Robin
When I had a crush on Starfire, I had a mission, another purpose in my life.
She was a light, shining brightly and I who resided in the dark, like a moth to a flame, was drawn to it.
When the light was finally mine I was happy for a time, and felt my mission, one of my purposes, was complete but I had a sense of needing something I could not place.
I told myself that I loved the light, reveled in it, needed it to get past my darkness and return to where I belonged but it was not to be so.
I was born into light but that light died along with my parents; Richard was born in light. Robin was born in darkness.
Oh how I craved for the light when I was in darkness, the grass is greener, seems greener, on the other side.
Then Starfire came, she is smart, carefree, happy, pretty, lovable and innocent, she is a see-through type of female and was interesting, like a book, but after one reads one does not have to read it again.
Raven, she was the mystery, the book that writes itself, unpredictable. I guess I was not romantically inclined to her at first because I was running away from darkness which was my 'father'. But she was like a mystery book, I could read her but even that was a challenge and she kept adding more. She is drawn back, intelligent, exotic, beautiful in her own way, opaque.
I could not, cannot be what Starfire would like me to be. I cannot be her Prince Charming and she cannot be what I need.
She also felt this so we decided to break up 2 months and a day after Tokyo.
Then Raven came and comforted me in her own special dark way. I was once again in the darkness, it was like a warm loving blanket.
And she was there with me in the darkness, was there and not a word she said as I ranted about everything and nothing, and when I finally stopped she laid me down on my bed and with a look, told me to sleep.
When I woke up, she was gone but a sense of anticipation was building up in me.
I had a new mission.