Chapter 13

"You thought I was Dead?"

They had slept the rest of the day and through the night but Kagome had finally woken just before dawn; Sesshomaru was still soundly sleeping, a state she found unusual for the Taiyoukai. Kagome found it odd that he could sleep through all the noise she had made as well as her moving from under his arm, though she had placed a large pillow for her substitute he hadn't moved throughout the entire process. Quickly leaving the premises Kagome headed home she needed to do some thinking and after the attack on her self and Sesshomaru yesterday she knew she shouldn't go back to her little thinking spot.

The drive to the house was quiet but her mind was whirling with what had happened yesterday, it all had been quite the revelation; she supposed she knew quite a bit about demons but not there mating rituals, things were going to be weird for a while. She didn't know whether she was going to fight Sesshomaru's claim or not, she was sure she had every right to, however there had been things since the other night she couldn't ignore, like the fact that since her very first meeting with the Inu lord she had been intrigued with him had a slight crush on him but at the time InuYasha had her heart. Seeing Sesshomaru again after ten years had caused a very strange fluttering sensation in the pit of her stomach which she knew wasn't nervousness; it was something more; something exciting. Kagome knew that she had never felt this way with InuYasha as much as she had loved him and it made her wonder what kind of love she had felt for the hanyou.

Why did Sesshomaru affect her so much, why did she sleep with him, why did she do any of the things she had while in his company. All this was giving her a head ache but it was things she needed to think about, she was now Sesshomaru's mate, and to fault her own ignorance would probably be difficult she should have known better; she should have just slept with Hojo if she just wanted to loose her virginity if she just wanted to experience it and not be an anomaly. Her body had been starved for the touch of a man and had responded with lighting fast reactions when Sesshomaru had touched her.

She didn't know what to do and hoped that she wouldn't get pregnant, that human contraceptives would work against his demon seed and prevent it. Sure there was the morning after pill but she knew it only worked with in the first three days and it was to late to take that road, that and the doctor wouldn't give it too her if she was already on the pill and had never missed one.

She was feeling things she really didn't want to at the moment things that were harder to deal with than she ever thought possible. For years she thought InuYasha long dead, all her former companions long dead; there had to be a reason for them not to show up when she returned from the past after Naraku's defeat. There had to be some reason why and the only thing she could come up with was that they had all died.

The day Sesshomaru had come to her, she was too surprised to ask the questions she truly wanted to; and over the following days she could never get up the courage to ask because the Inu Lord seemed to have no idea who she was and it wasn't until yesterday that he even remembered. These thoughts were depressing and she was emotionally confused about her feelings for the Sesshomaru, but right now she needed some space she needed to get her mind away from him and back on track, back on the case; she needed to work on her cars her mind would clear and everything would come much easier and perhaps she would even be able to get a hold on this case.

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His plans were in place and now he needed to put them in action, the first step was the Miko, she was the key to getting to Sesshomaru; that pup was going to die he would have his revenge he would make them pay. He would take away everything that the Inu Lord cared about before he destroyed him, he would take away his mate just as Takeo, the great dog demon had taken away Dante's mate before the bond could be complete, then he would destroy the bastard son of the demoness that was to be his.

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Kouga Sat in his car a long time before he was able to work up the courage to even leave the car, five hundred years and he was nervous about how she would react to seeing him again. What would she say? He had never been a coward in his life, never been afraid of how someone would react, even in his business he was always ruthless, always demanding. Today, however he was nervous and scared but he was going to see Kagome, his woman, his friend, and he would finally be able to let go of his regret at not being able to save her.

Finally leaving the dark green Porsche Kouga headed for the large estate house. The beautifully planted garden caught his attention, it had been planted to resemble the field of wild blue bells that he had taken her to years ago. It had been the third time he had been able to take Kagome out from under InuYasha's nose he had taken her to this field under the moonlight. It had been the most romantic time he had spent with her, she didn't know it at the time but he had been courting her, and from the looks of things she had remembered and cherished that night.

He lifted his hand to knock but didn't get the chance as the door was opened from under his hand. The woman in the door wearing a pair of cut off jean shorts and a black tank top, her long black hair swept up in to a high ponytail her back was to him but her scent...

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"Okay, I'll be in the shop" Kagome said turning around and running right into a very sold; very male chest.

"Um.. sorry" she said into the shirt covered muscle as she tried to back away but two strong arms held her in place.

Lifting her head she looked up in to the only slightly older looking face of a certain wolf demon.

"Kouga?" Kagome whispered his name like she couldn't believe that he was here.

"Kagome, I...we all thought, you had died" his voice was soft.

'Died' she thought

"You thought I was dead, but I don't understand...wait, you can explain over a cup of coffee" she said opening the door at her back.

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She was gone, only her scent lingered on the sheets, the sense of panic was unbelievable, overwhelming. The bond wasn't complete and because of that he had no idea where she had gone off to. Dressed in only a pair of silky white pajama bottoms, Sesshomaru had searched his house top to bottom and only when he got to the kitchen did he find some evidence as to where she had gone.

A letter was placed in the center of the mahogany table.

Dear Sesshomaru

I didn't want you to worry about where I have gone, I just went to my house, I need to think about everything that has happened in the past few days. I know this is not what you wanted, and if I could take it back I would, but things have gone on a different path. I don't want to burden you, what happened between us was a mistake. I need to spend at least a few days alone to try to find a way out of this so that you could be with some one you want.

I'm really sorry this happened

Kagome

His heart constricted, it wasn't a mistake and their joining was fated to be, it had been divine intervention. Sesshomaru wasn't going to let her go, he wasn't going to allow her to break the bond that was between them already. What if she had already conceived what if she was pregnant, he knew it would take a few weeks to be sure but still he would not allow her to separate them his beast wanted her, hell he wanted her plain and simple. There was something about her that caused his beast to calm and allowed him self to think clearly when ever she was around. Making love to her was like no other, he had never felt for anyone else what he felt for her. He would make her fall for him what ever it took he would hear those three little words from her lips.