I woke up and quickly found my clothes on the floor and put them on. Johnny was still asleep, and he still reminded me of an angel. I took a shower, and noticed Russ must be at work. I walked into the living room, and Dallas was sitting there smoking a caner stick.

"Busy night last night, kid?" he lifted an eyebrow my way.

"Not really, came home, went to sleep."

"Sure," he lifted another eyebrow, "I'm not stupid, kid."

How the hell did he know? Was he listening? I didn't think Dally was that perverted.

"You're a perv, Dally."

"I'm not, I just heard it, you musta made him feel real good about you, to get him to get that close to ya."

Great, now he's gonna tell someone, probably Two-Bit. Now, everyone and their mom will know.

"Don't worry, Two-Bit was here, I'm pretty sure it's gotten to the guys already."

"I need a smoke," I said digging in Johnny's jacket for his pack which I did not find. Dally leaned in the doorway holding a smoke out to me, so I took it and joined him on the porch.

"Hope you kids were careful, we don't need no babies around here."

We sat in silence the rest of the time, and Johnny eventually joined us, which to his surprise Dally was asking him how the night went. He just blushed somethin' fierce and looked at his shoes while smoking.

Johnny and I headed to Pony's already expecting the guys to ask questions. We didn't even make it up the steps before Two-Bit came out cracking jokes about us. He was makin' horrible moanin' noises, and I felt like I could punch him in the face. Dally walked up and told him to cool it, so he did. Pony was the first one to get Johnny alone. I felt like I was being watched while the rest of the guys kept looking at me, and nodded to each other.

"Whats you guys' problem?" I almost screamed.

Soda snapped his head up, and Steve just looked away. Dallas sat coolly at the other end of the couch, looking off into space. Two-Bit had already left, I suspect to hunt some action.

"Nothin'" Soda said.

"I'm outta here, I don't need guys degrading me for loving someone!" I yelled and covered my mouth.

"You what?" oh shit, Dally sounded pissed.

"You love Johnny?" I could now see Pony at the kitchen doorway.

"Yes, I do love Johnny, I told him last night."

I saw something I couldn't register in Dally's eyes, and then I darted out the door, heading for home. I was a good ways away, when I heard a pair of feet pounding the ground. I felt a hand slip into mine, and I looked over to see Johnny.

"I told them, I told them I love you too."

I smiled and he did too, finally we were out in the open, but I was always told to not get emotions. I guess, I didn't always follow Russ in those ways. I was better then him. We got home, and I knew it'd be a long night. Russ hadn't showed up which I thought was odd, and there was a knock at the door.

I opened it to reveal two cops, and I immediately thought Russ was into some deep shit.

"Is there a Mrs. Rhodes here?"

I shook my head, I always kept my trap shut in front of cops.

"Who're you then?"

"I'm Lynn Rhodes, I'm the youngest."

"We have some news on your brother Russell Jay," he said taking the clipboard from the other officer.

Great, he must be in some deep shit.

"What'd he do now?"

"He was shot this morning, he passed away earlier this afternoon."

No, this can't be happening. This can't be what my life is supposed to be about. Jerry died, Russ was there. Russ is dead, who is here now?

"Thank you," I mumbled trying not to cry. They headed down the steps and got in their car and drove away. Johnny had left when we got home to go somewhere with Dallas. I knew he wasn't going to be back for awhile. I grabbed my smokes, and ran all the way to Pony's house. Soda was sitting on the couch, and he was the first person to see me. I launched myself at him, bawling my eyes out.

"What happened?" he asked stroking my hair, letting me soak his shirt through.

"Russ, he's….he's…he's…gone. He got shot," I choked through sobs.

Soda just held me, and then I felt more arms around me as Pony got me to sit between them. I cried for awhile, then I felt my eyes getting heavy and fell asleep in Soda's arms.