Spoiler alert:Don't be surprised if you find the whole Twilight Saga being referenced from in here. Or Midnight Sun. K?
Disclaimer: STEPHENIE MEYER DOES OK I KNOW. SHE OWNS THEM. GAHHH
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In response to isabellamasen02:what happened to the real bella though? did she swap places with the girl in the story right now? Bella is just sleeping in her/my mind, as the story goes. She didn't go out to the real world and swap places with me, she is just in a temporary peaceful slumber. Hope this lessens confusion!
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Preview: "WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU CAN'T SEE HER?!" I hissed, shock causing me to almost fall off my seat, if it hadn't been for the, you know, driver's side door of my Volvo.
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Chapter 6: Flabbergasted (Edward's POV)
If it weren't for the extreme blood lust that I had for the mysterious new girl, I would've laughed out loud in a way that would have shocked everyone – especially my siblings, and given someone (i.e. Emmett) the more reason to think I'm mentally unstable, and not just because I've been without a mate for, oh, say, 100 years (against vampire nature, he reckons, though how people concluded vampires are fundamentally sexual beings, I do not know. Oh wait, Rosalie and Emmett… never mind.)
Reason being is that as soon as the girl in question by the name of Bella stopped examining me, and not the same way every female had in the past upon the first meeting, she casually brushed me off and sat down.
That was during my last period of class, Biology. Underneath my trying to control the monster inside me and its thirst, I didn't know whether to feel normal, because she treated me normally, or to feel offended, that I was ignored and treated indifferently. I wanted so bad to laugh at both thoughts I considered.
I had to wonder, had my ego swollen to epic proportions already, what with the countless women - and female vampires - who threw themselves at me in the past? (A/N but we still love you anyway, Eddie-poo) I didn't want to think so. Well, that is until the end of Biology class that day.
If that wasn't enough, the next thing she did absolutely stunned me. The moment Bella sat down on the stool beside me, without looking at me at all, she tucked her chin down and into her shirt's collar, then crossed her arms on her chest, and almost completely stopped breathing. All my medical training from Harvard wanted to kick into full gear to resuscitate her or something, but once I had realized that she was doing this on purpose… I was… so… confused. Why? Why was she doing this?
Again, a new wave of thirst engulfed my throat. A quarter of me entertained ideas of how I would be able to lure her out of the classroom, and inconspicuously drain her dry… I would linger outside in the hallway… wait for her to exit… start small talk… knowing how humans react to vampires, our mere breath draws them to us… all I had to do was get close enou- NO!
Carlisle! Esme! Alice! Jasper! Emmett! Rosalie! Help me, save me from myself!!
I realized it then and there that her actions summed up to somehow indirectly aid me and my blood lust over her. I reckon that if I didn't have the blood lust for her, I would've scooped her up into a tight hug just to thank her for her help. Ah, but then again times haven't changed that much. Especially if one is to compare the now to the year 1917 I was raised into, really. Such behavior between a boy and a girl still isn't accepted, especially out of the blue. In a high school classroom, no less. And I was raised better.
Again, the thirst throbbed. Damn it! Why wasn't I stronger than this?! In the back of my head, I pictured myself grabbing her hand, seducing her - so easily done - to come with me to one of the dark corners of the school and… ALICE!
No! I'm not a monster! SAVE BELLA FROM ME, ANYONE!
I then closed my eyes, trying to snap out of it, and focused more on the more important issues at hand. Why was she acting the way she did, as if she knew what I was thinking, and what I was going through? Did she know that her actions helped me control my aching for her blood by more than half? Did she do those deliberately? Oh, if I see her blush again, as when she first sat down, I'm dead. If it's possible to die twice. (A/N: oh eddie, you think too much!)
Ughh…. I don't understand any of her actions. Normally, humans would feel scared of us. They would naturally shy away, and keep away. She didn't. With her, it didn't look like fear or anything, it just looked as self-preserving. Like prunes. Wait, that doesn't make sense. Let me re-phrase…
Ugh, this blood lust is making me unable to think properly. What's do prunes have to do with anything?!
She was both fearful for her life and not fearful at the same time, as if even if she were fearful for it, she'd still want to sit beside me and start chatting casually. After about a few minutes in her stance of looking like she was freezing, she looked at me through the corner of her left vision. I, for some reason, just had to look at her at the same moment as well (not intentionally at the same time, honest!). Ah, damn that Murphy's law. Alice, you little annoying pixie-vampire hybrid… why aren't you coming to save me yet? Why haven't you called on anyone to get me out of this rut?
I had to remind myself not to breathe every other second. Even if vampires don't have to… I have to particularly mind not to breathe her scintillating aroma.
She looked at me as if to assess, but that lasted for only a fraction of a second; she then looked out the window letting her gaze linger there longer. I guess she was looking at something else, and not me.
I felt a tiny tug on the heart in my chest that I had long thought was non-existent. What was that about? To see her not interested in me at all… I wasn't used to it. That irked me. Not that I liked the interest the other women had for me, I mean.
What was happening…? My blood lust being momentarily sidetracked.
When the bell finally rang to announce our release from this institution, I was so ready to leave that I somewhat rushed too fast - that is, for a human (if my redundancy might be pardoned) - that my movement looked too fluid. Unfortunately, Bella was looking at me. I could feel it from my peripheral vision. She looked too… observant, and she was. She was chuckling at how stiff I was moving. Wasn't she just afraid of me? What's with the change of heart? I thought, more bewildered about that, that I couldn't comprehend why I was happy she wasn't afraid of me.
Ahh… enough of this enthralling scent… enough of the soft, plum looking blood red lips she had… enough of her silky looking dark brown hair… enough- what was I just thinking?! ALICE!!
I turned to look at her after gathering my things on my way out, and saw her still holding her stance of chin-tucked, shoulders-raised, and arms-crossed grace. She was still amused by my stiff actions, and now I was more amused of her appearance, too.
It really was amusing at this point in time, as I had mostly controlled the thirst I had. Kind of. All right, not really. But I was shocked that I was distracted enough that I could look at her more closely… I opened my mouth to ask her why she was in that stance - what with her shoulders and chin and everything, oh, and possibly why she was ignoring me (we ARE lab partners after all! A small introduction wouldn't have hurt!) - but decided against it. I didn't want to risk anything with this girl.
What the hell just happened there? Did I really just try to open my big mouth and talk to her, as if I wasn't longing for her blood? Was my ego THAT bruised that I wanted to ask her why she was treating me that way, a way in which none of the other women I've met in the past had? And what was up with that luscious lips and silky smooth hair bit? Ughhh.
"Which one is it?" I asked myself bitterly in the back of my head. "Which one weights more at this point, not drinking her blood, or satisfying my own curiosity of this befuddling little creature?"
Oh, God. Have mercy on us all and forgive us of our sins and trespasses.
I got out of the building in which the Biology laboratory was in, glad to have the scent of the human girl marginally dispersed in the wind, and headed straight to my silver Volvo S60R. I decided to wait out for my siblings in the safety of my car, where her scent wasn't to enter. I'm mad, and that's an understatement. I'm mad because I know Alice could have foreseen this coming and at least warned me about it.
Hell, with the million tiny decisions and indecisions I made (i.e. with bella - seducing, luring, sucking her of her loose connective tissue called blood), I would have expected her with everyone in tow dragging my ass out of the laboratory. But that didn't happen. WHY?
Lo and behold, the first person I wanted to talk to had arrived. "ALICE WHITLOCK CULLEN." I called out, not needing to heighten my voice what with vampire super-hearing, but apparently, she didn't need my tone of voice to hurry inside the car. I was shocked out of my wits with the first thing I noticed though:
Why did she have a faint smell of Bella on her?! I felt my eyes darken an even deeper shade of onyx.
"OH MY GOD! EDWARD! I'm so worried about her!" Her frantic expression on her face was grave enough that I had my anger turned down by a notch or three, but inversely, my anxiety rose in ten fold. I then clenched my hands harder on the steering wheel, as if trying to gain its support.
Oh God, she couldn't have! She didn't… Bella… did she?! ALICE!!
I fought back the grimace on my face; someone had to be the calm one. "Alice, calm down. Who? Who are you worried about? Esme? Rosalie?" I was honestly clueless. But as fate would have it no other way, the name that I was just thinking of just slipped out of her tiny mouth. I think I almost broke my steering wheel. So much for being the calm one.
"ALICE! What did you DO to her?!" I practically screamed at her. Apparently, she knew that I knew who she was speaking off. She flinched, not used to my outburst. Truly, this was the first time I had reacted in such a way. Where did my patience go?
"I didn't do anything, Edward! She just tripped and almost fell and hit her head on the floor earlier! But that's EXACTLY the PROBLEM! Alice retorted.
Problem? As if my blood lust for her delicious red life wasn't enough of an enormous problem for both of us… "How is that exactly a problem? She tripped and almost fell, you came and caught her just in the nick of time. Stop over REACTING."
"NO! IT'S JUST THAT! I CAN'T SEE HER IN MY VISIONS! I CAN'T SEE ISABELLA SWAN AT ALL!" Alice shouted out loud. Spectators outside noticed me and Alice somewhat disagreeing, and stared us despite the rain.
But I didn't give a rat's ass about them. I was too flabbergasted to care.
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU CAN'T SEE HER?!" I hissed, accidentally bearing my fangs, shock causing me to almost fall off my seat, if it hadn't been for the, you know, driver's side door of my Volvo.
"I mean I can't see her! UGH!" Alice was so frustrated, worried and all that combined.
Now it made sense. It made sense why she hadn't foreseen my struggles in the Biology laboratory. Why she didn't make Emmett and Jasper barge in to drag me out. Why Carlisle hadn't called the school to let me out due to a family Emergency. Hell, why Esme hadn't picked me up herself.
"We… have to help her." Alice added calmly at the end.
On the last part she said, my jaw dropped.
"No, Alice, it doesn't concern us. Besides, with what? She's practically an adult now, she doesn't need vampire babysitters." I said icily, hoping she had forgotten that I had over reacted to the fact that Bella's future was Pandora's box for Alice's ability. Alice, once again, was shocked. At least this sidetracked her from my reaction.
"Edward! Listen to yourself! There's a girl in trouble here, and she's practically a danger to herself. How can you refuse this?!" Oh, maybe because the danger you speak of, I could be the top 1 on that list? Oh, no no, I am. Maybe, just maybe.
But I wasn't going to tell her that, oh no.
"…I am perfectly being rational right now, thanks." I then hastily added, "but I will be going away for a few."
I read her mind then, having interesting thoughts about me and Bella. Damn.
"There is to be no match making, Alice." I stated to the pixie-vampire sternly, but she just looked at me, equally intimidating, as if to say 'don't you dare me, young man!'. I was THAT tempted to tell her just how much I wanted to satiate myself with Bella's blood.
"NO! Like I said, I'm going to be going away!" I panicked, but hid the traces of my blood lust for Bella well. At this, she glared at me more.
"You're going to be coming back soon, though. That much I can tell." She replied
Apparently, she had not forgotten one bit about my over reaction to not being able to see Bella's future. Cunning little vampire, this thing.
This Alice… Is she planning something? No, she is planning something.
"How would you know? Wait, never mind that. Besides, why are you so concerned for her? You don't see her future, why are you so sure something bad will happen to her?" I asked, really concerned, but tried to hide it anyway.
"I just have a gut feeling, is all." She looked at me solemnly. To this, I was also shocked.
"I'm still going. I leave tonight. Don't tell anyone yet, I want to talk to Carlisle first." With that, I saw the others - Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie - headed towards our car, and saw Bella for one last time as she drove her Chevy truck past our car, apparently not having seen us.
What is Alice thinking? No wait, that I can read.
What is Isabella thinking? I just realized that I couldn't read her mind at all. I forgot through the blood lust earlier to hear her thoughts and check what she was thinking.
Oh god, her future could not be seen by Alice, and her mind could not be read by me.
Isabella Swan, what exactly are you?
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Author's notes:
Oh god, EDWARD YOU THINK TOO MUCH! Because YOU think too much it means I have to think too much! MIGRAINE!! LOL
Ok, not really. Anyway, I REALLY wanted to add his whole disappearance in this chapter, but realized that'd take like 7000 words lolz this is already 2500. Don't you all think its already too long? Cuz I DO! ANYWAY. I'll continue with Edward's stay in the Denali coven in chapter… oh… say, 7? If I don't finish with that, then after 7, it might be 9. Things are starting to ROLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.
Ok imma shush before my bestfriend dies of waiting for me in AIM to finish this hahahahaaaha (uploads 11:37 pm September 26, 2008)