-1Chapter 18

I slide the key card into the door lock. As I walk inside I am met with a pair of arms wrapping around me, she has been crying and I instantly feel bad for some reason.

"Where have you been? I have been so worried about you."

"I stayed at Meredith's, on the couch."

"Alex, I'm sorry for being such a bitch yesterday. I don't know what got into me."

"Thank you for apologizing, but I have been thinking about this and I wish I had just told you everything as soon as I found out we were coming here."

She lets go of me and I am grateful she does, it kinda felt like she was trying to choke me. I sit on the edge of the bed and hold my hand out, motioning for her to sit.

"You can tell me now, I want to know everything."

"Okay, where should I start?"

"The beginning would be nice?"

"Okay, when I first came here I slept around with lots of women. I won't apologize, because it won't change any of it."

"I know you slept with people before Alex. I'm not stupid enough to believe that when we met you were a virgin or anything."

"Far from it. The hospital held a mixer for the new interns the night before our first day of work; I talked to several women that night. One in particular caught my eye, she was gorgeous. I started a conversation with her, introducing myself. After about five minute's I did something stupid and basically told her she was too pretty to be a hardcore surgeon. That night I went home with George's wife, Olivia."

"You know, you don't have to tell me everything."

"I do, believe me. Anyway Olivia and I continued to sleep together for the next couple of weeks, until she broke it off with me."

"Why?"

"For George, they went out and she liked him so she got rid of me. It was cool because I was never serious about her. She and George didn't last long though, he was infatuated with Meredith, but that's a whole other strange story that I don't want to get into. Anyway, all the other interns in Dr. Bailey's group hated me."

"They all hated you?"

"Yeah, I was kind of an ass; anyway I did make one friend in the group. Surprisingly the gorgeous girl I insulted from the mixer became my only friend. After a while we started dating and I really liked her but like I said I was an ass, and I cheated on her…with Olivia."

"That's horrible, she must've hated you. I would've never spoken to you again."

"That's what she should've done; don't get me wrong she was mad at me. Really mad at me, but she gave me another chance at friendship."

"She stayed friends with you…..Lexie?"

"No, not Lexie. Izzie."

"Oh."

"I'm not telling any of this to hurt you, but I think you should know that these people, they are my family. Above everything they have always been there for me, even Yang in her own twisted way."

"I get it, you heard about me calling your friend a slut?"

"Yeah and I know that you were hurt by all of this, but I care about these women and I won't let you speak to any of them like that! And as far as Lexie is concerned, she is just a friend. There has never been anything but sex between us, I was never able to give her more."

"How many times did you sleep with her?"

"Not many, it ended as soon as she found out about the other woman I was sleeping with."

"What else should I know?"

"You should know that if there was one thing I could change in my life, it would be cheating on Izzie."

"What? That's the one thing you would change?"

"Yeah, because she's the only girl that I have ever been in love with."

"You son of a bitch!" She slapped me hard across the face.

"I got you a plane ticket home. I want you to leave."

"I wasted five fucking years on you…..she's getting married to a guy you hate, and you're breaking up with me? What's going to happen when she gets married and you come home? Don't you dare think I am going to be there waiting!"

By now she is frantically shoving her clothes into her open suitcase. I didn't want things to end like this but it isn't fair to string her along any longer.

"I am home; I'm staying here in Seattle. I already called the hospital and told them. There is a position for me here at Seattle Grace and I'm taking it."

"I hope this all blows up in your face!"

She pulls roughly on the zipper, closing the suitcase.

"Kelly, I am sorry for wasting five years of your life." Honestly I am.

"Fuck you Alex!" She screamed as she grabbed the plane ticket out of my hand and slammed the door behind her.