ShadowedDarkness: I'm so sorry that it took me this long to get this out. I ran into some major writers block. Now because I'm sure no one wants to talk to me at the moment, I'll skip everything and let you just read. On with the story (smile)
Memory
Breathing deeply, I buried my head into the soft pillows on my bed. My mother sat down heavily next to me.
"Do you mind telling me what the hell that was all about?" She growled. She was angry, but I could hear the worry that lay hidden in the background. After all, I did trash the house. I smiled into the pillow. Honestly, I didn't regret doing that either. It was a bit weird, but I didn't care. That static-y feeling in the back of my mind seemed to grow at those thoughts.
Wincing, I rolled over to face my mom. I was afraid of this feeling in me. I was terrified. I was Angry! I was angry at Riku, that liar! And I was angry at her! Who the hell was that guy! And why the HELL was he with my MOTHER!
Sitting up, I glared over at her. "Who is that guy downstairs?" It came out as a whisper, a calm question. But inside I was bursting with rage, a rage I have never felt before coursing through me. That static-y feeling seemed suffocating; all it was doing was fueling my frustration and anger, why wouldn't it go away? Why was it here? Why was that man here? "WHY IS HE HERE?!"
My mother glared back, her own angry expression crossing over her face. "Don't you dare switch this conversation around to make ME feel guilty Sora!"
"Well then, out with it! Who the HELL is that guy!" I growled, crossing my arms over my chest. She was keeping things from me!
"Sora!" She cried, exasperated.
"I want to know! Why is he in our house! Why was he with you?!" I growled dangerously.
"He's in our house because I invited him in, and his name is Leon, he works with me… Sora, enough about me, what's wrong? What's going on, you're never like this..." She trailed off; her arms went around me for the second time that day. And just like that, I felt calm. The anger subsided as she let me rest into her shoulder. "I want to know that as well. Please tell me, you can tell me, I'm your mom." She whispered softly, soothingly, a small smile on her face.
I felt myself stiffen at the word 'mom'.
The static was back…it felt suffocating. Blinking, I tried to keep the darkness away from my field of vision. I couldn't remember what I was doing…..all I knew was this sudden rage.
Pulling myself away from the comforting embrace, I hissed. "You are NOT my MOM! My mother is gone. I don't know who my real mother is. If you had it your way, the fact that I was adopted would still be hidden from me as well. Why do you keep things from me! Why does everyone seem to think that it's okay to lie to me?!"
A startled and frightened look crossed her face. "What are you-"
"DON'T START!" I was seething, that inky blackness that seamed to want to cover my eyes, my vision, was growing, but I didn't care, I was seeing red. Taking deep calming breaths, I crossed my arms in front of my chest. "Let me ask you something? Who's Brandon? Who's the man with the amber eyes? And why the HELL am I seeing a dead person in my dreams! CAN YOU ANSWER THAT?!"
Her face turned white. "H-how, how do you remember…?" She whispered.
That was the final straw. "I DON'T, that's the whole problem. Wait, these are fucking MEMORIES!" Spinning away I found myself storming down the stairs.
"Hey kid." Lifting my head to glare at the man in the room, I growled.
"Hey Leon, get the fuck OUT!" Pushing past him, I pulled open the door and ran outside. Running, I found myself in the clearing at the park. Fuming I glared at my surroundings, I can't believe she had actually kept things from me! How dare she?! How dare she?! That, that, that BITCH!
After a while the anger subsided to a dull throbbing pain. A low throbbing pain in my heart, that's what it was. Falling to my knees, I felt the sobs rack body. What did I just do?
What did I do? Biting my lip, I covered my face with my hands. I couldn't remember…all that I knew was that it hurt, it hurt so much…
It was raining…
Sobbing, I felt the eerie feeling of being watched. Lifting my head, I stared up at a dark figure at the edge of the clearing, cloaked in shadow.
"You did something bad Sora…"
Dropping my hands, I stared. "How do you know my name…?"
"I know everything Sora, I know what you did in the past, I know what you did…"
Suddenly I felt scared. Who the hell was this person! Standing up, I shook my head. "I get it now, I'm dreaming. This isn't real," I smacked my forehead with my hand. "I don't have a random stranger talking to me, telling me they know my past and, HOLY SHIT ARE THOSE WINGS?!"
"What else would they be?" That came out as more of a statement then a question. I sat back on my heals heavily, Oh my god….what the hell was going on?
"You need to remember Sora…"
"I- I can't…" I whispered. This isn't real, this isn't real. That's all I had to tell myself, I could get through this, I just had to remember that this wasn't real, this wasn't real.
"Oh, I'm very real Sora. And you mean you won't, not that you can't. You force yourself to forget. You don't want to remember, I understand this…but you must remember." The voice pushed.
"What are you talking about….go away! GO AWAY!" Clutching my head I pulled myself into the fetal position. "THIS ISN'T REAL! GO AWAY!"
"I can't leave Sora, not until you remember..." Came the soft, almost sorrowful reply.
Sitting up, I glared as much as I could at the figure before me. "I told you before…" I was screaming now. "I don't remember! I'M SORRY! I am, but I just...don't remember…"
"You will see…all in time. This is hurting you more to keep it all locked away… child of the light, lover of the darkness, brother of one who was never supposed to be…"
And with that, he... no it… was gone…
Curling back up into my ball, I wept, the tears still falling….just like the rain…
ShadowedDarkness: Well, that's all I have, I know its short….Well, any suggestions or ideas for what to do in this story would be much appreciated. Oh, and thank you everyone for the reviews before, I really would have given up on this story if you hadn't. Thanks everyone!
Sora: Well, review please (does puppy dog eyes) and help by giving some ideas
