"I don't understand; Saya's wound is healed. Why won't Saya wake up? It looks as if she's comatose," Kai told Julia.

"You forget, she hasn't slept for three weeks, perhaps she will wake up when her body feels her strength has been compensated. Her wound took a long time to heal because of her lack of sleep, she also skipped her blood-transfusion appointments," Julia said and then she turned to Solomon and Hagi.

"Solomon, Hagi, did Saya mention anything that might be troubling her? Is she still grieving over Carl or any other past events?" Julia asked. Solomon felt ashamed at himself; he knew that he could not tell them. It was Saya's wish that he'd never speak of what she told him, or rather, confessed to him. Nonetheless, he would have to tell, for Saya's sake.

Who knew what Carl was doing to Saya in her dreams now? Whatever he was doing to her it disturbed Solomon's mind greatly.

"Yes, she told me that Carl started coming to her in her dreams a few weeks back," Solomon started, the room went dead silent

Saya didn't know when she woke up, but the sun was sinking down toward the horizon. The sun was setting, how long had she been here? Whenever she went to sleep at night she'd stay in this world for only a few minutes and awake when hours passed in the mortal world. She averaged about eight hours of sleep, which kept her here for about half of an hour. All she knew was that now she was awake and alive in this world, every minute she'd feel more alive in this world. Especially when she and Carl fought. She was unknowingly sharing her body with the someone who created this world. The person that was originally the only real thing in this world, maybe, she now, too, was real in this world.

Why else would the pain and pleasure feel so real to her?

No! She couldn't stay in this world. She had a lover, a family, and friends. She fell to her knees and cried, throwing her sword into the air and it sliced into the ground by the tip. She screamed into the sky, the blood on her skin glistening as the sunlight hit her form.

"Mother, why are you crying?" Diva asked as she walked out from behind one of the willow trees. Saya looked at her and Phantom's daughter and then turned her head away.

"Why are you covered in blood? Were you having a nightmare before you came here? Were you dreaming of Vietnam? Father told me that that was the place where he fell in love with you," Diva said, she sounded so innocent and somewhat perplexed, as if her memory had been wiped of all its sorrow and deception.

"Y-yes," Saya lied, she didn't want to hurt her daughter by saying Carl did this to her. Then again, she wanted it so much.

"Would you like me to take you to the house? To shower?" Diva asked. Saya nodded her head and Diva walked toward her.

"Is-is Carl there?" Saya asked as Diva helped her stand up.

"Depends," Diva said. Diva brought Saya to a large mansion that was hidden behind the hills where the sky lining always looked crimson along its steep. Diva gave her a black kimono to wear and showed her Carl's chambers where the master bathroom was. After a long wash of scrubbing her skin and hair clean she dressed herself and left after thanking her daughter.

She walked through the labyrinth of willow trees again, looking for a way to escape. She spotted her sword and grabbed the hilt; it shook as she endeavored to pull it from the ground. But, it was wedged deep into the ground as if it was Excalibur.

"It won't budge, not until I tell the earth to let it go," Carl said as he appeared beside a willow tree. Saya looked at him angrily, wanting to kill him.

"You bastard, what did you do?" Saya asked angrily. Carl chuckled and walked up to her, grasping her shoulders and leaning into her face.

"Nothing that you didn't want me to do, remember? If I recall correctly you asked me to beat you? Or, was that just a dream?" Carl asked as he set his hands on her face.

"I thought so," he said, and then he leaned in to kiss her but Saya started to speak.

"I want to go home," Saya said. Carl chuckled and smirked.

"This is your home now, my bed is where you belong," he mocked. Saya pushed him away but he grabbed her and pulled her into a kiss. Saya broke the kiss by kicking him in the stomach, though she attempted to kick him in the groin. But, it worked all the same.

"Never again! No matter how much you say I am your lover I will never love you again! I can't and I won't!" she cried and then ran off through the trees. She was panting and screaming allowed her false alleges.

"I don't love you! I will never love you! I must fight you!" and finally she collapsed to her knees and wept. Her hands grasping the ground beneath her and her body trembling, Saya was fighting herself.

"I can't love you-I won't. I...I must kill you. I-I don't love you-I will never-I will never..." she couldn't finish, she had to cry. She felt Carl near her and sit down next to her. He brushed her hair away and wiped her tears away, Saya looked at him miserably. Carl was smiling softly, he cupped her face. Saya's tears were beautiful and filled with deception and denial.

"Saya, if you want me to hurt you then I will, it will take away your pain. You get just as much pleasure out of it as I do, we are mad with passion to love and hate each other. And until we go mad all I want is for you to stay with me. Why can't you just accept that you are my bride?! By blood and relation, remember? You are both my enemy and my lover by blood bonds," Carl said. Saya pushed him away and turned aside, wanting to run but Carl grabbed her arm. Saya squeaked and then she started to speak.

"I can't accept it because in the past you killed! You killed innocent women and children! You tried to kill the people I love and took part in Riku's rape and assassination. You tried to kill me, you beat me, and you raped me..." she gasped into tears for a moment and then stifled them. She turned to him, beginning to tremble but her voice was still bold.

"How can I ever face my heart while knowing that?! How can I ever forgive you when I know the truth now? Even without all my memories I'm awake and I don't need to be awake to tell you I don't love you anymore!" Saya cried. She closed her eyes and struggled to hold back the tears. Carl released her arm and Saya's arm immediately covered her eyes. The tears streaming down her face and dripping off her chin. Carl sat there shocked, and then he chuckled and pulled Saya into an embrace.

"And yet, you love me? Saya, am I the one who is truly hurting you? Weren't you much happier with the lies? My blissful dark angel, love is a shadow, it can be hidden, nevertheless, it's always there," he said, he pushed Saya back from the embrace a little and looked into her eyes.

"And, no matter how many times you try to rid yourself of me, I will always be your shadow." he promised.

Their faces neared and their lips touched softly, tears streaming from Saya's eyes as he kissed her.

It was wrong, but it felt so right.