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Chapter13
It was a question that I did not want to answer, I'm afraid that as soon as I say it out loud she's going to see right through the wall I put up around my heart. She's going to see that it's not her that I hold there, it's Izzie.
"So who did you date?" She stares at me anxiously.
"It was a long time ago, does it matter?"
"That answer tells me it does….Who was it Alex?"
"Well…."
She sits up straight in the bed, never taking her eyes off of me.
"Were there more than one?" Her voice rises slightly.
"Kelly…"
"There were! How many…..no don't tell me I don't think I wanna know!"
"Like I said, it was a long time ago…"
"I think you better go."
"What? Kelly come on." I reach out for her hand, she sharply pulls it away.
"I just need to think about this, alone. Please just go find something to do I'll be fine with a little time." I nod my head and get out of the bed, slipping my shoes on and grabbing my key as I walk toward the door. "I knew you had been with other women, I just didn't think you would care about any of them." She says as I reach for the door.
"I'll take off for a few hours. I'm sorry I didn't tell you before, I was just hoping to leave my stupid mistakes in the past."
After I shut the door I realized I didn't have anywhere to go, so I went for a run in the park. As I jogged along the path, something caught my eye. It was Addison; she was standing in front of a taller man with a dark jacket on. He was back to and his head was mostly covered by a baseball cap. She was crying. Tears streamed down her face as she yelled at him; out of concern I started walking toward them. The man pulled her into a hug and the next thing I knew they were kissing. I stopped in my tracks when his hat flew backwards and landed on the ground below. It was Mark Sloan, kissing Addison not more than fifteen feet in front of me.
I wasn't sure if I should just turn around and walk away or march over and punch the jerk out! I chose the former. Maybe it was just innocent, after all I am the last person who should be judging anything after what Izzie and I almost did last night. I keep walking, going over things in my head. The next thing I knew I was standing in front of her house, staring up at her window. As I contemplate my next move I hear a voice coming from the driveway.
"Are you going to stand there all day and stare at my house or are you going to come in?" She is getting out of her car, I was so lost in thought I didn't hear her pull up.
"I thought I'd stare for a while thanks." I smirk at her and she smiles at me.
"Does she know you're here?"
"Izzie? I don't think so." She opens the back of the jeep, pulling out a long black bag.
"What's that?" I ask as I hold my hand out, offering to take it for her.
"It's Izzie's wedding dress, she asked me to pick it up for her."
"Oh."
Entering the house, Meredith takes the dress from me and hangs it in the hallway closet.
"Alex?"
"Yeah?"
"What are you doing here?" I'm sure she thinks I'm here to do something stupid and she might be right.
"I don't really know why I'm here, I was in the park and I just ended up here."
"Don't!" She yells at me.
"Don't what?"
"Alex, you know exactly what I'm talking about! Don't do it to her, not again." The last part comes out more softly.
"I'm not doing anything Meredith."
"Good. She's happy and it took a long time for her to get that way."
That reminds me.
"I saw something today…" Just as I was about to tell Meredith what I saw in the park, Izzie came downstairs.
"Hey what's all the yelling down here?" Izzie asks us as she looks back and forth between us.
"Nothing, just yelling at Alex for staying away so long. Do you still want a ride to the hospital?" Meredith asks Izzie.
"Yeah, I'll be out in a minute."
Meredith takes a minute to warn me with an intense stare, then goes to wait outside for Izzie.
"Iz…."
"Alex about last night, I know we were drunk but that's no excuse. We shouldn't have let anything happen, I mean thank god George showed up when he did. We probably would've ….well you were there, you know what we would've done."
"Yeah….."
"Anyway, I'm willing to chalk it up to yet another drunken mistake in my life if you are?"
Except the only problem is, for me it wasn't a mistake. Sure she's getting married in a few days and I have been with Kelly for five years now, but for me the only mistake's I've ever made concerning Izzie were cheating on her in the first place and leaving when we could've become more than just friends just over six years ago.
"Sure Iz, look I gotta go. Kelly is still not feeling great so I gotta check on her."
"I just talked to her; she said she was feeling better."
"She did?"
"Yeah, I called to invite her out with the girls tonight."
"And she said yes?" Uh-oh.
"Yeah, she said she couldn't wait to learn more about you."
"Fuck!" It slips out of my mouth before I can stop it.
"Alex, don't worry I have no intention of telling her about last night. That's something between us that no one has to know about. I gotta go."
"Yeah, me too."
"Oh yeah I was supposed to invite you to Mark's bachelor party, it's tomorrow night."
"He already had his bachelor party by the looks." I say under my breath.
"What?" She asks me with a confused look.
"Nothing, I'll see ya."
I pull the hood of my sweatshirt back up to cover my head as I start the long jog back to the hotel to find out what Kelly is up to.