutsu was heard of but never seen by a Konoha medic. It took her thirty days to find a solution to Tenten's comatose state. She did not predict the side affect which came a year later.

Tenten was no longer Tenten. And Tsunade, the legendary sanin, could not fix her mistake.

Lee died because of me. I lost control and attacked him. He died by my hand. I can still see his blood, his eyes. All sacrificed for me, just because he couldn't bare to hurt me. That bastard. That idiot. How could he not defend himself?

I hate him. I hate him. I HATE HIM!!

He was foolish. He was…my love. I love him.

Why did he do this to me?

I can't move.

Who is holding me back?

"Tenten, stop."

…Neji?

"Remember Lee. Remember."

Lee…why did you say his name? Why did you ruin the fun?

"No more forgetting."

But I want to. I need to forget him and you…

-Thunk-

Did Neji just?

I put my hand down. She would have to be restrained again, sent to the hospital again. I don't care as long as she stops hurting herself. Even if she wants to kill, she will never forgive herself I she kills another person, Konoha shinobi or criminal. It still matters to her.