Don't
know that I will
But until I can find me
A girl who'll
stay
And wont play games behind me
Ill be what I am
A
solitary man
- Neil Diamond, Solitary Man
They have all betrayed me, both Hermione and Pansy. The two girls who I had really loved had both broken my heart. I had found them both with other men.
I don't know if I will ever find the right girl, someone who I can really love, someone who will love me back. I keep having meaningless flings with random girls desperate to have a relationship with a Malfoy. But all I really see is you. I see your smile light up the Gryffindor table in the mornings. I see you fire up at any poor bystander. I love how your eyes flash with anger and your cheeks flush red with fury.
I don't know if you could ever love me back and I don't want to waste my life pining for you while you yearn for Potter. I don't know if I will ever find someone to truly love me, but if I don't then I will remain as is; a solitary man.