Chapter 2 - Teddy

-Flashback-

October 12th Seventh grade

School was dreadful, Trisha was trying to pull Helena back into the pranking and rumourscene, but Draco took all of Helena's time wherever she was. Life was pulling at her from all sides, but she was too busy to notice. All the time she almost broke off with Draco were now finally put to an end. She could never do it, unless he did something stupid of course.

'Helena!' She turned hearing the voice of her still best friend.

'Oh hey Trisha, what's up?' Helena smiled and saw Trisha look worried.

'I wanted to talk to you about Draco.' What was up now? There had been more people wanting to talk to her about Draco...

'What now?' She frowned and looked quite agitated in Trisha's point of view.

'There's this girl...' Helena groaned and held her head with her hands.

'Trisha... if you even try lying to me it won't work. Try to get your nose out of my bussiness before our friendship breaks itself up. Come on, we both know we'll die without each other.' Trisha shrugged, knowing that she just wanted to tell Helena the truth, but Helena was too much in love to notice. If only life could go back to the year before, when Draco didn't cheat on Helena. They had been such a perfect couple.

'Suit yourself.' She waved the problem away and walked back to where she came from.

May 23th Seventh grade

She's been so blind. Trisha had warned her, Blaise had warned her and even Draco showed signals. He had been with another girl during the summer and now he still cheated on her. Her mind was driving her mad and everything that currently was happening ripped her to shreads.

She went to find Draco, this was going to end. Hallway after hallway, staircases moving down.

Tears streaming down her face and it only got worse when she found him in bed with someone else. Her heart broke right there and then. His eyes stood wide and it looked like that he wanted to explain himself as she ran away, screaming that she hated him.

-End Flashback-

Arriving at Trisha's compartment we both immediately started unpacking and deviding the rooms in what purpose they were going to fulfil.

'How about we'll go out tonight to celebrate that were no longer there?' I wondered what Trisha was up to now... We don't go out very often you see.

'Sure... how long is it going to take before our NEWTs arrive?' Trisha yawned and laid down on her bed lazily.

'About a four weeks, why?.. Oh wait, you want to know if you'll be able to get your dreamjob. That's it, isn't it?' I grinned, I so desperately wanted to work at St. Mungo's.

'Yes and you?' Her hands were raised in the air, first displaying strange signales before she finally remembered how to make her thumbs stick up.

'I hope so.' Continuing with our chatter and eventually putting on music, we were done by the end of the afternoon. We had given the walls different coloors, some had icons, some had strange items in them. Stones, wood, glass, fabric, it was a bit like nature in a dark way plus some unusual items, like a tv where we would be watching Quidditch games and new known things on the new channel Wizard Conclussions. Of course there were also other channels, but I'm not going to explain them all to you.

'Okay, let's get dressed and then we'll head off to this place I've heard of.' I nodded, retreating to my room. I felt sweaty and sticky, so the first on my list was to shower to get rid of the smell that was forming beneath my armpits. Gross!

I wasn't going to wait any longer, she had told me to but I wasn't going to. Trisha had been in that walk-in closet we shared for about a half hour now and that was a bit too long to my liking.!

'Sorry to have kept you waiting, here you go.' She handed me a long black dress and some black high heels, before pushing me into the room to get dressed. She had already been ready for a few minutes I guess, with her white dress and her hair flowing over her shoulders, she was as beautiful as she was a year ago.

'Put them on so I can do your hair and make-up.' I got out of my jeans, till I figured out that my shoes had to go first.

'Where are we going?' I heard her making a mess as usual, behind me.

'It's a party, for rich people, you know how much my mother likes to give parties like that.' Trisha's mother is giving a party? But she never does that unless something is going on... She's got to be kidding me! I thought and looked at her with wide eyes.

'What's the occassion?' I suggested her not to tell me that it was because of my pregnancy and she clearly shook her head.

'No, it's because I'm no longer under the vision of the old geezer. Now hurry up!' Tripping over my own feet, I managed to look like a fool, but not even then did Trisha laugh. I really did need to hurry up.

It was very crowded and you could clearly see that it was for only rich purebloods as Trisha had indicated before.

'I don't feel very much at home, the mean looks they keep giving me.' Her hand was placed on my shoulder and she whispered something in my ear.

'That's because youre beautiful and single, they're just jealous.' Swallowing, I kept walking and after only a few minutes we found Trisha's mother. She was a nice lady, who liked keeping her looks up in order to keep attracting stares. Her husband wasn't that happy with that fact, but he had to live with it, since he could show off with her.

'Good evening mother, this is Helena. You remember her, don't you?' The elderly woman closed her eyes for a moment to think.

'Oh yes, last year when we went to take you home, we saw her drive off in a limo...' Money was always big bussiness in her eyes.

'Oh... that. It's nice to see you, mrs Frost.' She laughed at my use of words.

'Just call me Heather, deary. Jean Claude, come here, I want to introduce you to Helena Gessele. Isn't she a pretty girl?' The man nodded and made me blush, I had never blushed because of a man before, so it made me feel akward.

'My pleasure, ms Gessele. Daughter, how do you like the party?' Trisha pouted and let her shoulders hang.

'It's a bit crowded with old people, isn't it?' Her father laughed and took a look at the schedule one of his butlers brought him.

'Don't worry, they'll be going in half an hour or so. Then younger couples and their children will come. I hope the Malfoys will come, I did invite them.' My eyes went wide slightly, but only Trisha noticed.

'Excuse me, I think I need some fresh air.' Her parents nodded, but Trisha followed right after me.

'I know, but he's still at school, isn't he?' I screamed and held my head as I crouched down in panic-mode.

'His parents don't know of our break up, not yet.... they'll be angry at him. You know what they'll do to him when they are angry!' I loved the Malfoys to pieces and I used to love Draco as well. It was too much for me to bear now.

'I know, I know, the torturing curse. But so far as I know he deserves it. He deserves it to suffer as much pain as you have had in the past few weeks.' It sounded like logic, as it usually did with her, but I was so confused.

'But imagine, if they have invited his parents then my parents will come along immediately, as Narcissa will invite them.' Trisha scratched the back of her head and looked at the sky. It was already becoming late, it seemed like we had arrived only seconds ago.

'Maybe it's better that we get out of here as soon as possible. If I had known this I hadn't even tried to get you here and would've gone alone.' We hugged, it always helped to get control of my emotions again when she hugged me.

'Best Friends for Life.' We held pinkies, something we decided on when we were drunk once, though I don't remember when. Trisha is always the more sober one when it comes to drinking.

'Oh there you are dearies. The Malfoys and Gesseles have arrived. Come along to say hi.' Almost. Almost were we able to sneak away unseen, but Heather had to see us.

'Hi mom.' My mother looked at me surprised and put a fake smile on her face.

'Oh hi deary, I didn't know you were here. And to go seperate is a bit odd.' Oh god, he did come along. I thought and looked away from my mother to not alarm her.

'Helena, how good to see you!' Narcissa hugged me and I immediately felt like I was going to fall to pieces.

'I don't feel so good, could you excuse me.' Even before I got to see Draco, I ran out, fortunately not creating a scene as the others didn't mind someone running out. Trisha came after me only fifteen minutes later. She looked a bit troubled.

'We're having a problem....'

Last night had been dreadful as I heard my and Draco's parents were discussing marriage between me and Draco. I had immediately gone back to discover Draco was dancing with someone I didn't know. I had told them of our break up, maybe Trisha had been right. Draco deserved to be hurt as much I had. I didn't leave out much detail, making it even worse for him. I had expected though that the Malfoys would never want to talk to me again, but instead they turned their backs on Draco. He seemed to feel an unknown emotion as Malfoys normally don't feel emotion. Especially Lucius was very disappointed in him, like he had expected it already, making the punishment even more terrible than Narcissa suggested. I smirked the smirk I always used upon victory. Knewing he had seen it, I told my parents and Trisha's folks that I was leaving.

The whole night I hadn't been able to sleep. I felt sick, really and the thought that I might become a mother made me happy and sad at the same time. I had been sitting up for a while now, looking out the window and saw the sun rising.

'Elle? You look terrible....' Trisha came over from her bed and sat on mine.

'I'm going to pamper you all day, how does that sound?' Suddenly I was remembered of my morning sickness and I ran for the bathroom.

'I think that means that it sounds good.'She joked, running after me.

'What now?' I had been sitting in front of the tv for a while. Trisha always kept her promises so now there I was sitting, in front of the off tv, waiting on my breakfast.

'Almost ready... oh and I have a suprise for you.' I let myself fall down and yawned because of my lack of sleep.

'Huh?' On that very moment, the door opened and two heads came round the corner. Blaise and Richard had come to join Trisha in pampering me. According to Trisha, Richard has had a little crush on me ever since he saw me, so I'm ought to be a little suspicious of him, sometimes.

'I brought vanille icecream.' Richard held up a bucket full of icecream.

'And I brought along coffee beans for your favourite coffee, don't you love us now?' I got up from the couch and walked right past them. I closed the door and looked at their shocked faces.

'You forgot to close the door. I'm already cold as I am now.' Both their grins were replaced by sad looking faces.

'What?' I held up my hands in defence and walked back, till my back reached the door.

'There's something you're not telling us, little one.' Blaise lifted me off the ground and back on the couch, where my blanket was laying.

'Come on, you can trust us.' I got tears in my eyes, I didn't want to tell them and at the same time I wanted to yell it at the whole world.

'I'm pregnant...' That sure hit them as they kept looking at me with wide eyes.

The guys had reacted totally different then I had expected, they didn't try to force me to get an abortion. They wanted me to make my own decision.

'How long?' Blaise had been laying with his head on my lap for a while now, looking at the Quidditchgame on tv. Richard was sitting between my legs and Trisha was sitting on the floor next to him. Snacks were all over the small table and the sound of the tv was put very loud.

'I guess... about 3 weeks.' I guessed, since that was the last time I had been in Draco's bed. I still can't believe that I was so oblivious, but love really does make blind.

'And abortion can take place till 20 weeks right?' I nodded and got my hand through his hair, seeing him smile at me.

'Yes, but I don't want to wait that long. I want to make my decision as quick as possible, that way I can't bond with the baby if I don't want it now.' The game had been over as quick as it had begun, it had been exciting but they had shortened it in, since it was only a summary of what had happened the day before.

'That was a nice game. Need something Elle?' The pampering day was still on, but I didn't feel like being pampered. I could do what ever they wanted to do for me, I wasn't wounded or anything.

'No, thank you.' I put my legs on the couch when Blaise went away for the bathroom, now I had some legspace.

'Want some of that icecream?' Richard placed the bucket on his head with a spoon laying on it. I grinned, his spontanious behavior was always nice to have around.

'Yes, why not.' I took it from him and opened it. While eating it, I felt something hard in the icecream when I had switched from the spoon to my hands. (I know normal people don't do that, but it tastes nice too this way. Like it is rather strange to eat a chicken leg with knife and fork.)

It was a key.

'Uhm, Rick? Is there supposed to be a key in the icecream?' He nodded entousiastically.

'This special flavour does have one.' I felt the urge to break out in a grin, the way he talked made me feel normal. Feeling normal feels good.

'Explain.' I put the bucket on his head and saw him duck because of the cold. You could hold no secrets from me.

'It's a present.' I felt excited when he first said that, so it wasn't quite surprising that my voice sounded a little higher after that.

'Where?' He hugged my legs so I couldn't go just yet, not until he told me where it was at.

'I let Trisha bring it into your room, so I guess it's there.' Knowing how much I liked presents, he went right after me to see the look on my face when I opened it. There was a box standing on my bed, you know like an old-fashioned jewelrybox, the one I liked.

'And you didn't even notice I was gone a little bit too long during the break?' I smirked, putting the key in the hole. Upon opening it, I found a teddybear and a dummy.

'In case you might keep the baby, it's a nice remembrance. At least what I thought.' Tears stood in my eyes and with the teddy still in my arms, I hugged Richard.

'Thank you.' When I let go, I kept hugging the teddy.

'I think I made my decision. I'm going to keep it.' Richard smiled, taking the beanie off my head.

'A mother shouldn't be wearing such a thing.' I smacked him in the arm playfully and took the beanie back. Putting it on the teddy's head, I smiled thinking of the little thing in my belly.

To be sure that the baby was healthy, I went to St. Mungos. All three went along, Richard getting extra cuddly to me. I don't mind really, I need the support now Draco isn't there to help me. I really need to put him out of my mind, but I cant since he's actually down there. It's saddens me to hear the child in the future ask: "Mommy, why don't I have a daddy like all the other children?" Really, not like that of course, but it hurts as much.

'Don't worry madame, your baby is healthy. Shouldn't the father be let in?' I didn't really listen to his question when I answered.

'Let them all in please.' Once the healer let them in, they asked about the baby, but the healer shushed them.

'I think you'll be happy to hear that your baby is healthy.' He said to Richard, who became very red.

'I am not the father, though I'm honoured.' Then the healer turned to Blaise who shooked his head too.

'Miss?' He apperantly wanted to know what was going on.

'The father left before knowing I was pregnant.' I said, not wanting this healer to know what was going on, it was already as complicated as I wanted it to get.

'That's sad to hear. Doesn't he know at all?' I shook my head, letting my hands rest on my stomach.

'It's too early to determine whether it's a girl or a boy... but I think we'll find out soon enough. Here's a card, that will make sure you'll get immediate service. Come by for your monthly check-up and if you're getting contractions it's best to take contact with me, here's my card.' He handed me two cards, one for the check-ups and one with his personal number.

'Good luck.' After he let us out, Richard broke out in a grin.

'I don't mind being the father.' I elbowed him in his side and then softly smiled.

'Maybe I'll consider making you the godfather if you're lucky.' A big boyish grin broke out on his face and he hugged me.

'Please, please!' I tried to squeeze out of his bearhug.

'The baby first needs to be born!' I said like I couldn't breath and felt his grip loosen. I pushed him away grinning. He now knew I was joking and went after me, ignoring Trisha's pleads of walking slow. She could be so lazy sometimes.

The strange thing was that later that week I got a letter from the Malfoys. Them explaining to me what they did to Draco and if I needed any comfort I could always just drop by. They also told me that they had thrown Draco out of the house.... after cursing him. He could drop by if he wanted, maybe sleep a day or two, but he couldnt stay there if it wasn't in the holidays or in the weekends. Even for Draco, this was cold and maybe a bit sad.

Trisha read along over my shoulder though and cheered out loud, while I considered maybe telling the Malfoys. I like them a lot, even more than my own folks. When I first came to Malfoy Manor they took me in with open arms, like I was already part of the family. Without them I wouldn't want to live any more.

'You can't be serious! If you tell them, they'll tell Draco!' I shook my head, pulling my knees up and rocking forth and backwards.

'I don't want to keep something back from them, they're are more like family than my own parents.' Trisha made a gesture that looked a lot like "it's your decision" or "don't involve me in it". Maybe both, she had many gestures so you don't know which is which unless you know her like I do.